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bluest-paladin replied to your post “Where are you from?”
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batoushoujo replied to your post “Where are you from?”
from my heart
Who are you people and why are you so nice???????????
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Corny as it was it still brought a blush to the brunette’s face. “Eh? Ah thank you? I wouldn’t say that.” Thinking a bit she didn’t know if she should flirt back or not. “Um are you a bell cause I got my wings.”
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Onsen date
After they were late from both breakfast and the first team exercise, Allura made them undergo the most rigorous day they had ever spent in space. Apart from a ten minutes lunch break, she did not even let them sit down until the clock hit seven o'clock.
It was not like they could not spend time together during the day, but somehow Keith was always with someone. Pidge, Shiro, Coran; there was not a single minute when Lance could have found him alone. He was extra jumpy anyways: whenever Lance came close to him or talked to him or even just looked at him he stopped whatever he was doing, his voice broke, he averted his gaze. He somehow managed to do it subtly, but he could not hide what he was thinking about from the blue paladin.
Keeping their secret became a hundred times more difficult.
In the afternoon, the castle reached a planet where, after offering a helping hand with rebuilding a town with the strength of Voltron, they were given a place to sleep at and a tour around the forest and the hot springs it was apparently famous of. The next day was spent with the same task, but this time they did not use their lions. The houses were built of wood and stone and thus they could repair fifty in a matter of twelve hours, but it was a tiring work nonetheless.
Around seven o'clock, they were invited to a feast that seemed to be mundane for the locals but not for paladins on goo diet: if there was not a hundred types of different dishes then there was none at all, accompanied by a dozen kind of wine and beer (though their consumption was strictly forbidden by the princess). It was past eleven when the gathering finally ended and almost everyone went to bed—except for Keith, because when was the last time he did the same thing as everyone else?
When the town finally went to sleep, he sneaked out to one of the hot spring resorts they fixed yesterday. It was cleverly built: it was perfectly enclosed but the pool was bordered by wide, flat rocks, suitable to be rest against or to sit on. On the opposite side, an ivy-mantled, wooden wall guarded the guests' privacy but neither tall enough nor having a roof to block out the view. There was a lavender-like scent coming from somewhere even though there was not a single flower growing there.
After a brief shower, Keith tied up his hair and immersed himself in the hot water—a bit too fast at first, he almost slipped in surprise. Once he found a comfortable spot to sit down on and lean against the rocks, he looked up to the sky. There were considerably less stars in this galaxy but this planet had two moons instead; and for some reason he found it incredibly fascinating. However, his interest in such heavenly matters did not last long. He swiped left and right in the water, then lifted his hand to see how it pours out through his fingers. He noticed that it felt heavier than usual, but then he kind of got lost in the sensation itself.
The last time he was in a pool was during the pilot training in the Garrison where they had to learn how to leave their ship should they land in a sea: and it was the first one, too, for he never had the money to attend the school trips to the beach. It was incredibly embarrassing to learn to swim in the Garrison at the age of fifteen, but he would have never ever imagined he would associate being in water with fun.
He smiled in disbelief as he raised both of his cupped hands and let the water fall back in one splash. He repeated it a few times, trying to hold more and more before it slipped away. The slight, buzzing feeling under his thighs, the refreshing hotness enveloping him, the curiously entertaining sound the water made whenever he moved it, it was all so... so pleasant he could not help himself but laugh at it.
After such a hard days work, Lance had planned on going straight to bed. That idea was promptly thrown out the window when he noticed Keith was nowhere to be found.
The red paladin had been impossible to catch alone ever since... that night... Lance knew exactly why it was - he still managed to fluster himself with memories of it too, after all - but that didn't mean he wasn't determined to hunt Keith down, especially on this planet with optimal onsen date opportunities.
Just as he'd suspected, the hot springs they'd repaired the day before had lights shining brightly among the sleeping village.
Gotcha.
Using his top notch and super stealthy ninja abilities, Lance snuck through the facility in silence, only the sound of running water and light splashing echoing throughout as he undressed and washed up in record speed, sneaking out from behind the wall with nothing but a towel around his waist.
Kinda like Keith back then...
Ah, there he goes, blushing profusely all over again.
Speaking of Keith, now that he was able to look around the building, he got a good look of the other's back whilst he played around in the water. That's right. Played. Keith was playing. And laughing. All wet, with his skin tinged pink due to the heat. And his hair was in a fucking ponytail--
Honestly, how could a guy (other than Lance, of course) be so cute and hot at the same time? It's totally unfair! Not to mention Keith was off being this adorable without him. This was an important event that Lance definitely should have been invited to! He needed to get a grip on himself, preferably one that wasn't just him clutching at his chest in an attempt to calm the adoration pumping through his veins.
He took another moment or two to compose himself - and also maybe to just watch Keith a little longer - before standing straight with what he hoped was an unruffled expression on his face, clearing his throat with a weak smirk.
"Havin' fun?"
Busted.
He could not understand how he did not hear Lance walking up to him, the guy had even taken a shower. Was Keith this preoccupied with splashing water here and there? Wow, what a stupid game, what a stupid and embarrassing game to enjoy. He could already feel his cheeks burning, but thanks to the hot pool, there was no visible trace of his fluster.
He turned around to face Lance—Lance's legs, to be more precise. Oh, boy. He had a towel around his knees, that meant that he would have nothing above his waist, right? His heart was already flapping like an alarmed bird's wings, finally they were alone, but again, they were alone... He was not sure he could handle the happiness that came with this simple fact. It was such a good feeling it was almost scary.
He swallowed before he glanced up to him. Jesus Christ. That smirk should be announced first so he could prepare himself for it, not just thrown at him like this! No, no, Keith, keep it together. You remember what cornered preys do? That's right, they fight back. That's what you have to do.
Alright. Alright. Be uh, how do they call it. Hot?
He turned around his entire upper body towards the blue paladin and leaned ahead to rest his left forearm and right elbow on the rock. He put his chin in his right palm and with a sly smile he squinted up at him.
"Not as much as I'd have with you."
A single drop of sweat rolled down on his forehead. Shit, that was lukewarm at best...
Maybe it was something to do with both their current states of undress, or maybe it was because Lance was already weak in the knees from the scenario he'd walked in on; either way, his heart still skipped a few embarrassing beats at Keith's flirting attempt. Honestly, he's gotta give himself props for not falling over - if he's lucky, the red paladin will write off the deepening flush on his cheeks as an effect of the hot spring heat, rather than the heat of his words...
None of that, however, stopped his smirk from trembling with restraint before quickly caving and turning into a full on grin, followed by the kind of giggle he couldn't hold back every time Keith put on a flirtatious persona. This guy is unbelievably precious.
It didn't take him long to compose himself (at least, as best as he could in this situation), smile turning lopsided once more while he waggled his eyebrows suggestively and bent down to get closer to the angel in front of him. "That can be arranged if you're not gonna hog the pool~"
Shit, shit, shit shit shit alright, it's cool, keep it together, you expected Lance to flirt back, didn't you? His smile trembled and he sunk back a little bit. He was only an inch away from pushing himself up on the rock, close the distance between them and kiss him, but he did not want to look that eager, he did not want to embarrass himself even more. It was enough for today that he had seen him playing in the water like some newborn duck.
He chewed on his lower lip before glancing away.
"How come you aren't asleep?" he asked, turning his back on him to lean against the stones. He rested both of his forearm behind himself and closing his eyes he sighed deeply. The air was sure heavy and yet there was something refreshing in it. Was it that strange flower scent he had been smelling ever since he arrived?
"You worked a lot." Probably even more than him, his tone of voice suggested.
A triumphant huff followed as soon as Keith turned away, and Lance indulged himself in a second of inward gloating. Once that was out of the way, he figured with the red paladin's back to him, now would be the time to dive in with some discretion, right? His towel was already on the floor, so hopefully the answer was yes.
"So did you," he pointed out, sliding into the water as fast and smooth as he could manage while he had the chance. When he recovered from the initial shock of going from warm air to hot wetness at a merciless pace, he turned to Keith with a casual grin, as if this wasn't making his heart beat a thousand times per second.
"Besides, how could I sleep when I knew I was missing out on your one man pool party?"
He forced himself to look in front of him until he heard Lance entering the pool. Safe. God bless this water for not being as transparent as it was on Earth, he felt so awfully naked. Not that he should have hid his body, even Lance told him he was in a good shape, but still...
He glanced at him for a mere second before turning his gaze away from that celestial grin. He graciously skipped the part where Lance pointed out the fault in his logic and replied to the second half.
"How did you know I'm here?" he asked, rubbing his shoulder in a slight fluster. Was not Lance just having a lucky guess? He could not have known him this much.
"Well--" Pausing for a brief moment, he settled to sit on one of the underwater rocks next to Keith-- "this is pretty much the most interesting thing to do on this planet. Since you weren't training, I figured you'd be out here?" He conveniently left out the fact he hadn't even checked the training deck; the truth is, he kind of just... followed his gut? Maybe his hot spring date dreams were what guided him in the right direction - who knows.
"What are you doing out here so late anyways? Everyone else already went to bed." His hand swished around the water absentmindedly as he spoke; it wasn't quite the same as earth's, but it still managed to soothe his tired muscles so he wasn't going to complain.
So he was either training or doing the second most interesting thing, huh? Well... It was true he did not have many hobbies ever since they were stuck in space and that he spent most of his time either on bettering his body or trying to learn more about the Galra.
He was predictable after all. Unlike Lance: if the blue paladin was gone somewhere, he was probably the last person who was able to find him.
"Relaxing." A huff followed his quiet words with a lopsided smile. "Shocking, I know."
He let his head drop back as he looked up to the two moons. His lips slightly shook with unspoken words as if he was hesitating whether he should say them or not.
Suddenly he lowered himself in the water until nothing but his head from chin up was above it. He squinted at him with curiosity in his eyes.
"Do you think the others still don't know about this?"
He couldn't help but breathe out a quiet chuckle through his nose at Keith's answer. Part of Lance really wishes he still had his mobile phone out here in space, if only so he could be extra cheesy and make Keith is home screen; the face he was making right now would be perfect.
Leaning back with his left elbow resting against one of the rocks bordering the pool, he looked up to the dual moons, humming in consideration before lightly scratching the side of his face.
"I don't really know--" he provided helpfully, furrowing his brows while he tried to think of any evidence that would suggest the others had figured it out.
"I mean, Pidge and Hunk have been pretty whisper-y lately, plus they keep giving me funny looks... I think they've got a bet going or something." The last part came out with a tinge of amusement in his tone. He paused, then turned to Keith with what he hoped was a comforting smile."If anyone does know, they haven't said anything about it."
A beat passes by where his gaze fell to the gap between them as he chewed on the inside of his lip, shifting his eyes back to Keith's just as fast as they'd left. "Are you worried?"
Whisper-y? That was not a good sign. He tried to crack his knuckles underwater but it did not really work or at least he did not hear any sound. And as for the question, he replied in his usual matter-of-fact tone of voice, with his usual bluntness when it came to the blue paladin.
"No, I just don't want them to butt in. I want to keep you to myself."
He looked in the opposite direction of Lance. Well, this did sound like he was...
"Okay, maybe a bit worried."
He cupped his hands together and splashed some water on his neck, followed up by a rub. He turned his eyes back on Lance.
"Does this bother you?"
Wow, okay.
Tapping into his totally legitimate ninja abilities from before, his right hand raised up to scratch at his other cheek, inconspicuously trying to hide the crimson shade of his face and the goofy smile threatening to take over his lips as he turned to the side. What the heck, give a guy some warning!
"N-no--!" he sputtered, slightly ruining the completely perfect and functional and not at all obvious hand cover up. Really though, it was way past unfair to ask him a question after saying something like that out of nowhere.
He did not really understand his reaction, but he understood his words. Placing his right hand between them he leaned closer and, since he turned away his face, pressed a small kiss on his jawline.
He squinted at him with a faint smile and tilted his head a bit.
"I'm happy to hear that."
Despite his calm words, his heart was racing at a dizzying speed, throbbing violently in his throat. Wow, Lance's skin was so warm... Even if his lips got him at a bony part, he could not miss how damn soft his face was; Keith could have called his nighttime routine stupid all he wanted but it undoubtedly worked. It did not only make his skin nice to the touch, but it made his cheeks glow with some kind of light he had never seen on a guy before, one that always tempted him to cup them and pull them into a kiss, to run down his fingers on his equally perfect neck and...
He did not even notice he was plain staring at Lance's face now with eyes wide and shining with adorement; he was a bit too preoccupied with trying to contain his admiration for that.
As soon as the kiss landed on his jaw, his gaze was back on Keith and wider than ever; not even his hand could hide the spread of red consuming his complexion now. This isn't fair, this isn't fair, this isn't fair--
There should be a law about looking at someone that way; Lance is pretty sure it could easily kill him - hell, he thinks it's already killing him! Keith can't just smile at him with that stupidly cute tilt of the head and eyes full of--... of... His cheeks grew at least seventy shades darker. This was playing down right dirty, and Lance wasn't gonna stand for it!
His eyes squinted right back at the red paladin as he nibbled on his bottom lip once again, brows twitching with the confliction of staying furrowed or pushing up to make his expression that much more pathetic. Jesus, he almost wanted to apologize for all the times he's stared relentlessly at Keith, his heart was beating way too fast to be considered healthy. Usually Lance relished in being the centre of attention, but this kind of attention was just-- He wanted to have it on him forever and hide away completely, all at the same time.
His hand dropped into the water with a small splash. Before his brain could even catch up, Lance's eyes were scrunched closed and his lips were against Keith's with a familiarly delectable pressure.
He wasn't sure how he expected this to help calm the storm of butterflies raging in his chest - if anything, it made them rowdier - but whatever triggered the magnetism he had towards Keith's mouth, Lance was eternally grateful for it.
The kiss didn't last particularly long; the blue paladin only rocked into it for a few glorious moments before breaking away to inhale some air (his jaw was trembling already, what the heck), but damn if he didn't savour it. His shoulders rose and sunk with the momentum, hitching up as he practically leapt forward like a starved dog, and falling slowly as he tasted each lip as thoroughly as physically possible. He should probably be at least a little concerned at quite how much satisfaction washed through him every time they kissed, however, he was already hopelessly addicted to every aspect of Keith's mouth, so there really wasn't much use in dwelling on it. Ahh, he already wanted more--
For a second he was unsure whether it was him or Lance who closed the distance, but in terms of effects it did not matter much. He did not have the chance to kiss him these past two days and considering their last time together, he was more than simply missing him. It was partly his fault though, he kind of avoided him as he was afraid he messed up something that night and approaching him again in private would be awkward, but in the end it was just the same... If not better, knowing that Lance was holding back this entire time.
Once he shifted closer and slightly pushed back the blue paladin by joining the kiss in eagerness, he let himself get lost in the sensation. Even though he got much more from him already, moments like these were still invaluable... They were moments that Lance gave to him, and to him alone. A different kind of heat started to pool up in the pit of his stomach. It urged him to put his other hand in-between them as well and lean closer to the blue paladin, arching his back, and to chase down the lips breaking away way too soon... But his left palm failed to found the rocky bottom and instead bumped into a thigh alarmingly naked.
"Sorry," he gasped, as he was still struggling with catching his breath. His eyes flew open and he pushed himself back to where he was sitting. Alright, they seriously were not here for that kind of thing, and he seriously did not want Lance to think that Keith had nothing on his mind about him other than that...
