#bluelizardspeaks

[bluelizard100]

Kidnappers poly 141!!!! We’re eating goooddd!! We’re eating good 🙌🙌🙌!!

Thank you!

I love the kidnapping trope like don’t get me wrong I don’t want to be kidnapped. But I DO entertain the idea of being stolen away and taken care of…

I DO like to think about being loved unconditionally by four hot boyfriends who are also boyfriends with each other…

[bluelizard100]

sorry for disappearing again there’s not much happening in my brain but I want to share a story

When I was fifteen I got my hair cut in a short shag. For a while I just had short hair (and I don’t get my hair cut as often as I should so tbh I was always in that awkward growing-out phase and looked like shit lol)

But ever since I got my hair cut like that people started confusing me for a boy. Fine, whatever, didn’t really bother me.

Fast forward four years and my hair is longer now. I STILL get confused for a man. I was at the doctors for labs and I was in the little gift shop to get a bottle of water & there was a dude talking to the woman at the counter. He moves over and says “you go ahead, sir.”

I say nothing about it cuz it was kinda mumbled and I wasn’t really sure if he actually said sir or if I misheard. I get my water and thank the lady at the counter, she says have a good day and the dude says “have a good day ma’am”

Bro had to make sure he corrected himself

I get how I can be confused for a dude because I’m tall (5’10) and I was wearing all black & also a mask but like… I have boobs dude.

Another funny story my senior year in high school some freshman girl I didn’t know heard someone call me ‘her’ and whispers “I thought that was a boy…” & this tiny freshman boy is like “how does she look like a boy?” and stares right at my chest

Idk it doesn’t really bother me cuz I dress “like a boy” & it doesn’t happen that often but ever since I got my haircut 4 years ago, it apparently has to happen at least once a year

[bluelizard100]

just gotta bitch a bit ugh

So apparently there’s an official kinktober list? And on TikTok I saw a video saying basically the official prompt list was disgusting and whatever

One of the comments was like hey this is my trauma and I don’t care about the kinktober list and a response was just “people respond to things differently”

my question is how are you not comprehending the fuckin hypocrisy of your own comment

“People respond to their traumas differently but it’s only okay if you respond this way, the other ways are bad and wrong!!!” Wrap it up pal

Nobody is forcing you to read anything and lots of authors don’t follow an official prompt list and just write whatever they want.

Like yeah there’s stuff on there I don’t wanna read because I don’t like it. There’s stuff on there I don’t wanna read because it makes my skin crawl! But at the end of the day it’s fiction. It’s not harming anybody.

I can sort of see how people are calling it romanticization cuz, y’know, it’s KINKtober meant for freak stuff and getting off

But some peoples freak stuff is FREAKY. And that’s okay, cuz the beauty of kinktober is you don’t have to engage with any works you don’t want to!

I don’t see anyone complaining about goretober or whumptober. So why do we gotta complain about kinktober

[bluelizard100]

Hey just wanted to say hi and hope your doing amazing!

Thank you!! I really appreciate you checking in💙💙💙

I’m going to use this as an excuse for a bit of a dump on my situation lol

CW talks of chronic illness, poor mental health, medications, etc

So im not sure if ive posted about this before but im chronically ill, and ive been chronically ill for a long time now but ive only just recently been treated.

The treatment for my particular ailment is an antidepressant, so back in May I had to stop the medication that I was already taking (and I think worked quite well for my mental health) to start the new med for my illness.

Fast forward to now, I find out that this new med doesn’t work good at all for my mental health and that the anxiety I was feeling was kind of overriding whatever the new med was doing for my illness.

Long story short I had to come home from college for a while to try and find a different treatment. I’m not really sure where to go from here other than doctors appointments.

Might need a hiatus :( might not, I’m not really sure. Things aren’t going too good but this too shall pass or whatever

Love yall 💙

[bluelizard100]

heyy ik it got finished a while ago but a continuation of "his love" (the ao3 one) would be so cool!! i rlly love ur writing style ans that fic was sooo good! obvs don't feel like pressured or anything if u don't wanna, just thought id ask <3

I’ve been thinking about it for a while and this might push me to write some more for it ngl…

I’m kinda swamped with late work for school rn 💔 but when I’m not so busy with that I might write some extra chapters

Feel free to leave any suggestions or scenarios if you’d like :)