'Shit, but now I am thinking about it...'
He forced back a whine down his throat as he straightened his posture and tried to recollect himself. He could not look at Lance: he was, again, just one big, flustered mess, a hundred percent clueless loser who wanted to have nothing but the blue paladin around him.
Aah, but it was driving him crazy, there was no way he could be sitting there in peace after he tasted a little piece of heaven. He wanted to hug him!! They were in a pool and there were no clothes on them whatsoever, but he just wanted to drag him on his lap and to keep him tight, to bury his face in his neck and smell his skin...
His hands were twitching in the water and by this time his face was probably a visual synonym for an active furnace. Just when would he learn to control his imagination? Probably never, he chuckled to himself in disbelief, it would be better if he had dug himself a grave already and thrown himself in it. He tried to lean back against the rocks again and he let out a long sigh that surprisingly did not have his soul escaping him. However, it had everything he had to say instead...
Yeah, well, there goes their conversation.
If it weren't for the fact that he was completely naked with only a murky cloak of water obscuring his more tender areas, the hitch in his breath probably wouldn't have been quite as jarring. However, it turns out when someone grabs your bare thigh underwater, it is, in fact, very jarring. He may have had a flash of fear that there happened to be some kind of alien fish in the water or something, but the truth of the matter was thankfully much less terrifying - though, that didn't mean he wasn't still blushing with the power of the sun. He wanted to say that it was fine - the boyfriend title means you're kind of... allowed to do such things - the fact it was an accident made it especially forgivable! But then Keith was moving away, and suddenly a much more pressing issue came to light. Oh no. No, nope, no you don't-- It's been been two whole days since the floodgates of Lance's affection were completely destroyed, and he's already been forced back into his Keith-free diet. This reoccurring pattern was going to be the death of him; doing something big only to be deprived to the edge of insanity the day after wasn't the kind of routine he was willing to let settle. He wouldn't stand for it! Not anymore. Fueled by determination (and maybe a little selfishness), he shuffled closer, left hand dunking into the water for him to lean on while his right lifted to the side of Keith's face, pulling it towards him. God, how is he so cute-- He paused for a second or two, silently offering the other the chance to pull away as Lance squinted at him. Given that Keith didn't move; he went in for the kill, catching the red paladins lips with his own yet again. His hand went from grabbing to caressing, loosely cupping Keith's cheek before his fingers ventured to the back of his head, lightly playing with the small pony tail that had never quite left his thoughts. Definitely cute. He let it last longer than before, trying to give himself the illusion of 'getting his fill' when, really, he knew there was no limit to how much he wanted to kiss Keith; his desire was endless. Lance's toes wiggled in the water as he fell even further into the press of their lips - he couldn't tell if the overwhelming heat was from the hot springs or Keith, but he had a sneaking suspicion that it was a combination of both. Though his mouth moved eagerly, his tongue stayed out of the picture - public baths weren't exactly prime makeout locations, after all - but when he did finally pull back for some much needed air and to calm his racing heart, he didn't hesitate to lick his own lips. "Sorry," he grinned teasingly, followed by a huff, hand sliding down to rest on the junction of his neck (in a very coincidental place). He slipped back to his original spot on the rocks soon after, looking up to the stars as if to hide the fact he'd just given himself a terrible fluster, despite his original intentions. Nailed it.
There was no way he would pull away from Lance, though he was sure taken aback at first. He blinked at him dumbfounded as the water rolled down from the blue paladin's hand onto his jawline. Wow, was he going to... He closed his eyes and hummed happily into the kiss. Yeah, he was going to. Alright, bathing was hands down a fun thing to do. He thought he would pass an hour here alone and in peace, thinking about what he had done in the past few weeks and what he should keep of that and what he should let go of; but this change of plans was more than welcomed, it just made everything a hundred times better. This time his hands did not venture anywhere: learning from his previous mistake he used them to support himself and just focused on his mouth instead. He loved being kissed by Lance, because he did not have to do much: the blue paladin was so eager he just had to keep up with it. It was, in a way (or more like in every way), dizzying to face the amount of want Lance was keeping deep inside: he knew he just saw a tiny part of it, but it made it even more exciting to imagine the rest of it. Even though the other one was leading, he was not passive at all. A few seconds after the initial shock he pressed back into the kiss and with the little freedom he had, he made sure to adore every inch of his lips from side to side. There was no way he would remain calm and relaxed when the guy of his dreams threw him into this constant struggle of wanting to give, but at the same time, wanting to take; he wanted to show him how much he mattered to him with every muscle in his body, but again, consuming him as a whole. He opened his mouth more and more, hungrier with each touch they exchanged, but he did not fail to notice that Lance wanted to keep it like that: however difficult it was to keep his tongue to himself, he had to respect his decision. But when he broke away and smirked at him like that, his lovestruck stupor faded away in an instant and he furrowed his eyebrows with irritation, cheeks glowing with honest, crimson fluster. Wow, he can't be laughing at him. He pushed himself away from the edge and turned to the blue paladin. From that point, his body moved before he realized what he was doing: his hands cupped the water just below the surface and with a strong and quick swing he splashed it right onto Lance's face, attacking him from both sides. Just to make sure not only his face and hair got wet from it, he repeated this move once more, this time trying to get some water into his mouth should he open it for complaining. That'll definitely teach him!!
Keith's movement had caught his attention, but not fast enough. He turned to look at him, just in time to receive a face full of water, eyes scrunching closed and head ducking in delayed defense. Before his exclamation of 'what the heck' could get out, the attack was repeated without mercy. Now thoroughly drenched, Lance let the water drip down his face for the second time, spitting the liquid out of his mouth with a blank expression, limbs completely still. "Okay." It was said simply and calm, but then Lance was looking at Keith with brows furrowed in resolve and a challenging grin. "It's on!" he practically cheered, kicking his body away from the waters edge and gliding forward immediately after. Keith definitely made a mistake; while Lance hadn't really expected to put his water fight expertise to good use in space, he sure was glad he had it - even if it did take countless defeats from his siblings and friends to achieve (curse Hunk and his bucket hands). He didn't give Keith much time to process his words; as soon as he swam close enough, his right arm was sticking out, sitting half way in the water's surface, and then his whole body was rotating, taking the water with it. A classic move. The force of his arm and it's speed caused the water to surge forward in a large, handmade wave - straight in Keith's direction. Or, more specifically; his face.
Why did he believe for a second that this really taught Lance a lesson? Once the blue paladin moved towards him, he kicked himself backwards, keeping his distance from him. He squinted at him in suspicion, but his eyes soon grew wide upon his attack: he did not expect him using his entire arm at all. Pressing his forearms and wrists together he formed a shield in front of his face, but a second too late: half of the splash had already hit him, and though he closed his mouth, it still soaked his hair and rendered him blind. He did not spend time with wiping his eyes or blinking: he repeated his offense from before, targeting Lance solely based on his memories and hearing - and changing the direction should he haved moved. When he was done with launching the two projectiles, he simply ducked into the water, disappearing from Lance's line of sight.
Luckily, Lance was already prepared for a counterattack. Once he'd recovered the energy it took to make the wave, he was on the move again. He dodged the first splash easily, but the second hit him dead on, forcing him to stop and raise his forearm to shield his face. Despite still getting wet, the block protected his eyes well enough so that he could open them as soon as his arm was down. Looking around, a very important development hit him - Keith was straight up gone. He's gotta be underwater somewhere, there wasn't anywhere else for him to go; Lance spun around the spot, squinting as he tried to at least spot the red paladin's silhouette. The murky water was both a blessing and a curse, he felt like a sitting duck waiting for a surprise attack. 'Where the heck is he?!'
Keith was not messing around: he knew the water is transparent enough to spot his silhouette once Lance was actively searching for him, so he only disappeared for the element of surprise. He did not even try to swim around him. Leaping from the very same spot he crouched down at, he launched himself at Lance and tackled him with a hug. Given he succeeded, he hugged him around his shoulders, and with all his weight he tried to throw him off balance to bring him underwater. With his remaining power he rolled Lance over so he could easily go up for air.
There he is-- His eyes widened and slammed shut in a matter of seconds. Realistically speaking, Lance should have expected this - maybe he kind of did - but alas, the appearance was surprise enough, and he was left with two possible options to deal with a wet Keith coming straight at him: 1. Dodge and let him fall. 2. Try to catch him. Curse his chivalrous tendencies. Lance fell backwards with a large splash, pushed down even faster by Keith's weight, water rushing right up his nostrils as he - quite literally - got dunked on. With at least a little foresight, he'd managed to close his mouth before it got filled with the questionable liquid, but in doing so, he sacrificed the opportunity to store a breath away. He tried pulling his attacker up with him to the surface for air, gasping dramatically as soon as he breached it. It took him a moment to gather his bearings, wiping stubborn droplets from his eyes and breathing the sting out of his nose, but once he recovered, he couldn't help the laughter from bubbling out of his chest.
He was not set on drowning there, so Lance could pull him up easily. He put down his feet: the water was only slightly deeper here in the middle, but it still swallowed the two paladins up to their shoulders. After he coughed up some unnecessary water from his system, he joined Lance with a low, but honest chuckle. God, how much he loved his laughter: he could not hold back his happy smile from widening as he was looking at his face all perked up. He swept the wet bangs out of Lance's forehead, followed by a gentle caress on his temples down to his cheeks. There, he hesitated for a second. They were playing around, he reminded himself, he should have contained all these feelings bubbling in his stomach and keep them there safe. It was not even a good idea given how soaked they were and how uncomfortable it would be and how he could not even get to counterargument number two before he was kissing him again. It sure was not the same with his mouth being all slippery and sloppy, but it did not stop him from cupping his face and tasting him anyways. He huffed in satisfaction as he claimed him again, and pushed him back a bit in eagerness. His thumb brushed against his cheeks and ventured down his lips, where, after he released him from the kiss with a sigh, he slipped it between them. Grazing across his lower teeth he pressed his finger on his eye-tooth to slightly force his mouth open. So that's what bit him two days ago, he stared at it in awe, it was so... sharp... He did not realize he was holding back his breath, but he probably had to anyways, because all that pooled up excitement in his chest was threatening to burst out in a god knows what way.
His laughter settled down into a wide grin the longer he looked at Keith, only getting larger at his damp touch. It did shrink down in favour of returning the kiss, eyes sliding shut as he tilted his head into the other's palm. It was definitely wetter than he was used to, but any kiss that involved Keith's lips was automatically perfect. A pleased sigh escaped through his nose, however, before he could well and truly melt into the sensations, his favourite mouth was pulling away for some inexplicable reason, and his eyes were squinting open in protest. Then the reason suddenly became very explicable, and he was staring wide eyed with a flush ten times hotter. His jaw gave easily to the exploring digit, which could mostly be accounted to the shock and fluster. Gosh, had it always been this hard to breathe? Keith was just looking and pressing on his tooth and yet, Lance's jaw was already trembling a little while a storm started up in his chest. A few seconds passed before Lance did anything, but even without his brain's permission, his mouth went from hanging loose to biting down lightly on the intruder. Essentially, he trapped Keith's thumb gently between his teeth; as his gaze softened, his tongue joined the party with a slow lick across the tip. It tasted just like the water, but somehow, it was a thousand times better on Keith's skin.
His breathing hitched and he involuntarily straightened his back at the turn of the events. His experiment was going truly fascinating so far: the pressure of the weak bite sent a warm tingle down his spine, not to mention the oh-so-missed tongue finally showing itself. The other hand on Lance's shoulder grasped at him in anticipation. If he found such a small lick this alluring, then, he wondered, what else that mouth could do? What if, let's say, it was not his thumb there, but... 'Oh my god.' It became painful to look him in the eyes at once with such thoughts on his mind. There was... There was no way Lance would have thought about that!! It was again his own stupid ideas stemming from his stupid adventures to nope town that got him into this situation, just why did he put his finger there? What was he thinking about before he did this, what was his original plan? And just what would it be like if instead of a lick Lance would try sucking at— 'What——' Alright, alright this was definitely going into the wrong direction. The little voice in the back of his mind was now screaming at him with full volume to just stop it: it was already a huge luck that the blue paladin was not weirded out by his recklessness, let alone worded his disgust; Keith really should not have pushed this any further. Lance was a truly patient and wonderful person who was incredibly tolerant towards all his curious transgressions, he should not abuse this fact but appreciate it instead. He was definitely appreciating it, but, just purely on a theoretical level, would he do it if— "Lance," he whined in a low voice, pleading with him accompanied by a blush unmistakebly different from the spring's heat. His eyes were stirred with confusion and fluster: he was not taken aback by what Lance had been doing, but more like, what his own head was doing. If he had let go of his thumb, then he pulled it out, though his hand did not leave his face - it was kind of frozen there, just like his whole posture. Did he say any of his thoughts out loud???
Wow, okay, that definitely had his stomach doing flips. It can't be legal to say someone's name like that, it has the potential to kill a man - but damn what a great death it would be. Though not his favourite, this was going pretty high up on the list of 'best way's Keith has said my name'; part of him (and by part I mean most) wanted to drag out more sounds like that, more renditions of his name in Keith's stupidly perfect voice, more whines that came hand-in-hand with a sweet blush across the red paladin's cheeks-- But looking in his eyes and remembering the situation... Right, yeah, that was probably kind of a weird thing to do, now would be a good time to stop. He relinquished his loose hold on Keith's thumb, letting it pull away before planting an apologetic peck to the pad of it. "Sorry," he breathed out, smiling sheepishly. Even weirder than what he'd just done, his mouth felt lonely, his tongue missed the taste of Keith already. Lance is a weak man with little restraint, he couldn't just leave it there. One hand that was submerged in the water came to slide up the back of the palm on his face, fingers worming their way in between Keith's as he tugged it away just a fraction. He held their hands in the air and leant in, closing the far too big gap between them once more, pressing his lips against Keith's in as gentle a pace as he could keep with all the energy buzzing under his skin. Nice.
He did not quite understand why Lance was apologizing: if anyone, it should be Keith to feel sorry for his actions. He was not given much time to dwell on it though, for his hand was soon stolen and so was his breath. The blue paladin did not lie, smiled Keith around halfway, when he said he wanted to be on his mouth all the time... He was a hundred times more worked up, and yet it was easy to melt into the kiss. He would not, he could not refuse such a kind affection ever, regardless how he felt. However, it started to bother him how wet they were: his free hand snuck up to Lance's hair and tried to run his fingers through it, but the familiar feeling was missing, it was not the same. It was him, but not quite. How annoying. After he broke away, he drew back to the edge of the pool, dragging the other along; even though Lance was the one holding his hand, he somehow knew - or at least expected him - to not to let go of. Once they reached the shallow waters again, he sat down on a rock, cross-legged, and let the pool swallow him up to his shoulders; then, he turned Lance around and pulled him on his lap. He enfolded his arms around his stomach and hugged him tight; he nuzzled the nape of his neck lovingly before burying his face against it. What a shame, he sighed, that the sweet scent of his hair was washed out by the hot spring's heavy atmosphere; but it did not take away from the fact that it was him, or more precisely, him in his embrace. For the first time this night the lack of clothes did not trouble him: sure, their position was... questionable... But the hot water seemed to dull his lower half enough for this problem to remain but a mere nuisance, not worthy to mind when he was able to have Lance to himself alone. He fell silent: his mind was still full of the memories of his kisses and laughter, and even with eyes closed all he could see was his smirk and genuine smile. Apart from occasionally nudging his nape with his nose and his lips - like a cat unsure how to express his adoration - he stayed still; he did not move his hands, he did not want to, what if Lance escaped? Not even five minutes passed since he promised himself not to pull any more selfish stunts and yet here he was, keeping him tight and firm, with his conscience being reduced to the only sentence 'well, he gotta put up with this for now.'
It was always a tragedy when they stopped kissing, but Keith's expectations were correct; Lance let himself be pulled along by the red paladin, not needing or wanting to let go any time this century. Unfortunately, Keith seemed to other ideas, releasing his hand and sitting down at the water's edge. The act was innocent enough, however, he was proven wrong when suddenly he was sat on a very naked lap with his own very naked ass. "Oh--" he said eloquently, staring wide eyed at the water in front of him as the situation sunk in. Oh. He could feel himself blushed from head to toe in a matter of seconds, cheeks producing a temperature only normal for a furnace as his head whipped to the right; an attempt to try and hide in his own shoulder. His hands zipped up to rest on the arms wrapped around his waist, consumed by the confliction of both the need to pull them off and the desire to hold them down. God, he's not sure how much of his own contradictions he can take in one day. Surely, experiencing this level of heat all at once can't be healthy, he worried he might pass out or something lame like that. It probably wouldn't be a very romantic end to this date. Note for future reference: blushing in hot springs is dangerous and Keith needs to stop nuzzling the back of his neck-- Scratch that, Keith needs to never stop nuzzling the back of his neck; turns out his mouth feels just as lovely on Lance's nape as it does on his lips. It's been a hot minute since he's participated in vertical spooning; he never would have expected his next time to be with his nude ex-rival in an alien onsen. At this point, his heart and thoughts are just a constant stream of screaming, he doesn't know what else he can do other than sit obediently and try not to die. Easier said than done. He let a few moments of silence pass by, but he couldn't stand it for long. He was too high-strung from the abundance of skin-on-skin contact - as diluted by the water as it was - he needed something else to focus on. When in need, his brain always came to rescue with well thought out and intelligent observations. "M-man, it'd be great if we had pool noodles here--"
He leaned back against the rock, pulling Lance with himself and, finally stopping nuzzling his neck (did he hear his first prayer?) he rested his chin on his shoulder. "A... What? What is—" he asked, eyebrows furrowed. But wow, why did his voice came out so silent? He cleared his throat before trying again. "What is a pool noodle? Is it... food?" He tilted his head a bit, trying to look at his face.
Lance probably found Keith leaning his chin on his shoulder much cuter than necessary, but he was a little busy inwardly clutching his chest to really care - the red paladin's cluelessness to the magic of pool noodles only made it worse. "Wh- No! Dude, you don't know what a pool noodle is?!" His tone sounded almost scandalized; madness, a sin, for Keith to have never experienced the joy of pool noodles-- Maybe the castle have some fancy alien ones stashed away somewhere... He'll have to ask Coran about it later. "They're like, these styrofoam tube things that float in the water," he explained, hands already lifted and spread wide apart to help Keith imagine what they are. His plan to distract himself was working out well. "One time, me and my sister made a raft out of a bunch of them and we sailed around the pool like budget pirates!" The last part came out in a chuckle, his expression practically lighting up at the memory. "She did try to throw me overboard though..."
He raised his shoulders in an apologetic way, there was no way he knew anything about them. Why would he? He had never ever been to a pool, let alone own toys designed for it. "Sounds like fun," he chuckled, closing his eyes for a few seconds. It must have been amazing to be pirates, for a while he wanted to be one too - too bad there was no water whatsoever around his house, so he had to let go of that dream. "Was this your younger sister? Uh, the... Uh, Mariana?" There were two girls in his family as far as he could remember, a younger and an older one; they had never really brought up this topic in private before, but Lance kept telling everyone stories about his siblings and his parents. Those times, Keith rarely asked questions: instead, he remained silent and paid a close attention to his words, somehow ending up with memorizing a lot of facts and - seemingly unnecessary - details. Like details about Mariana. "The one playing the violin?"
"It was," he hummed quietly, leaning back slightly into Keith with a small smile. His eyes widened a little when he heard the correct name; he's sure he hasn't told the red paladin much about his sister, and whenever he talked to the others about her he didn't seem to be all that interested... Apparently he was mistaken, he even remembered she plays the violin! Jeez, that's-... 'Sweet...' "Y-yeah, that's her," he managed, fluster back at full force once more. He's definitely being ridiculous, it's not even that big of a deal! Yet, it still plastered a goofy grin on his face, and Lance is glad Keith can't see it properly. "I think she's a demon child, but it's probably my fault for spoiling her so much when she was younger-"
"Well, you aren't a saint either," he shrugged with a theatrical sigh, followed up by a smile soon afterwards. He raised his head and nuzzled his hair as Lance leaned into him, silently approving of his decision. He hesitated for a moment, not knowing how much he should keep asking about his family, and from which point would it qualify as prying into his life: but instead of overthinking it, he decided to go with his guts. "She didn't enroll in the Garrison, did she?" He could not remember Lance mentioning her age (only that there was not much between them) and what she studied, but he would have surely bragged about her if she had decided to follow his footsteps.
"Rude," he gasped in offense, hand coming up to shield his wounded heart. Lance is a sweet and innocent angel, Keith doesn't know what he's talking about.
His betrayed expression faded away soon enough - he can't stay fake-mad at someone as cute as Keith - taken over by a little grin when paladin behind him nuzzled his hair.
"Nah, she's still too young for that. I don't think she would anyway, she's more into sport than space," he shrugged while his arms went back to resting on the ones around his waist - though, the confliction from before was long gone. "I was the only space baby in my family."
"You were? You are," he corrected him with a happy, low hum. He rested his chin on his shoulder again and with his index finger, he drew little circles on his abdomen.
"I think Coran wanted this to be a surprise, but..."
He fell silent for a few seconds. Wow, his nose was twitching, he really did not want to—
"Ah-choo!"
God bless his reflexes for turning his face away in time - he was almost sure Lance did not find people sneezing into his ear too hot.
He sniffled for a few seconds before he spoke again.
"I was checking the maps and I realized that we've been travelling towards the Milky Way." He pressed the back of his right hand against his nose to see if it was running. In a stifled voice, he continued. "We are like... Two weeks from there. Maybe less."
Right, still is. Even if his family probably thinks he's dead, he's still...
Never mind. He relaxed into Keith's touch, watching the water ripple around them as his foot swayed side to side under it. A surprise? What kind of--
The sudden noise made him jump a little - and by a little, I mean a lot. He was eternally grateful Keith didn't sneeze on his shoulder, he's had enough bodily fluids on there this week, he's cool with passing up on a second helping. Still though, was it weird he also found the other's sneezes kind of cute? Yeah, definitely. Wait, he's speaking again, focus on that instead of the sniffles---
His eyes lit up while the words sunk in.
"Are you serious?" he asked quietly, turning his head as far as he could, as if seeing Keith's face will reveal it to be a joke. Of course it wouldn't be a joke, why would he even joke about that?? Disbelief thrown aside, the optimism those words brought found their way to the surface.
"D-... do you think we'll get to visit?" Hope was clear in his tone, though, it's unlikely Keith knew the answer.
"Yeah," he replied casually. It did not even occur to him how rude this question was, of course Lance did not believe him at first. It was over a year now they had left Earth and they have never approached it close enough for a visit. This time, however, their route was clear and it definitely went through the Milky Way.
"Do you think the princess could stop any of you?" he asked with a chuckle, and looked him in the eyes. "We got a lions who can reach edge of a solar system in less than a minute; not to mention that only we can control them."
He let his head drop back as he looked up to the sky. Earth, huh... He got use to meeting various alien races and different kinds of planets so much that Earth looked like a dull, rotten place compared to the rest of the universe they had explored so far. Sure, not as bad as the Galra Empire, but still...
He lowered his gaze to the back of Lance's head again, ran up his palm on his back and almost completely unaware of his actions, he started washing his shoulder that peaked out of the hot water.
Oh. That was somehow nice to do. He broke the hug to use his other hand, too, so he could tend to both sides of his neck - occassionally grasping at his shoulders to give them a quick massage.
"You should start preparing what you'll tell them."
"I guess you're right," he grinned before turning to look back into the water. Going home... A mixture of feelings stirred around in his chest, a whole recipe of positives and negatives; they could go home!
The excitement took the forefront of his emotions first. Just the thought of visiting his family made his smile grow wider; he'd get to see them all again, talk to them all again, hug them all again! He could tell them all about the crazy stuff he's been up to in space, hear about all the crazy stuff they've been up to on earth! He could tell them about Keith and the others! They could all go on their annual trip to Varadero beach together! He could sit in the rain until his mom yells at him about catching a cold! He'll see his cat and dog! And kiss their fluffy little faces! God, it'll be so great, he'll be home, it'll be just like before--
...
But it wont be like before, will it?
A pang of nerves sliced through his joy like it was nothing; the half-massage half-back wash was perfectly timed, soothing him just as his shoulders tensed at his own somber realization. He hummed at each rub of his sore muscles, letting his eyes become hooded as he considered Keith's words thoroughly.
What will he tell them? He's been gone for over a year, it's not like he can just mosey on in like nothing ever happened; he's basically coming back from the dead!... How is he even going to get them to believe his story? Hell, he can barely even believe it himself!
A quiet sigh spilled out of him as he started playing with his fingers under the water. It would be nice if going home was as easy as it used to be - where the worst thing he had to explain was why he hadn't packed all his clothes while dumping his laundry onto the mountaneous pile. He's not just coming back from the Garrison for the holidays, he's returning after - quite literally - disappearing off the face of the earth!--
Ah, jeez, this is a real downer he's pulled on himself.
He wants to go home. He wants to go home so badly, but... can he? Can he really just show up out of the blue like 'hey, I'm back from my amazing space adventure for a little bit, I hope you didn't get rid of all my stuff!'? Well, probably not like that... He's always sucked with this kind of stuff, this will be too hard, he's sure of it.
"Maybe a postcard will work?" he mumbles, followed by another pleased hum when Keith rubs him in just the right spot.
But it'll be worth it.
He expected Lance to be enthusiastic about this a hundred times more than he looked like. He almost felt like he slumped on his lap under all that inexplicable negativity that weighed him down: what's the matter with him?
"You're joking, right?"
A postcard? He could not be serious. Lance was probably the most eager paladin to visit Earth, would he really be content with sending a single sheet of paper?
"You should plan what you say like... You shouldn't tell them about Zarkon draining entire planets for energy. Or that the Galra had already visited Earth. I mean..." He sighed with frustration. He should take his own advice, really. "Tell them about what we're doing, just don't make them panic."
In the meantime, noticing that his massage was welcomed, his hands glided down on his back and started to knead small circles between his shoulder blades. He worked his way up to his shoulder again, trying to make his muscles as relaxed as they could get. He was still afraid of straining him, the girl in the Garrison once hurt him like that, but he got braver than last time: his grasps were stronger and he covered more skin; using both of his thumbs he rubbed the nape of his neck up until his hairline and a bit to the sides. For a moment he stopped as he stared at his hands in surprise.
Wow, he seriously had something for this area.
"I guess you're right," he huffed out with a weary laugh. Don't make them panic; yeah, he could do that. Probably. "I bet they'll panic anyway. My mom was already worried about me going to the Garrison, I don't think she'll be too jazzed about me living in space."
Maybe she was right to be worried, all things considered.
His eyes slid shut on a pleased sigh, head falling back slightly as Keith massaged up his neck. Even with the worry building up in his gut, it was hard to feel anything but good when Keith's hands were straight up performing magic on his back and shoulders. He's over thinking it, he knows that; they'll probably just be happy to have him back, it'll be fine.
What isn't fine, however, is Keith stopping, and Lance made sure it was known with a small protesting whine.
"Yeah, I can imagine," he replied with a lopsided smile. The army was not the safest career choice, especially the space exploration branch where the technology was still mainly on a theoretical level only...
The whine froze him up, woah, was it that good? Pride tugged at his side and a grin spread on his face. He returned kneading his shoulders and hummed.
"I can do your whole back later, if you want to."
"You can do my whole everything later," he breathed, just a few seconds before his brain could stop him from saying it out loud. Suddenly, he was very alert again, warmth flooding his cheeks instantly. Not to worry, he's always been great at not sounding desperate. "I-I mean- yeah, sure, sound cool--"
Smooth.
He can't really be blamed though, Keith's massages were good, and Lance might be a little too into having Keith's hands rubbing him all over-- but that's besides the point. Time to move on from that embarrassment.
"Y-you should let me give you one too! I've never really done it fully, but I've been told I give a mean foot massage~" his eyebrows were waggling even though the red paladin wouldn't be able to see them - his tone of voice probably gave him away. Speaking of massages; he perked up once again at a very important related memory.
"Oh, man! Back home I had this fancy massage oil from Thailand, I never got a chance to use it before, we could take it when we visit!"
He did not understand him again. His whole everything? Like a whole... body massage? That sounded really tiresome and what about his arms or stomach, he would not feel anything there for sure... But then, why did he become flustered? Lance only changed the topic suddenly when he said something—
Oh.
'Wow, this guy.' His hands stopped yet again and he furrowed his eyebrows as he tried his best not to visualize that 'later'. The worst part was that he did not need 'later', he had ideas even now how he would...
But he wouldn't!!!
His throat suddenly felt very dry and very tense and Lance talking about massage oils did not help at all.
'You know what, screw it.'
If he was feeling jumpy, then Lance had to feel jumpy too. After all, he must have done it on purpose!!
He took advantage of the fact that the blue paladin did not see him horribly flustered: he nuzzled his neck right below his ear and sneaked his hands under his shoulders and slipped them on his - by now almost dry - collarbones.
"You can't flirt like this anymore, huh," he whispered. There will be consequences, he wanted to add, but his throat simply closed on him. It would be great if Lance did not feel his hands shaking, but there was no way he would miss that - they were on his naked skin.
God, why could he never give up on a challenge?
He almost forgot about his slip up (if he was talented at anything, it was recovering from his own embarrassment at an exceptional speed), but then Keith had to go and do this--
There was no stopping the slight shiver from tumbling down his spine - a common occurrence with Keith whispers, it seems. The nuzzling didn't help, nor did the water now dripping onto his collarbones from Keith's hands. His every muscle was frozen in place, the fading blush was burning at full force, he wanted to say something to prove the other wrong, but his vocals were betraying him. This is rigged.
Keith was right, he can't flirt like this; but Lance is anything but a quitter.
He grabbed one of the trembling hands from his collarbone, dragging it up a little higher while he leaned forward, inching closer until he could press a small kiss to the back of Keith's palm.
'That'll show him--'
"O-Okay, you can."
A full-fledged wildfire - probably the most accurate description of his face by now. He thought Lance was just big on his words, but look at the guy, he was... He was a hundred percent aware of how weak he was for him!! How was this fair? It was not fair at all.
He rested his face on his shoulder, his mouth against his skin. Sure, they were in the water but if Lance did something now, Keith was not ready to take responsibility. Why was he sitting on his lap? Oh right, he dragged him there. A bloody great move. He should give himself a prize, in the form of a slap.
Still, it stung to lose against him like this. He was not sure what counted as winning, but it must not have included shaking and trying to discard thoughts that became messier with each sniff of his scent.
He raised his head a bit.
"We should go back soon," he hummed and pressed a small kiss on his shoulder. For a second he stopped; and on a completely different, almost spaced out tone, he muttered to himself: "Still so unbelievable..." But he left that without an explanation, and dropping his hands he waited for Lance to get off his lap.
Victory!
That's right, Keith may be the definition of hot but Lance is the romance master, no one can beat him in the art of seduction, even when he's weak! The cockiest smirk he could muster with cheeks as red as his spread across his lips, he was about to turn around to gloat, but then Keith's mouth was on his shoulder and he was pretty sure his mind blanked.
Alright, okay, maybe he wasn't as strong and undefeatable as he originally thought, but Keith doesn't know that yet and that's what counts. The intentional kiss was a killing blow, it took everything in Lance's power not to hide his burning face under his hands.
Right, they had been here a while; he shifted a little further off Keith's lap, but before the red paladin was completely free, his last words reached Lance's lagging brain and he paused.
"Wait, what's unbelievable?"
'Oh shit, did I say that out loud?'
He licked his lower lip before he could come up with an answer.
"Nothing," he replied in a hurried way and pressing his palms on Lance's back, he nudged him to get off from him; and if he still did not move, then he simply started to push him off.
"Mooove."
Nothing?
'Yeah right--'
He couldn't really resist being pushed off, but as soon as his feet reached the bottom of the pool he spun around to corner the other against the edge. Brows furrowed, eyes squinted and lips pursed, Lance leaned in to stare Keith down. His red cheeks may make him seem a little less intimidating, but that didn't hold back his questions.
"'Nothing' isn't gonna cut it. What's unbelievable, Keith? You know, other than my abundance of charm~"
He tried to lean back as the other was leaning in, but there was no place to retreat to. But wow, did not he like it when Lance said his name with that tone...
"Nothing!" he repeated it louder, as if the increased volume would convince the blue paladin. "Just leave the pool already—!!"
Usually, Lance wouldn't really care this much about what someone mumbled at random, but with how unwilling Keith is to elaborate, it's only making the blue paladin all the more determined to find out.
He leaned in even closer, squinted even harder, their noses were almost touching and he would be lying if he said it wasn't making his stomach do flips, but he needed to know--
"Tell me, Keith." his voice was low, almost a loud whisper; he isn't getting away that easy!
"I don't want to!" he replied with an almost angry expression on his face, why was Lance this close, why was Lance this hot, god, he was panicking. He put his two hands on the edge behind himself, palms down - he was about to push himself up and leave the pool, he was strong enough to do that.
"Get out or I get out first—!"
"No--!" His immediate reaction was to grab Keith's waist, holding it down and pinning it to the wall behind him. Probably not the best plan to go with, but hopefully he's strong enough to keep the other from pulling himself out of the water.
If not... this could really kill him.
"Just answer the question!!--" he yelled, the hint of a frustrated whine strung into it.
Did he just—
And did he just yell at him?
Well, Lance probably did not know when to give up, but Keith sure did not want to hurt him. Was he already hurt? The blue paladin yelled at him almost the same way after the picnic, right before he stormed off with that unforgettable expression on his face.
For god’s sake, he groaned in thought.
"I just still can't believe," he started louder than he wanted to, but then pursed his lips and turned his face away with a stubborn look. He could feel Lance staring at him. His borderline fierce gaze fell back at him.
"That we... That I, could just, hold you like that," his shaky voice rumbled quietly, though his glare was as powerful as ever. "That I can do these... things to you. Not just thinking about—it..."
It was not exactly what he wanted to say, but it was getting more and more embarrassing as he went on, why could not he learn to speak before—
Well, that... wasn't what he was expecting.
"Oh..." was all he could say after a short pause, when the words finally registered in his brain. If he thought his cheeks were hot before, it was nothing compared to this. He'd stopped squinting long ago; now he was staring wide eyed before turning his face away to the side, hands losing their grip on Keith's waist as one came up to hide what it could with the back of his palm.
It was hot - way too hot - and another stupid grin was threatening to stretch across his lips. Who gave Keith the right to be so cute? Precious? Adorable? Sweet? Hot? It's not fair, not at all, he can't just say things like that-- Though, Lance is the one that made him say it... Jesus, okay, his other hand joined the mix now, both of them covering as much of his face as he could reach.
"O-oh---" Can't he say anything else? Was his brain really too overcooked to come up with something other than 'oh'? Of course it was, his skin was burning hotter than lava, there's no hope for comprehensible sentences in this situation! But he can't just... leave Keith hanging! He's gotta say something else!
"M-me too--!" his words were muffled by his palms, but they were still eligible. "I can't believe it either---" He also can't really breathe either; this was all his fault, though. He deserves it.
"S-sorry--"
"Pfft."
Lance could not do this. He could not just go and become downright stunned with fluster when he was the one forcing him to say such things. This was not how it worked, no, he had to face the consequences for making him this uncomfortable.
"Pfffft. Me too? That's it?" He looked up to the sky, with a shade of disbelief on his burning cheeks. "You're ready to seduce half of the universe and then you go 'me too'?"
Wow, okay. His hands parted and fell, just so they were covering the sides of his face so he could glare effectively at this jerk-
"What am I supposed to say?!" he huffed, louder than necessary, but not loud enough to free him of his woes. "I can barely even believe you actually love me too, let alone that you want to hold me in any way that isn't a chokehold!"
Yelling this stuff out loud wasn't doing much to cure his chronic blushing, but hell, if he could stop himself he would.
"I've been waiting to do this kind of stuff since the Garrison and I still don't know what to do now that I have you all to myself! Excuse me for losing my charming way with words when the only person flirting has ever mattered with says things like that--" Over-sharing alert, ABORT, ABORT-- His glare was more of a flustered pout by now, and his yelling devolved into a weak and shaky groan as he spun around, back now facing the red paladin.
He's already sacrificed enough of his dignity for today, Keith really doesn't need to see his face melt off with grumpy embarrassment.
He was not supposed to say anything, he just wanted to rile him up - at which he succeeded by the way, and now he could not help himself but chuckle at him in the meanest way possible.
Damn right he deserved it!! But...
Oh...
His flirting never mattered to him, when he was... Oh. Well, that. You see. He did not expect that. He pressed his lips together while the other paladin finished his rant. It... It felt really good...
Why did it feel this good? He felt like his chest was on the verge of bursting, his heart beated a hundred a minute - but this time it was not fueled by fluster. It was warm and thrilling: it lighted up his face just the same way when he was about to pilot a ship; self-confident and glowing with a grin.
He slid his palms forward to put his forearms on the rock and slightly leaned back on them, straightening his back.
"Well, I have ideas what to do with you, but we have to get out of the water for that."
But as usual, he clearly did not know how he sounded.
Maybe turning around so fast was a bad idea; he wobbled a little on his feet as a wave of dizziness crashed into him. Ah, jeez, he better not---
'What did Keith just say?!'
Eyes wide once again, he swung his body around at a breakneck pace to look at the other in disbelief, the temperature of his cheeks rising to impossible heights, and... Oh God. What is that pose. Why is he doing that pose. Lance wants to take a picture or something, hang it on the bottom of Keith's mattress so he can look at it every night before he sleeps. It's too hot, too hot, too hot--
He definitely moved too quickly this time, the world was spinning like crazy, vision splitting into two as his eyelids fluttered and suddenly he was falling forward into Keith's outrageously perfect body and--
'God dammit.'
It all went black.
He blinked at him in surprise as no reply came, but he moved in an instant when Lance fell towards him. He caught him by his shoulders without realizing what had happened: the only thing he registered was that the blue paladin lost his balance.
"Lance?" he asked him, but when he was left without an answer, he repeated his name. "Lance??"
Pushing him away a bit he looked at him in the face.
"Oh, shit."
He was almost sure this only happened in those Jane Austen novels he had - of course - never read, that it was just the easy way out for the authors to handle certain situations... However, he did not let the panic sink in, he received field training in the Garrison, he knew what to do.
After wrapping his right arm around Lance, he pulled themselves out of the pool. There, he grabbed the nearest towel and putting it on his lap he was about to move him again... Until he noticed how naked Lance was.
'Fuck, that's not important now...' He tried to convince himself, but well, it was kind of important, considering that he had never seen... it... before...
'Even though we did...'
Well, he did see it now.
'Jesus.'
He stood up almost too quickly - it would have been hilarious if he passed out too - and dropped his towel on Lance's thighs, covering him up. With a few, long steps he retrieved the other towel and returning to his original place he seated himself again, with his feet dangling over the water.
The blue paladin would faint again for sure if he regained his consciousness only to realize that he was stark naked, he sighed; and to be honest, he was more of at ease like this, too.
When he noticed that he more or less came to his senses, he dragged his head carefully on his lap and caressed his cheek, lightly patting at it. At the same time, he was on alert not to let him sit up in panic, should he try a sudden move like that.
"How do you feel? Does it hurt somewhere?"
It wasn't long before his eyes were blinking open again, being roused to full focus by the patting on his cheek. Man, since when was he lying down?
"What...?" he mumbled, mostly confused as he squinted at his surroundings. Well, first things first, there's Keith's wonderful face; must mean that's his hand too. He was still a little out of it, a dopey smile overtook his expression and he nuzzled weakly into the other's palm.
The floor was much softer than he would have expected from the hot springs, although, it was really only soft on his head which was kind of weird...
...
'Wait.'
His eyes flung wide open, and he would have sat straight up if not for the red paladin's impeccable reflexes. He's laying on Keith's lap. On Keith's lap. And they're both very naked, the only barrier between skin and skin being a towel. What the heck, did he die or something?!
His expectations were met: Lance did want to sit up, but he was on alert and prevented it in time. He was not a hundred percent unpredictable after all, was he.
"Calm down, you've just passed out," he said in a quieted voice. His head must be dizzy and in a complete mess, he did not want to hurt it with words too loud.
"Does it hurt somewhere?" he repeated his question, in case he missed it the last time. "Or do you feel weak somewhere?"
Of course he passed out. Only Lance would be lame enough to K.O on an alien onsen date; what else would anyone expect? It took a moment for him to react to all of Keith's words since his head was still a jumble, but once he did, it was clear this memory was getting locked away in the pit of shame later.
"Oh my god-" he whined, the sound soon turning into a groan that he caught with his hands as they covered his face yet again. This was pretty high up on the 'worst-case scenarios' list, and even with how hot the bath was, he didn't think he would actually faint. He can't help but wonder; did his mom know she was raising an idiot?
"It does hurt," he spoke lifelessly, voice muffled by his palms. "In my pride."
"Hey, it's okay, the water was hot..." he replied with a smile. It did not even occur to him that he was part of the reason of his fainting.
"Besides that, you can't resist now. I want to try something."
His smile widened into a grin as he raised his other hand too. He slipped all ten fingers into Lance's hair and, drawing small circles on the sides of his head, he started massaging his scalp.
Hair pets sure felt amazing, but he wondered if the two could be combined.
His hands slid down far enough to uncover his eyes, just so he could shoot Keith an unconvinced look. Even if his smile could cure all diseases, this guy had no clue.
Luckily for Keith, Lance didn't even want to resist - which he totally could. You know, if he wanted. It definitely had nothing to do with the fact that he was weak to Keith's everything. Not at all. These massages were dangerous though.
"What is up with your hands?" he sighed out quietly. His eyes had fallen shut, but his brows were still furrowed stubbornly; he's gotta thank the girl that introduced Keith to massages, she ignited a hidden talent that Lance was happy to benefit from, even if he did feel the urge to study up on massage techniques.
He squinted at him in suspicion, but his worries were soon proven to be futile. His hands did not stop even for a second: even though he worked through the entire day, he suddenly did not feel tired, not at all. When it came to Lance, he had separate energy resources to use.
"I just want to have my hands on you all the time," he chuckled and tilting his head he looked down to his face. "Does it bother you?" His massage came to a halt, but only for a few seconds; then he soon resumed doing it.
Despite his hands still covering his face from the cheeks downward, the way Lance's eyes flung open again probably hinted pretty clearly at the red hue spreading over his face. Wow.
"No-..." he grumbled after a moment of silent squinting, as if that would make his heart beat any slower. Tearing his gaze away from Keith's, his eyes shifted to the side as he both lamented and celebrated the red paladin's sweetness. Honestly, tilting his head like that was cheating and Lance is never gonna get to move his hands because he's never going to stop blushing.
Unless...
"I mean, who could blame you? I'm pretty irresistible~" With his signature flirt face, he wielded dual finger guns aimed at Keith.
As oblivious as ever, he did not notice Lance's flirt attempt.
"Yeah, you are." he nodded with such a matter-of-factness in his voice as if Lance just told him the time. One of his hands strayed away to stroke across his forehead. Man, how was he this lucky...
"Uhm, this probably isn't the best time to bring it up..." he started, introducing a topic that surely did not fit the current mood.
His smile faded out and he lifted his gaze to the pool. Oh, he should not have said that. But then again, Lance made it quite clear that he did not let go of any unfinished sentences...
"But uh..."
He let out a heavy sigh and chewed on the inside of his mouth for a bit. Okay, he can do this. He can do this. He did a hundred times more difficult tasks before this. These are just words, he had to articulate them—
"Is there anything you... want to ask about me?"
Why was his face burning? Maybe he was not blushing, just on the inside, just feeling horribly awkward. He did not want to talk about himself, but it was... It was about time, right? Lance tried to ask about him during the first days, but he straight told him he would not share anything.
Wow, that sounded incredibly selfish, now that he thought about it. Would Lance forget his words if he massaged his scalp strong enough? Can he just squeeze the memory out of his head?? He looked down at him. Maybe...??
His finger guns shook, seductive smirk frozen in place (though, looking considerably less seductive with a flush as bright as his), before falling down completely to land on his stomach. Defeated again, Lance accepted his fate - along with the affection to his forehead.
At least he's dying in the lap of a God, that's something. He decided it would be better to focus on what Keith was saying and the magic being worked on his scalp, rather than lamenting his own inability to stay cool around the coolest person he knows.
Tragically, the red paladin's words didn't help his cool status rise.
A very unique warmth flooded his chest; not the kind he gets when they kiss, or touch - or do anything really - but the kind that tugs at the corner of his lips, one that softens his gaze and makes him want to hold Keith's hand for the rest of eternity. So, basically, a really gay kind of warmth.
Ever since the picnic date's ending, Lance hadn't really expected to get answers out of the other any time soon (if ever), he'd just begrudgingly accepted the walls Keith built up and prepared for the long winded task of chipping away at them with his theoretical plastic spoon. So the fact that Keith was offering even a tiny nugget of the information he guarded so closely really... meant a lot to Lance.
All of that brings him to the question at hand: what should he ask Keith?
Well, he probably shouldn't dive right in with something deep, but what was considered 'too deep' in this situation? He's never really had this kind of conversation come up before, if he had known he would've googled 'questions to ask your crush' or something before he got stranded in space--
Ah, well, when in doubt, just go with the first thing that comes to mind--!
"How did you shower in the desert?"
Genius.
That... That question was not half as bad as he expected it to be. Wow, maybe talking about himself was not that difficult after all - Lance was seemingly uninterested in matters he considered to be... sensitive.
"I had a well nearby and used a bucket to wash up."
He did not want to ask why was he asking about his showering habits, but well, if this was what he was curious about, who was to deny him this piece of information?
"How is your skin so perfect when all you had was a bucket?!" It probably wasn't smart of him to shut off his brain-to-mouth filter, but this was a very important - and very unfair - conundrum. "I was in your shack for, like, one day and my pores were on the verge of death!"
He felt betrayed by mother nature, and it showed through his over dramatic pout. After all the work he puts into his skin, Keith manages to stay practically flawless with little to no effort. Rigged.
How was he supposed to know?!
"Uh, no idea. I didn't even shower every day," he shrugged, stopping the massaging for now. Maybe Lance needed all those stuff because he was overdoing it? Or... "I guess it's just..."
He suddenly squinted at him.
"Is this really what you're curious about?"
He stared at Keith in disbelief; who knew he was dating a barbarian.
Well, he did, when he first found out Keith sometimes slept in his boots. Savagery.
He'd be lying if he said he wasn't interested in anything else - the truth is, he's interested in everything, but he can't exactly ask Keith for that, it would be tiring and long and probably not appropriate for two naked dudes in a public bath.
"You could tell me about each and every spec of sand that got in your mullet and I'd still listen," he shrugged with a relaxed smile. "What did you do out there though? The desert, I mean. Like, did you pick up some hobbies or was it all just alien robot lion hunting?"
He let out a long sigh at his answer. There could not be a single person who was interested in sand...
"Just the alien robot lion hunting," he replied, repeating the exact same words. "I couldn't really afford to have hobbies there. I needed food and fuel for my bike."
He looked at the pool, but for some reason his face was unreadable: it was not like he was hiding his emotions, it was more like he did not have any for that period of time.
"Were you really moved to the fighter pilot branch around that?" he asked, glancing down at him. He did not want to only talk about himself, he considered himself an awful storyteller.
Lance didn't really expect the tables to be turned on him - at least, not so soon - so he couldn't help the hint of surprise in his voice.
"Uh, yeah-! Since I was the top cargo pilot, when you left I got your place by default," he replied simply. That was the short story of it, the longer one involved a lot more pestering of higher ups and instructors to recommend him for the free spot, but that wasn't necessary to mention.
"Why did you decide to go to the Garrison?" He was quick to put the spotlight back on Keith, not even realizing the other's question was a sort of distraction.
When he left... His words left a bitter taste in his mouth and though he thought his face would not give him away, his smile twitched to the side.
"Ah, I see," he nodded. He found it strange that a cargo pilot would immediately take a fighter pilot's place, since their ships worked so differently... But as with many other things, he did not understand nor he agreed with the Garrison's administration.
"I, uh..."
His thoughts were on so different matters by now that he could not answer his question immediately. He cleared his throat to save time before opening his mouth again.
"I got a hoverbike when I was small and I could drive it... really well," he shrugged: Lance experienced his piloting firsthand, he did not have to elaborate on it. "And I didn't have anything I wanted to do. The Garrison had some flyers going around in my town and they had this programme. Something like a preparational course for talented kids, aged ten to fourteen. It just looked like a challenge to me," he huffed as if all this talking was starting to tire him out.
"You had to sign a contract with the army that once you finished it, you'd have to complete the Garrison training - and then you have to join the army. I didn't really care about that, and my parents agreed on it too, so I went for it. I passed the entrance test and you know about the rest."
He looked down at him with an apologetic smile.
"Not too exciting, huh?"
A troubled crease formed between his brows; Keith was telling this story so casually, yet it sounded to Lance like he'd basically signed away his life before he even reached fifteen... Sure, the military isn't pure and perfect with sprinkles of rainbow sunshine everywhere, but recruiting kids to join them when they aren't even old enough to drive is pretty dodgy. Well, he already knew the Garrison wasn't the most morally acceptable place when he found out about the Kerberos cover up, but still. "Your parents... They were your adoptive parents, right? Did you like them?" Because Lance sure didn't. This may have been delving into some risky territory, he didn't want to ask things too personal too quickly, but he's been curious about the people who 'raised' Keith since his trip down memory lane with the red lion.
His first question froze the blood in his veins and the surprise widened his eyes as he glanced down at him. How did he... Well, Keith did tell him that he was an orphan, but he did not say this much... Wait, was it Shiro? It must have been him. But how much did he share with Lance? How much did Shiro know in the first place? He took a deep breath before answering. 'It could be just a lucky guess.' "Yeah..." he replied with a spaced out look in his eyes but they soon focused at Lance again. "They were usually busy with work, but they always gave me something. And they let me do whatever I wanted." They were never there for me. A sly smile spread across his unwavering face and he squinted at the blue paladin. "I had a freedom your kid self couldn't even dream of."
The unconvinced expression didn't soften in the slightest, only deepened; something felt off about what Keith was saying, or, maybe the way he was saying it. The first look he made didn't help the case, but whatever it was, Lance couldn't quite put his finger on it, nor could he shake the unnerving feeling that settled in his gut. Yeah, he definitely didn't like the Collingwoods. Despite his uncertainty, Lance wasn't sure he should push; this isn't the same as before, he didn't want to be overbearing about things like this. His suspecting squint continued, but he offered a small smile to Keith's. "Oh yeah? What kind of stuff did you get up to?"
He tilted his head left and right, deep in thought. What did he get up to? God, he did not want to remember them. The way he glanced down at Lance was vastly different from his smile, it was not spaced out anymore, it was... searching for something, looking for positive memories from that time. His hand started caressing the blue paladin's hair, but soon stopped when he felt the memory of Mrs. Collingwood's touch on his own. It was so soft, so loving, she was so nice to him, she was... She was such a liar... "Silence." He answered the question rather literally, with his smile turning small and distant. How could he condemn Mrs. Collingwood for her actions if he himself was hiding the truth? "I woke up to silence." "But as I got older, I started to like it. Our lot was huge, the closest neighbour was of a ten minutes walk, so I could blast the TV on full volume or go on a ride at midnight. I got a hoverbike when I was ten," he grinned at him. "I spent almost third of my money on fuel." "Ah, I couldn't wait to go home from school back then," he sighed with a nostalgic smile as he leaned back on his palms and looked ahead. "I just wanted to hear the buzzing of the engine," he raised his right hand and cut a line into the air, "and rush into the nearby valley. It had so steep slopes they gave up on building roads there. Those were my favourite."
Even with his earlier negative convictions, he couldn't help but stare stupidly at Keith's movements with a silly grin. That hand movement was cuter than any hand movement Lance had every seen, and he'll be damned if his heart doesn't flutter every single time a smile paints the red paladin's features. His own feet started fidgeting in their place at the energy; he smirked up wide at the other leaning backwards. "I bet you were a cute kid~" He knows Keith was a cute kid. "Did you have a tiny little mullet then too?" He pinched his finger and thumb in front of his eye, barely holding back the laughter in his voice.
His eye twitched at his words, but that smirk... He turned his gaze away and drew a deep breath. Wow, it would help a lot if his heart decided against giving a drum concert in there, he kind of needed some oxygen in his brain now. "I doubt I was 'cute'. I got into trouble way too often for that," he mumbled and pursed his lips. With his right hand he ruffled Lance's hair and pressed his palm against his forehead, slightly pushing his chin upwards. "And get off my hair already."
Hopefully, the newly returning blush on his face was subtle enough to be pinned down to the hot spring heat; but deep down, Lance knew he wasn't that lucky. Who gave Keith the right to do that, right here, practically completely naked with Lance on his lap and his hair in a pony tail-- It's completely illegal, Lance is going to die from a heart explosion. Before the bomb in his chest had time to go off, he grabbed the hand on his head and tugged it back to where he was once twiddling his own thumbs. He started playing with Keith's hand between his, running his fingers over every knuckle and the back of his palm. "I don't think puberty just makes people as cute as you, you've gotta have been the cutest little rebel!" His smirk only widened, eyebrows waggling teasingly. "Especially with a mini mullet~"
He lost his only weapon - his right hand - to him. Oh no, how will he make him shut up about this whole cuteness ordeal? Not that the attention it received was unwelcomed, but it made him so weak he almost forgot to prove him wrong. "Trust me I wasn't cute. I only showered when I was getting itchy." He stared at his own hand: somewhere along the line he unknowingly interlocked his fingers with Lance's. Wow, it's... His palm, it's really warm. And soft. Definitely too soft for a paladin. He pressed the back of his hand against Lance's cheek. Yep, it was warm too. And dry!! Finally there was no slippery feeling to it. He wanted to kiss him so badly, especially the corner of his mouth, it always made him smile and he loved to feel his lips curving upwards... "If you're feeling better, we should get going. It's getting late." 'I have no self-discipline.' Even if he had tried to deny it, he knew it all too well why he himself was eager to leave. Everything was great there: the air was warm, the ground was not uncomfortable at all, the water had a nice flowery scent to it, and yet he could not arch his back enough to reach Lance from there. That was a huge downside to their current situation, one he was not willing to put up with. He should probably calm down first though, he sighed at himself. His pulse was in the skies, what if he stood up and fainted?
"That's still cute in its own, gross way," he mumbled defiantly; maybe he really did have a problem... Keith's cuteness aside, their fingers were now laced and his level of fluster was no doubt caught out by the red paladin. That definitely wasn't fair, his face was getting even hotter-- He perked up visibly at Keith's words, though, he did try to stifle it a little by sinking further into his lap. It's not that laying on Keith's almost bare thighs wasn't great - like, really great - but it really limited the amount of affection Lance could hand out, and that in of itself was a sin. Having the other so close and yet so far was a hard thing to settle with, so no one can blame him for nodding with an eager grin. "Yeah!-- Yeah, I'm fine, great, perfect, let's go-" A little over enthusiastic, but he was excited to kiss Keith again! He regretfully released the other's hand and sat up, probably faster than someone who just fainted should do. Thankfully, he didn't fall right back down; instead, he was left slightly dizzy and faced with the realization that he was, in fact, incredibly naked with no water to protect him. He turned back toward Keith with cheeks dusted pink and a sheepish smile, only getting distracted by his legs for a moment (improvement!!). "Could you, uh-... look away or- help me up?--"
As Lance sat up he could not stop his gaze sinking. It was not even a conscious move, his attention was just caught by something he had not seen it before and so he had to check it out. 'Oh jesus christ.' He really should not have looked there and it did not help him either that however hard he tried, he could not think of anything else but 'what a nice ass'. Definitely not cute. Wait, was he trying to be cute?? "Yeah, sure, yeah," he nodded kind of zoned out as he turned his face away, wow, this amount of fluster was sure unhealthy. But as always, he wanted to react to embarrassment with offense - maybe if Lance was feeling more uncomfortable than him it would ease his own situation. On the other hand, it would be terribly mean to him... He glanced up to the sky with a shaky jaw. Resist it. Resist it. "Not like I," he suddenly drew a deep breath, but it sadly did not stop the flow of his words, "haven't seen it already though, I was the one dragging you here—" He bit his lower lip. Shit, he was even grinning—
His eyes widened, smile falling as the meaning behind Keith's words registered in his brain, a look of incredulous horror setting into every muscle of his face. "Oh my god," he said, disbelief evident in his frozen expression. The freeze soon melted though, because suddenly a red that rivals the colour of Keith's lion was recolouring the entirety of Lance's head and shoulders. He saw it--... His head turned back to stare down at his own lap, covered by a towel that - yep - he definitely didn't put there himself. Biting his lip, he desperately held the internal screaming back from becoming external. "Oh my god--" Keith even had the nerve to grin, the asshole! The beautiful, beautiful asshole! Lance has been exposed! His modesty compromised! His boyfriend saw his wang in it's most natural state, there's no being saved from this-- "I'm gonna pass out again. I hope I pass out again," he muttered to himself, hands raising to cradle his defeated head, just about ready to lie down and wait for death to come for him. 'No!' "You!--" he practically yelled, whipping his torse back to face Keith again with an arm stretched out and a harshly pointed finger, a trembling squint and weak determination ruling his features; there's no way he'll accept this! He's gonna fight back!! "Show me yours too!--"
Holy shit, Lance was so adorable he had to stare at him. Of course if this situation was reversed he would be the one blushing to death, but it did not matter now: he could freely bask in his embarrassment. He wondered if the blue paladin enjoyed their time together at all, he was way too often flustered compared to him - but screw that, he will tell him if he was overdoing it. However, when Lance pointed at him, he drew his head back a bit as if his eyes were about to be poked out. He should do... What?! No way, no way, it did not work like that!! He can't just stand up and swing it around just because he asked for it! His right hand grabbed his own towel, before the blue paladin decided to snatch it away. There will be absolutely no dick revelations, not under his watch. He opened his mouth to voice his opinion too, but instead, he leaned ahead and bit down on Lance's finger. Almost choking on a chuckle, his grin widened; and his tongue accidentally brushed the tip of his finger as he said: "Nope."
Tearing his hand away like it had been burned, a small whine escaped his throat's defenses for a split second. Keith is the worst; the absolute worst. One day, he's going to kill Lance like this, and it will be super dramatic and sad and he'll regret being so terrible-- His flustered gaze dropped to his slightly shaky hand, he could still almost feel the tongue that it touched. Betrayal, complete treachery, so unfair. Only one idea came to Lance's frantic mind, and though questionable it may be, there wasn't anything else he could think of. Brows creasing further, he looked up, straight into Keith's eyes, and brought his assaulted finger to his own mouth. Without even waiting a second, his lips parted and he licked the tip of the digit clean. "S-show me, Keith." he said, low and serious, even through his trembling jaw and the imminent feeling he's about to start crying tears of blood. He tried to school his expression to stay stern, but his infinitely red cheeks probably lessened the effect; this was the definition of a double-edged sword.
His clutch eased on the towel, but his fingers curled into a tight fist again; he pushed the back of his hand against his mouth, in hopes of hiding his burning cheeks as well. He averted his gaze and kept his breath in. Even though he was against stripping himself with all his might, it was... It was impossible to say no to this, what's... what's this... He looked back at him, locking eyes with him. Oh god, he was still staring at him. What was he supposed to do?? Just simply throw away the towel? Say 'sure, go ahead'? Stand up and run away? Drown himself in the pool? All these options seemed to be absurd, though the last one was getting to be more and more tempting as the seconds passed by. He forced himself to swallow, even though his dry throat was not cooperative at all. It was his only success at calming himself down, because he could not help his shaking at all. "I-I-I, uh..." He squinted at him, trying to fake some anger or frustration at Lance, but he was unable to do so - just like saying no. Glancing away, he mumbled. "I-It's nothing special——"
Considering the fact that he started it, Keith really had no right to be so cute after that; yet here he was, almost dragging Lance into a trance with his every movement. "It felt pretty special--" he muttered, before the failure he calls his brain filter could stop him. He recoiled immediately from his own words, swallowing down any other terrible things that threatened to come from his mouth. Jesus, why did he think an onsen date would be a good idea-- "I mean--- I-- J-just show me already--" he sputtered quickly, desperately willing his face to cool down and his heart to stop racing. It didn't work.
Did he just?? Say?? That?? He looked at him in utter disbelief. This was not Lance, this could not be Lance, what the heck, what the heck. Dropping his hand back to his waist, he almost jumped on his feet - it must have been some kind of martial artist technique to stand up from this position, but he somehow pulled it off. He kept the towel in place, then, while talking, he tied a quick knot on it. "It doesn't work like that!!" he shouted at him almost terrified. Lance's words were incredibly dangerous, what if he did show it to him but it decided to greet him too??? He started walking backwards, keeping a very close watch on the blue paladin. "Just let's go already!!!"
For a moment, Lance sat dumbfounded at the impossible way Keith just stood up, but it wasn't long before he spun his legs around to the direction the other was walking in. The ground scratched his butt a little, however, at least now he could get up without giving Keith a full view of his naked ass. He pushed himself up, one hand firmly holding his towel in place, tying it haphazardly around his waist as he hurried to follow the red paladin. "You can't just sneak a peek of Lance Jr. for free, Keith, that's not how this works!!" he yelled, power walking up to him with his right hand pointing accusingly whilst the other held the towel to his hip.
He was stopped in his tracks by the blue paladin's words. "Lance Jr.? Do you call it--" He could not even finish his second question before bursting out in a laughter. He could not be serious, was he talking to it too? Given how chatty Lance was, he could very well imagine it. His head was spinning with all these rapidly changing emotions, but instead of finding a hold on the wall, he put his palm on his stomach. However, as he was still backing away from Lance, he did not realize he had already reached the door - and, after a rather unlucky step he tripped over its threshold.
Lance froze in place when the realisation of what he just said hit him like a truck. It was only for a second or two, until he was walking faster, trying and failing to sputter some kind of defence as his flush darkened even further. "I-it's not that funny!!" he shouted in the end, gaining on Keith with a glare plastering his face. He was only a few steps away when the red paladin fell, but that gap was quickly closed as Lance ran the two steps forward to grab one of his arms. It was more of an instinctual thing, to try and save him without hesitation; unfortunately, moving so fast without thinking didn't give Lance much time to control his balance, causing him to lean too far forward, only to end up being pulled down with Keith once he caught him. His knees were definitely gonna have some bruises later, but that was the least of his worries. Of course, because this was Lance, and the universe was determined to make him suffer, he landed right on top of Keith. In fact, he nearly face planted into his chest, narrowly avoiding crushing his nose by turning to the side a second before impact. This onsen date was a terrible idea.
His head was too heavy to register what had happened. He could feel Lance's fingers on him, but the only thing he could do was to put down his other forearm to avoid falling on his back. It was still painful since he grazed his elbow on the wooden floor, but at least his spine was intact. The blue paladin's weight pushed out all the air of his lungs, so he spent the first fifteen seconds with catching his breath. He groaned in frustration: man, just how clumsy he can get? Speaking of which... 'Wow, just how clumsy he can get,' he huffed, but instead of saying it out loud, he cupped the back of Lance's head with his hurt hand and closed his eyes. It felt so great to have his face against his bare chest despite the small, pulsing pain of his wrist and arm. He could feel his breath on his skin, his warmth against his heat - god, he missed that. For some mysterious reason, suddenly he was in no rush to leave this place anymore. 'No, no, we should get going.' Right. Getting going, it was his original plan, one very simple plan, that was why they left the room in the first place. He could carry it out any time, even so, Lance could carry it out any time, so it really must have been an easy task. He sighed. Yup, it was high time to get up. How to do it, though - oh right, let's get up on three. A slow exhale: and start counting. One... One... One... One... ... Alright, how about just... just five more minutes...?
His right hand hung loosely from Keith's forearm while his left was slumped on the floor, laying uselessly where he'd used it to save the other from part of his weight. It sure did hurt. The ache in his knees was making itself known faster than Lance had hoped; the fact he was still leaning on them probably didn't help, but he was suddenly up close and personal with Keith's magnificent chest and couldn't find the will to care about it anymore. "Sorry," he muttered weakly, a little muffled with his cheek still smushed against the other. He should really get up, they were supposed to be leaving after all... The original purpose of their retreat became less and less important; all Lance could focus on was the sound of Keith's heartbeat and the hand on his head. Surely sleep could wait a few minutes longer... He turned his head to rest his chin on the red paladin's chest (which, by the way, is just as perfect as it was two days ago), looking straight up at him. Even at an angle like this, Keith was still so damn gorgeous-- It really wasn't fair at all; Lance couldn't help but squint at him as if that would somehow change the fact Keith has beauty worthy of a god. His constant desire to kiss the other was hitting him at full force, lips even twitching slightly with anticipation. Who did this guy sell his soul to to become so kissable? Lance would kiss anything his lips could reach if he wasn't sure Keith would get sick of it! Hell, he would kiss his chest right now - if he could! ... He could totally kiss Keith's chest right now-- No, wait, wouldn't that be weird? Probably, yeah, he shouldn't do that. But, wow, would you look at that, he's doing it anyway! Dammit Lance- His lips pressed gently against Keith's sternum, lifting up soon after, but only to lay another one right above it. He trailed little pecks across his chest, stretching his neck to reach his collar bones. It's a real shame his neck wasn't longer, but then again, it probably wouldn't be that hot if it were.
He gasped at the sensation, did Lance really... For a moment he thought he fell on him on purpose, but he discarded this idea - let's be honest, the blue paladin was not cunning enough to pull such a stunt. Well, accident or not, it was a sensation most welcomed so he shut his eyes in an instant to focus all his attention on the lips trailing up on his chest. The skin there was much more sensitive than he imagined: sure, Lance caressed him there two days ago, but it was nothing compared to being kissed by; that's why he kept his breath in as if a careless exhale would disperse the moment. He only let it out when - regretfully - the journey stopped at his collarbones. Hoooly shit, it would be really embarrassing to get worked up here. He chewed at his bottom lip. While he was thrilled by this turn of events, it was also incredibly unfair that he could not kiss him back. However, it was an injustice he was not about to tolerate: his hand left Lance's head and, joined by the other one on his right side and after putting his elbows down, he lifted him by his armpits. A guy should not be this light, he wondered, he could move him so easily... He pulled him carefully so their towels would not join the adventure, but high and quick enough to soon face him. Holding him above with little to no effort, he touched their noses together and stared into his eyes. Damn, Lance could look at him with at least a thousand different ways - as if nothing, not even the blue hue was permament in his eyes - and Keith was sure he will never learn all of them. But they were looking at him and him alone... A little lost there quite a few seconds had passed before he lifted his chin to brush their lips together and whisper into them, afraid of his voice being too shaky to be heard. "Kiss me here, please."
It seems like Keith was getting very talented at ripping surprised squeaks from Lance, but this is a skill he wasn't sure he could survive. All in what felt like two seconds, Lance was suddenly hovering above the red paladin, and his heart was thumping in his ears as his perfect lips brushed against his. It was in this moment he confirmed his past wonderings: Keith could definitely bench press him - with ease. Holding Keith's gaze was both the easiest and most difficult thing to do. He didn't break the contact - a louder part of him couldn't tear away from his entrancing eyes - but the stare helped his burning cheeks none. He can't just do that. He can't just lift Lance like he's a bunch of grapes and then say things like that! It's unfair! Completely against the rules! Lance's face is going to melt off-- He swallowed thickly. A stronger man would take this chance to tease, play it coy and make him beg for it or something; but Lance is not a strong man. In fact, Lance is the weakest man when it comes to Keith. The man who would happily punch himself in the face if Keith asked for it. One that could never dream of denying Keith a kiss. "Gladly," he whispered - almost breathlessly - before diving in. His eyes fluttered closed as soon as his lips met Keith's softly, the previously lifeless hand following it's clockwork instinct and sliding through the side of the other's hair. Considering how much he rags on his mullet, Lance could stroke his fingers between each strand for days; just like he would never tire of pressing his mouth against Keith's. With each kiss, it gets harder and harder to keep it chaste; he tried tilting his head to sate his hunger - thinking that getting closer would calm him down - but it only made it worse, every roll of their lips getting a little more impatient than the last, leaving his tongue itching to taste-- It should be fine to let it, right? Just a bit? They aren't really in a public bath anymore; just two dudes making out near some hot springs! In nothing but towels! ... Whatever. A second longer of rocking and his mouth parted on a weak sigh, tongue simply brushing against Keith's lower lip before closing once more, acting as an invitation of sorts, leaving the decision to the paladin below him with underlying hope.
The moment he felt Lance's tongue on his lips he met it with his own; finally, he sighed through his nose. Unlike the blue paladin, he did not even intend to keep this chaste, why would he hold himself back when he agreed to it? Lance wanted to do it, he wanted to do it, there was absolutely nothing against a full-blown make out. Well, maybe the choice of place, but that somehow was not on his mind now. He let Lance lead the kiss - he loved how he did it, it was slower and more tender, yet it somehow felt more powerful and dizzying... Running his fingers through his hair he cupped his head with both hands, not even giving him the option to pull away. It soon became quite clear that the bottom was not his position at all, his entire body twitched with the urge to simply flip themselves around - but being kissed like that pleased him enough to stay put and obedient, and let him do whatever he wanted. At least until they broke away for air. His left hand soon glided down to his shoulder as the other one gently pulled his head away. Once he bared enough of his neck, with a hot huff he pressed a strong kiss on it; and at the same time, his hand travelled further down and splayed its fingers between his shoulder blades. A second and a third kiss followed impatiently, pushing Lance's jaw upwards with his nose each time, and his fingertips dug into his back as if he was holding Lance down - which he was, for some reason, indeed doing; the muscles on his arms tensed forcefully ready to keep him in place should he move; and without a single warning, he bit into his neck. With a wide, satisfied grin he opened his eyes and drawing a deep breath through his teeth, he sucked at the skin.
There probably won't ever come a kiss where Lance isn't sad it ended, but he certainly accepts it a whole lot quicker when Keith's mouth moves on to work wonders on his neck. A small sigh found it's way into the air as his eyes opened halfway; maybe he was still a little dazed from the kiss, his cheeks were so warm he doesn't even remember what it feels like to not be blushing anymore. His back arched slightly into the pressure between his shoulder blades; he's gotta admit, Keith's chest is one of the nicer places Lance has been pinned to. Although, the others were mostly dirty floors, so it wasn't really a fair competition, but it would take a lot to beat this. Lance was pretty content running his hand through the red paladin's mullet, just basking in the affection being shown to one of his weakest points - and he would have continued being content with that, if not for a set of teeth sinking into his skin. He choked on a groan, fingers tightening in Keith's hair before he bit down on his own bottom lip to stifle an overly pleased hum. Now this definitely wasn't appropriate for a public bath house, and yet, his concept of modesty had long been thrown out into space. Though, the second he felt suction, his eyes flung open on a sharp intake. "Holy--" he breathed, staring wide and helpless at the ground under them. A hickey. Keith was giving him a hickey. Does this guy realize what he's doing? What it's doing to Lance? He'd always thought it would be pretty hot to be bitten by a sexy vampire lady or something, but this was better. Much better. It also involved less blood loss, so that's always a plus. He shifted a leg forward in an attempt to gain some kind of grounding, but all it achieved was pushing Keith's further apart and it did nothing to calm the dizzying heat of his cheeks. He had no chance to prepare heart for this, every breath he took grew shakier than the last; Keith is cruel and unfair and all Lance could really do was sit there and pray he could stay cool and collected in this dire situation. He really didn't like the odds.
He sure did not know what he had been doing to him, but that stifled groan was all he wanted to hear. Beautiful; Lance was so beautiful, all these noises that he - for some weird reason - always tried to quiet were so beautiful he wanted to bask in them all night long. The hand that pulled the blue paladin's head away sneaked down to the nape of his neck and grasped at it. However impossible it was, he wanted to pull him closer, he wanted more of his skin on his, to feel his pulse as his own. After a few seconds, he let go of him with a sigh and kissed the slightly discolored skin. He could not really see it well from this close, but he might have overdone it a bit... The sudden wave of remorse sobered him enough to notice the knee pushing his legs apart, wait a minute, that's a ten out of ten idea Lance is having there and Keith would be surely down for it, but still, they can't do that here... "I wanted to ask you something," he huffed quickly as he let his head drop back on the floor and he looked up to the ceiling. He had to talk, he had to crush the moment. Though, to be honest, it was quite difficult to forget all those marvelous muscles under his fingers: unknowingly, he kept drawing small circles into them. He turned his head towards Lance to press their faces together and opened his mouth to continue... But no sound came out of it. Alright, let's try again, he sniffed in irritation. After taking a deep breath, he kept the air in - only to sigh it out, defeated by his own cowardice. "Shit, this is harder than I thought..."
Despite being grateful for the mercy the red paladin had shown by finishing up, Lance couldn't deny that he sort of missed Keith's mouth on him; that wasn't a very news worthy fact anymore, though. He let out a silent sigh as he worked to compose himself and calm his racing pulse, keeping his face angled to the side in an attempt to cling to some of his dignity. Keith had a question, it seemed, so he let his gaze flick towards the other as he waited for him to elaborate, continuing to absentmindedly stroke his fingers through his hair. Their faces were pushed together but the words still weren't flowing, so rather than fussing over the fact he would absolutely be able to feel his burning cheeks, Lance waited patiently for him to continue. Or at least, he tried. His last words had Lance pulling back enough to see his face, concern bubbling slowly in his gut as he looked down at the paladin below him. "What is it?" he asked, with slightly furrowed brows but a mostly curious gaze.
Alright, Lance pulling away and looking him in the face surely did not help to make the words flow. He glanced up at him and swallowed. He could do it. Come on, he said ten times more embarrassing things today! "So, last time you were a bit... busy... and couldn't really answer it..." "......" Well, who would have known that beating around the bush would just make his situation even worse: by his fifth word, his stomach curled up in a small, painful ball, buzzing with all kinds of anxiety that was so not him. "When I asked you that, how you - goddamn it," he groaned and closed his eyes. "The next time when... if - we do - it; how you would like me to, uh, do... it." He opened his eyes to stare at the wall. What were the odds the building decided to collapse on them? 'Jesus Christ did I turn him off for a lifetime—' ...Maybe if he looked hard enough at it, it would crumble!! He tried to focus on this very important architectural question, but panic started to settle in. He did not even dare to glimpse the expression of Lance's face, he did not want to see him disgusted or, even worse, disillusioned—
Lance's mind went blank. 'How he would...' If he thought he was burning before, then his skin must be straight up lava by now; was he the one producing the steam around here or what- "I-I, uh--... It's-- um----" Apparently, it only takes about eight words to destroy Lance's ability to form a proper sentence. In his defense, he was a little preoccupied with remembering what it means to breathe at the moment. His eyes shifted back to the ground in hopes of regaining his brain functions, Keith's face was only making him blush and stutter-- Their current situation had never hit him harder. "I-I dunno I-- don't really have... a preference??-- I mean, if--- if it's you it, uh-- um---..." Turns out even the floor couldn't save him from his own stammering. How is he supposed to respond this question?? How is anyone supposed to respond this question???? Lance was dying at just the thought--- "I don't--.. I don't mind---" He silently prays to any superior being in the universe that this answer is enough.
He could not blame Lance for his stammering, if this situation was reversed - just like ten or fifteen minutes ago - he would act like the same. That did not mean, however, that he was content with such a neutral answer. "But I mind it," he replied, turning his gaze back at him. Oh, he was not looking at him either, nice. He paused for a few seconds and pressed his palm against Lance's back. "It's not about a preference, it's... uh..." A sudden idea hit him, and his widening, albeit bashful grin sure did not look promising for the blue paladin. His right hand cupped Lance's face, trying to make an eye-contact with him. "Hey, you said you had fantasies about me?" There was no chance Keith would ever forget that. "Tell me one!"
Suddenly, every fantasy Lance had stored away in his brain flashed before his eyes, making this conundrum at least a thousand times worse. His jaw trembled under Keith's gaze; this was some kind of torture or something! His mouth opened and closed as he scrambled to gather words that weren't completely embarrassing, which was a difficult task when the person of your affections was asking about your private thoughts with a grin like that-- "C-can we have this conversation when we aren't naked and on the floor?--" he almost pleaded, voice cracking a little by the end. He tried pushing himself up against Keith's hold on his back, quite ready to be swallowed up by the ground and dropped straight into alien hell.
Were they on the floor? He kind of forgot that, even though his back was starting to hurt. "Ah, yeah, sure," he nodded, but before Lance could have escaped, holding the blue paladin by his back he sat up with him - effectively putting him on his lap by doing so. Since the towels were quite restricting, Keith sat on his heels and pushed Lance's legs to the right side to get them out of the way. He left his hand on his knees and gently tugged at the towel, while his other hand moved to the back of his head to pull him closer. He kissed him without a second thought: even if Lance was distressed and Keith knew he should have given up on this whole thing, it did not mean he would give him a break. He pressed their lips together almost too eagerly, kissing him on and below the mouth and in its corner - he just could not get enough of adoring him, he wondered if he could ever properly do so. His fingers splayed on his thigh whatever purchase he could make there and with a content huff he nuzzled his cheek. "Well, you aren't on the floor anymore." "I'm all ears," he grinned at him, but knowing all too well how much his kisses pacified him, he quickly peppered his jawline with some more - and also to cover up a small theft down there, namely a grab at his unbelievably strong and perfectly palm-fitting thigh of his, that he could not resist.
Lance had almost let the waves of relief wash over him when Keith agreed; but of course, he's never that lucky, now their position was even worse and Keith was being even more unfair. Needless to say, he melted into the kiss - though, not without a defeated whine at the back of his throat. Keith's kisses were his Achilles heel and the jerk knew it. That didn't stop him from kissing back, not at all; even with a very noticeable hand on his thigh, he couldn't help but be carried away by the red paladins lips. He huffed childishly, despite the ever looming question still setting his cheeks aflame. This isn't what he meant and the fact hasn't changed that he just can't say that kind of thing, no matter how many pecks Keith presses against his jaw or times he grabs his thigh, good lord---- A thought ran through his head; as the only kind of defense he could muster in times like this, Lance ran with it. Leaning back slightly, he squinted, staring Keith straight in the eyes before offering a weak challenging smirk. "I'll tell you if you tell me."
He blinked twice as Lance looked him in the eyes. If he told him? How would he know what Lance - oh. He meant - he meant his ones. He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion. What did he fantasize about him before? No, the right question was: what did he want to do with him that they had not done so far? Tilting his head deep in thought he let go of his head and scratched his own neck. "You kind of made all of them come true already," he mumbled, but he knew Lance would not be content with such an answer. "But if I really wanted something..." His eyes widened as he remembered something. Right. That. He turned his face away as he felt the heat creeping up on his cheeks. "I-I'm not really sure what works and what doesn't, so..."
Keith was right; Lance wasn't going to be satisfied with cute answers like that, even if they did make his heart flutter. He squinted harder, as if that would make his blush less noticeable. Since he was pretty focused on the red paladin's face, it was impossible to miss the fact that something ran through his thoughts - an idea that caused him to turn away and blush. "Wh--... You can't expect a tour through my fantasies with that!" he huffed loudly, grabbing the side of Keith's face and tugging it back towards him. Does he really think Lance will let him off easily after this?? Lips pursed and eyes determined, he leaned in slightly to stare him down. "I need detailed instructions on how to rock your world, Keith!"
When did this whole thing became about him? He wanted to know details about Lance's fantasies, not sharing his own... whatevers he had! "Uhh, well, it's weird but," he started, slightly tilting his head into the palm that was holding it. "I wanted to tell you anyways..." He pressed his hand on his own mouth and scratched his free cheek. Wow, alright, this was really difficult to say. Averting his gaze yet again, his fingers curled into a fist and he pressed it against his lips, muffling his already quiet words. "When we sleep and you hug me from behind, I... cannot, really, focus on sleeping."
Hot damn, Keith is cute. He's cute, so cute, maddeningly cute-- But, right, that isn't the focus of the current conversation - not that Lance is following along with it as well as he'd like to anyway. His head tilted to the side in confusion; when he hugs him from behind... Like, spooning? That's keeping Keith up? But... "Why??" he asked, brows crinkling in the centre as he tried to put two and two together. It wasn't working out.
What did he mean by 'why,' Lance should be the one enlightening him! Maybe it was weird after all. Or was the blue paladin curious about the exact details, like - oh well, there is only one way to find it out. "Fuck if I know!" A gesture with his hand accompanied his words, unfolding his fist into a discarding wave. For a few seconds he even stared at the other, but he soon looked away again as his index finger drew little circles in the air. "It's just, I can feel..." "The..." "Your..." He licked his lips before sucking them in. Is he really elaborating on this? His hand froze and he let out a long, silent sigh. How should he phrase it, he can't just say it out loud, he would die, Lance would die, Voltron would die if he did that. But if he kept it too vague, then Lance would surely miss it and then his situation would become ten times worse. He took a deep breath and looked him in the eyes. Alright, he just had to say it straight, no beating around the bush, just be on point, Keith. "..." "Thighs." Almost.
Despite nodding along with each of the red paladin's words, he was left with even more questions than before. A small voice at the back of his brain was telling him he was being seriously dumb about this, and yet, it wasn't showing him why so frankly, it can shut up. "My... My thighs????" His expression was no less confused, but his eyes did drop to squint as his own thighs, as if that would somehow provide an answer for him. So Keith had a thing for his thighs?? Well, that would explain the grabbing and the... the kissing-- It's not like Lance couldn't understand an appreciation for thighs - hell, he's spent plenty of time appreciating Keiths - but his thighs aren't really anything to write home about, nor do they seem amazing enough to keep someone up...... "I don't get it," he said, straight to his lap, still searching for instructions on how to crack the code. Maybe they're better when he's laid down??
The troubled frown on his own face smoothed out into an almost jovial expression as his mind gave up on accepting reality and let itself sunk into the sweet state of denial. There was no use of existing in this world anymore, his very being was reduced to a bunch of, now disposable atoms. His shoulders rose as he sucked in yet another deep breath, and he followed the blue paladin's gaze down to his thighs. Lance did not get it. Lance. Did not. Get it. "There’s a dick there!!" he said a bit louder than necessary and, spreading both of his hands he straightened his back in utter disbelief.
Oh. "Oh," he said, out loud this time. It's almost as if his cheeks couldn't be cold anymore, he's in a permanent state of mild to intense blushing and it's all Keith's fault. The worst part is, he's still not one hundred percent sure what he means-- "W-well, I mean--... I-... Sorry?--" Was that the right thing to say? For keeping him up with the presence of his dick?? Although, Keith is the one that starts the spooning activities, so is Lance really to blame?
Sorry? Sorry. He slightly opened his mouth but not even for a second he wanted to speak up. The churning sensation in his chest ordered him otherwise: it advised him to stay silent. 'What the fuck,' he asked himself quietly. The moment he felt this kind of excitement first, he found it weird; he thought about it later and it still seemed to be abnormal. And then he decided to tell Lance about it and - and he apologized. He apologized for riling him up with stuff like that. Seriously, just what else did Keith expect? That the blue paladin would, for some miraculous reason, pat his shoulder and prove him wrong? That it was absolutely okay, what okay, the hottest thing in space? Every sign pointed at this outcome and yet he chose not to pay attention to it, that if he just kept being reckless like he had been so far, then he would get away with everything. Was it always this cold down there? "Yeah, it's fine," he replied with a small, nervous smile and he dropped his hands to the floor. "I can still sleep, so, don't worry about that." Feeling that the conversation would not really branch out from this point, he put his palms on the floor. "Could we get up? I'm freezing here."
Oh. Oh no. That look wasn't good. Those words weren't good. He's not asking the question, he's trying to leave. Lance went wrong there, he can feel it in the pit of his gut. "Wait, no, I--" His hands fell too Keith's shoulders, as if that would hold him down while he scrambled his brain for the right words for fix whatever he'd done. Slight panic began to set in; he can let it end like this, not after what happened last time something went unresolved, he has to say something-- Fuck. He'd just apologized for this guys kink, he can't excuse that away! This is what happens when someone as oblivious as him is put into sensitive conversations, what is he supposed to say?!? "It's--" Christ, he's stuttering - stalling - the desperate look on his face no doubt gives away how much of a train wreck he is. Maybe honesty is the answer; hell, it's the only answer he's got. "Sorry, I---" stop with the sorry--- "I'm.. still not really sure what you mean---... With the- hug thing??"
Busted. And he was not only busted, but he made Lance panic. If anything could hurt more than rejection, it would be this; it reminded him of their picnic date where he upset the blue paladin with something and he had to run after him to fix it. He remembered his nervousness from that time: and he did not want the other to experience it. Though he dreaded the possibility of Lance pulling away after telling him such a weird thing, he wiped his right hand in his towel (should he have picked up any kind of dirt from the floor) and with a small caress he cupped Lance's cheek. Given that he was not avoiding his touch, he leaned in for a short kiss too before talking. "Chill, I've just changed my mind," he mumbled with their noses touching then and now. "Let's get some clothes on, we can talk on the way." He could not just leave him like this, he was not a princess to only mind himself, he had to man up! Sure, he dodged Lance's question altogether: there was no way he would answer that - if it was that strange that it needed explanation, then he surely did not want to elaborate on it. But he wanted to put his my mind at ease right now, more than anything. His ridiculous fears of making Lance disgusted or weirded out by him could wait, though they still lingered there, the all too empty feeling in his chest did not fade away.
While the kiss did calm his panicking, it didn't wipe away the feeling of dread that hung around in his chest. Chilling would be great right now, but it was highly unlikely. He lifted his hand to land over Keith's, swiping his thump over whatever of his flesh it landed on as he leaned in to touch foreheads for a second. "Okay," he nodded, before pulling away completely and moving to stand. His face was mostly neutral, but once he was upright, he offered his hand to help Keith up. His jaw was tense, brain thinking at a mile a minute. One thing's for sure - he had to put his idiocy aside and figure out what Keith meant.
A sigh of relief almost escaped him when Lance returned his touch - god, maybe he was not freaked out by him a hundred percent. He accepted the offered hand without a second thought and stood up quickly, only to grab his towel at the very last second. His heart skipped a beat. Shit, that was close. "I wonder if the others are asleep," he said, trying to change the topic for both of their sakes. He could do this, an awkward, heavy silence was the last thing they needed. "I've never seen Allura or Coran asleep." He had just started walking towards the changing room, but he had to stop and furrow his eyebrows. "Do Alteans sleep at all?"
Lance was too deep in his own head to register any movements other than Keith starting to walk, which he followed. "They were asleep for ten thousand years when we found them," he offered idly. Even with his mind chugging away, he was physically unable to leave a conversation hanging. "I know Allura has a big fancy bedroom, but I don't think I've seen her use it since the Balmera healing thing..." "Maybe they run on batteries or something." He couldn't stop a small amused smile at the idea of the aliens swapping out each others batteries. No, he's putting too much thought into this, what did Keith mean before--
There was a point in what Lance said, though deep down he doubted that hibernation counted as sleeping. But again, who knew? Hibernation was not a thing back on Earth, they only had theories about it. "You haven't seen her using it? That sounded creepy," he snickered, turning his grinning face away. This is working!! "I hope you aren't stalking her too much, Coran can get really protective."
Until then, Lance had kept his gaze mostly towards the floor, but this accusation required his full attention! "I'm not stalking her! I just happen to walk by her room a lot!--" he defended, though that probably didn't seem any less creepy, so he quickly added, "She's got a stash of space moisturiser, I break in to steal it sometimes---" Admitting to theft probably wasn't the angle he should have taken, and yet, it was the one he took nonetheless. With a huff, he dropped his sights back to the ground, staring even more intently to regain his focus. Focus!!!
He raised his eyebrows further and further the more Lance talked. Clenching his teeth together he pressed the back of his palm on his mouth to stifle his chuckle. His shoulders shook nonetheless, and he had to turn his face away too. Amazing. They were out in space to destroy a more than ten thousand years old empire, and his teammate was stealing moisturiser from their alien princess. The changing room was not that far: as soon as Keith entered it, he stepped to the wooden locker he left his clothes in. Alright, time to get... changed... With his daytime clothes in his hands, he squinted at the locker. Okay, but how? He wanted to glance back over his shoulder, but what if Lance noticed that? Wow, he sure did not think this through. He leaned into the box, seemingly searching for something that fell out of his pockets. Think. Think.
He shot Keith a petty glare from the corner of his eye - stupid Keith and his stupid(ly amazing) laugh. This is an important matter! Once the floor became that of the changing room, Lance went straight to his clothes. He was pretty much on autopilot, stepping into his underwear and pulling it up under his towel, still squinting at the ground. He continued dressing without a word. Maybe he needed to reevaluate the facts; clearly, glaring a hole into the ground isn't working. So, when they cuddle, Keith finds it hard to focus on sleeping, because he can feel Lance Jr. against him. Right. Okay. He understands the trouble there. But where's the kink in that?!? It's just sle-- Ssssss... Oh. Oh. "I'm an idiot," he whispered, at some point having stopped with his shirt only over his arms to stare at the floor, eyes widened with his obvious realization. An idiot, a big idiot, how did he not get that?! Idiot!!
Since Lance was making some noise, Keith assumed he was busy was with changing clothes: and so, he just took off his towel and dressed up as if he was alone. Worst case scenario: Lance saw his butt. Big deal, now he remembered it: he saw it in the Garrison before.
As soon as he was done, he closed the locker and towel-dried his hair. He felt ten times better: with his stomach full and body clean, he really could not have asked for more. He was not particularly sleepy either, though he did want to go to bed to think about what he had done and what he should do different the next time - and, maybe because he wanted to hide a bit from Lance, too. However, his eagerness vanished when he saw the blue paladin being frozen in his move. "Lance? Is everything okay?"
His head whipped up to face Keith, enlightenment consuming his expression. "I'm an idiot!" he said louder, stating the obvious. How could he possibly be this oblivious?! Sure, he'd spent most of his... 'research' times in the hetero homelands, but he'd still strayed into that before-- He took a second to compose himself; unfortunately, a second was all his brain needed to let the meaning fully sink in, and suddenly his face was just as hot as before. "I just got what you were talking about--"
Jesus Christ, will he ever drop the topic? Discomfort returned to his features and he averted his gaze before looking at him again. "Yeah, uh." Wow, Lance was sure blushing. He raised both of his hands in front of him, palms towards the other paladin. "Look, if it weirds you out this much, we can like, not sleep like that anymore... I can hug you or, we don't, at all..." Or whatever, just let this go already!!
Ah, that wasn't a good expression on Keith; what's even worse are the words coming from him. "What? No! It's not--" Okay, he was definitely being too loud, reel it in boy-- "It doesn't weird me out! I'm just--- Man I'm dumb--" That last bit was said the floor again. Even he didn't expect this level of idiocy from himself. Good job, Lance. He pulled his shirt over his head in record speed before turning his eyes back to Keith with a pointed finger. "And I definitely don't want to stop cuddling."
He tilted his head in confusion. If Lance did not make much sense so far, now he surely did not make any. After a few seconds of hesitation he opened his mouth. "Why are you dumb?" he asked in his usual blunt way. "I don't understand." His eyes followed his movements and seeing the shirt hiding that amazing upper body filled him with regret. He should have made him talk more, maybe he would have forgotten to put it on if he was busy with keeping up the conversation...
"Because it was so obvious but I didn't get it--" he huffed, more at himself than anything. To think, the master of seduction, Lance McClain, didn't get why Keith was hot and bothered by a sausage between his buns. Ridiculous. "It took me way too long to figure out, I'm ashamed." He was suddenly overwhelmed by the urge to pray to the porn gods for forgiveness, but that probably wouldn't help his idiot status, so he held off. For now.
"Figure out what?!!" he asked louder than necessary, spreading his arms in frustration. He was seriously getting worked up over this whatever Lance was holding back from him. Why could not the guy just straight tell him what he missed and what - most definitely - Keith missed?!
Did the situations get switched or something? Why was Keith asking questions?! Didn't he understand his own kink?! "T-that you-... you--" How does he say this? Why is he saying this? He's blushing too much, he isn't supposed to be the one explaining! "Want to be-... held?" Nailed it.
He furrowed his eyebrows as he thought about what Lance had said. He wanted to be... held? That was it? Simply be in his arms? He got excited because he held him like that? But that kind of excitement usually came with more urges, that... "That doesn't seem to be right..." he muttered to himself. "A hug..." He paused for a few seconds, then shook his head. "Whatever, it's... Let's forget it," he waved with his hand, then turned on his heels and headed to the door. What Lance had 'understood' made even less sense than what he thought before. This was just strange, simply strange, it did not worth talking about.
Right, of course Keith wouldn't get that, what was he thinking-- He slumped a little, but before the red paladin could turn around, Lance grabbed one of his wrists. If he's gonna make him say it then he'll-... he'll say it-- "It's not a hug--!" Alright, here we go, he can say it-- "Well, I mean-- it kind of is? But also, it's not-" That's not saying it, Lance, come on-- Never would he have guessed that one day he'd be explaining this to someone, yet here he is; red faced and stuttering. He's gonna die. "It's-- it's like what straight people do but, you know-..." He nodded his head backwards, even though he knew that wasn't very helpful. "F-from the back--"
He listened in silence, focusing all his attention on the blue paladin's words. Whatever it was, it was difficult to say, so he did not want to miss it when he finally sput it out. However, when he did, Keith did not understand it at first. He blinked at him dumbfounded. How would they do what straight people did if he did not have a - a girl's part? Just where would... Holy shit. "Holy shit," he repeated out loud, his face setting ablaze in less than a second. He was... He was getting excited because of - he pursed his lips as his imagination did some eager freelance work and presented the situation to him. His free hand pressed hard against his mouth and nose as a weak try to hide his scorching face. Just the thought of Lance hovering above him with his breath on his neck and doing something... something like that... He could not even look him in the eyes, he would probably never be able to do ever again in this lifetime. His heart beated so fast he was already feeling dizzy or was he just more than ready to pass out? It would be a great excuse to leave. And to top it, Lance needed a lot of time to figure it out so he must have never thought about it before! He was truly cursed with this matter. "Alright, I got it," he whispered, almost inaudible thanks to the grip on his own face. "Got it."
Wait, did Keith... Did he really not know?! Oh God, he was so flustered, Lance felt kind of bad, but on top of the guilt, shock trickled in. Keith is a bottom and he didn't even know it-- He looked embarrassed - traumatized, even - Lance scrambled to find words to defuse the situation before one of them explodes like a blushing volcano. What would make him feel better if someone just explained gay sex to him and he realized he was into it?? Well, that situation never really came up, the internet was what told him he was into it, so he didn't need to feel better about his fluster-- Alright, okay, back up plan, sympathizing usually works, right? Right. "H-hey, dude, d-don't worry about it, it's not a big deal!-- I mean, I've also---" Maybe this wasn't the best way to go, was his blood boiling under his cheeks or something??-- "I've also-- thought about it--" Yes, definitely, he's going to die.
His tense grip dropped from his face. "You did?!" he asked with an unusually high-pitched voice. "You did, okay. Nice. Great," he nodded to himself. Maybe his luck was not that terrible after all. "Maybe it's not that... weird then," he mumbled. The more he tried to dismiss his thoughts about it, the more tangled he found himself in them. How will he ever sleep again? And the fact that the blue paladin considered it before too, the possibility that such a hint would create... "You know, we should--" he swallowed, pausing longer than necessary. Why did his throat go so dry? He really needed it now, he had to finish this sentence. "We-- should really go back." Jesus, he almost said what really was on his mind--!
Woah, seems like it worked! At the cost of his face going up like a forest fire, but it worked!! A small, relieved smile made it's way to his face; maybe this success could make up for his stupidity before, or at least, make it easier to forget. "Y-yeah, right--!" he nodded quickly, moving to pick up his jacket and slide into it. They should really consider having less late night dates, especially when they have to be up early in the morning. Though, Lance had a sinking feeling that sleep wouldn't come easy tonight - curse his overactive imagination.
He nodded too for seemingly no reason at all and left the room after Lance. The thoughts that kept him busy were a problematic case: he could not answer his own questions, but then again, he could not just ask him about them. Lance did not have to know just how clueless he was, he wanted to keep at least a little bit of dignity. That kind of determination was quickly forgotten when he saw the exit door. On its other side a silent, small street awaited them with the house a few meters away where their team was sleeping. He saw as the blue paladin was reaching for the doorknob, in an almost slow motion, oh no, he was not ready to return to reality yet-- His hand moved before his mind caught up with his own actions. He grabbed Lance's wrist and looked at his face, shit, what was he doing? Thinking about how perfect - how even more perfect - his skin was after the bath had little to do with their departure. Moreover, he was the one urging them to leave, just why could not he make up his mind?! ... "Five," he sighed in defeat and with two long steps he tried to force Lance to retreat until he had him against the door; and where he could put his hands on his shoulders to lean in close. He grasped at them as he finished his sentence. "Just five more minutes." The very same words from that morning after, that resulted in missing a breakfast and pissing off the princess, not to mention netting them a day long, rigorous training - and though Keith clearly did not notice the repetition, his eyes looked at Lance guilty; guilty of being this weak-willed and wishy-washy, but also full of adoration and amazement, with a dark shade of unmasked, instinctive want.
Just as he was about ready to reserve himself to an embarrassing and sleepless night, a hand was holding his own back from opening the door. Turning his head to glance at the knob blocker, and then up to Keith's face, he shot the other a quizzical look. There wasn't any time to ask questions, because soon enough he was sandwiched between Keith and the door - admittedly, it wasn't a bad sandwich to be in, but the reasoning behind it was no more clearer than before. Even with the smile quickly spreading across his face, he was slightly confused by the sudden turn of events. Wasn't Keith the one trying to leave in the first place? Why was he asking for five more minutes? Oh well, it's not like Lance had a problem with it, especially when he was looking at him like that. He wrapped his arms around the red paladin's waist, holding his hands together and resting them at his lower back. "Sounds good to me," he murmured, pulling Keith in a little closer to pepper a few kisses across his cheeks. Call him a sap, but moments like these are the kind that send his heart fluttering like a manic bird. He had to be careful this close to Keith, he was always on the verge of becoming an over-affectionate cat; constantly overcome with the urge to nuzzle, and kiss, and hug him so tight that his senses pick up nothing but Keith-- Apparently, he's not as careful as he should be; just as he finished the thought, he found himself buried nose deep in the crook of the other's neck, breathing in his scent like it was his first whiff of heaven. Not an inaccurate comparison, that.
He closed his eyes when he felt Lance's lips on his cheeks: he will never get tired of this, that's for sure. When the blue paladin buried his face in his neck, he dropped his right hand to his waist and placing it on the small of his back he pulled him closer. His left hand slipped between the wall and Lance, and grabbed his shoulder from behind - not only holding him but also kind of clinging onto him. This was nice. This was really nice. Even if he was on the edge with the urge of kissing, he did not force it: he could not really reach Lance's neck from there, and he did not want to move him either. He pressed his face against his hair, softly nuzzling it before simply resting his cheeks there. The more his scent filled his mind, the more peaceful it became: his breathing evened out, his posture stilled but not stiffened. He stood there like that for almost a minute before he whispered something, almost just sighing his words. "I wish you knew how great you are," he huffed with an incredulous smile on his lips. "I... I--You," he stuttered, looking for words but clearly not finding them. "You give me warm--the warmth--it's so warm," confusion took over him, apparently he himself did not really understand what he was saying. "It's so warm when I hold you," his hug tightened. What the hell he was talking about and more importantly, why? "I've never felt this before--" Okay, time to stop, now he was the one oversharing things! He will regret this tomorrow no doubt, wake up already!! This also must be terribly awkward for Lance, he did not ask for a sad bedtime story!! He did not want to hear any of this, he just stayed for a few minutes of affection, nothing more, don't ruin it. Be considerate, Keith-- "F-Forget it," he shook his head as much as he could without breaking the contact and scrunched his eyes closed. "I'm tired, just tired."
Aftermath #2
Five days.
With the princess' quintessence ritual, they somehow managed to make up for the incredible blood loss Keith's body somehow withstood, but after that he had to be put in the cryopod. His broken bones and heavily damaged skin needed at least twelve hours to repair, that extended into a day.
On the second day, they all found Coran asleep next to the capsule: it seemed he worked all night long and somehow dozed off. That time, Keith looked absolutely fine in his hibernated state, it was almost a miracle that his deformed face was as good as before, that his dislocated arm popped back to its place.
But he did not wake up.
On the third day, the mechanic consulted with the princess, but they could not figure out their next course of action. It seemed that Keith had a problem with his brain: that is, his head suffered such a heavy impact or the bleeding was so severe a part of it was damaged and their cryopod was not able to fix that. Coran ran through all the possible options it had, he knew it was able to cure even such delicate injuries... But human anatomy was after all different, their brains had such a different structure their system could not find a solution for it.
And neither Coran, nor Allura was trained in medication, save for their military training.
Meanwhile, life went on. It never stopped for one person, and Keith was no exception.
After Shiro was healed in a matter of sixteen hours and he got some sleep, the princess urged them to return to training. The atmosphere was heavy, their coordination was off and they just did not seem to connect with their lions as they did before. Their heads were full of what ifs and doubts: they did not know what was the problem with the red paladin, and they were restless, especially after seeing Shiro get released from the cryopod so soon.
Allura changed their routine and focused on close-combat. She wanted to tire them out, to somehow take off their minds of their injured teammate; but how could she do so, when she herself was having the same fears. The same fears backed up by facts that only the two Alteans knew. That they had no idea what to do: that chances are, Keith will never wake up from his dreamless sleep.
*
On day five, when everyone was on the training ground, Coran walked up to the red paladin's cryopod and opened its control panel. He was not qualified for this. He did not know Keith very well, but it hurt him to see him gone. He had to take risks, but he knew Allura would have never agreed to it...
He set the cryopod from automatic to manual—something he had never done in the entire year—and for a while, he was just looking around. There it was. It seemed to save the anatomy of its patients. Alteans, after all, was a diplomatic nation and they often healed other races. Their healing capsules saved their before and after states, with such detailed diagnosis that Coran barely made out a word of it... But he knew one thing: that Keith was healed in this device before, when he had external injuries but nothing with his head. That the cryopod might have done a full brain scan before, and with that data, it could restore its original state.
No one mentioned the night before - not like they had much of a chance. Lance had taken to holing himself up in Blue during his free time; the rest of it was spent training vigorously.
He'd abandoned any plans of presenting himself as 'okay', much like most of the team at this point. The meals were silent and short, conversations were curt and to the point, even training had only necessary communications.
Hope for Keith had dwindled substantially, no one could truthfully say they believed he would wake up anymore.
Lance felt numb. He had since he woke up; in his own bed, after a nightmare he thought he was free of. Keith was still in the pod and there was nothing anyone could do about it. They were just keeping him alive now.
By nightfall, Lance hadn't spoken much to anyone. He passed on dinner yet again, making his way straight to the healing deck, despite the empty feeling it brought him.
He passed Coran on his way - he seemed nervous, but that wasn't much of shock considering the situation.
Without thinking too much about it, Lance settled in for another night on the couch. It was considerably easier to fall asleep than usual, he didn't have much energy to keep himself awake, after all.
As his breathing leveled out and his blank stare was shrouded by heavy eyelids, he couldn't help but still hope - still dream - that when he woke up, Keith would be there too; completely fine and as moody as ever.
He should really save such thoughts for his dreams.
Half past eleven, almost midnight. A slight noise marked the opening of the solitary capsule, one too low to wake up the blue paladin sleeping nearby. A few moments later, something fell down: something bigger than any of the cryopod's parts and something that, after the painful impact on the floor, groaned with a broken voice.
"Fucking stairs—!"
He was suddenly snapped out of his dreams at the sound of a pained groan.
For a moment, Lance was confused. Was someone paying a late night visit again? His vision came into focus on the pod he'd spent many hours staring at; but something was different about it, and that something was currently on the floor. He was sure his heart stopped in his chest.
"Keith...??" His voice was hushed, the meaning behind them still not fully realized by the blue paladin.
Keith is...
He's awake!!!
Not a second later, Lance was up; stumbling straight to the source and cure of all his woes. He hadn't even noticed the stinging in his eyes, but when his hands came into contact with Keith's cheeks - turning his head to face him - the tears that spilled over made him well aware.
"Keith--!!"
The relief slammed into him like a train when he saw the eyes he'd craved from day one; a breath he'd been holding for the last five days finally found freedom, coming out as a shaky sigh as he pulled Keith close and buried his own head in the crook of his neck. His chest felt lighter as the red paladin's scent filled his senses, fluffy hair tickling his forehead. This was real...
"Holy shit--"
His voice sounded utterly wrecked, but the cheek splitting smile that enveloped his face gave it a hint of joy, along with the disbelieving laugh that followed. He was overwhelmed with the emotions he'd collected over the past few days, all suddenly crashing down on him without mercy. Frankly, if this was the price for having Keith back, he'd pay it a thousand times over.
Even though he was a sobbing, trembling mess, he held the other tighter; as tight as he could go without hurting him. Keith was awake, Lance could feel him, smell him, hear him, touch him, all the things he'd been yearning to do but couldn't--
Keith was here, in Lance's arms - probably terribly confused, maybe even annoyed at being subjected to Lance's various bodily fluids straight away - and he was alive.
After a few more deep breaths of the familiar mullet in front of him, he manage to choke out a proper sentence; spoken with every ounce of fear, relief, happiness, sadness, frustration, worry, everything he'd been feeling up until now.
"Do you have any idea how much I've missed you?"
Wait a second. Where was he, again?
He looked up, but his vision had not returned yet, seeing darkness all around him. What happened to him? He was... He was ordered to run away. And he did, he did drag his gravely injured body along the corridors. He was bleeding out. The memory of the excruciating pain pulsing in and tearing his entire body apart came crashing down on him, alongside with the crippling panic that slowly overtook his senses. His last sane thoughts were finding their way back to his mind one by one: he was trying to close his wounds, that was the reason he entered that room, and he had to hurry up, because each of his steps felt heavier than the last one.
With a sharp, terrified intake of breath, he rubbed the heel of his palm against his chest. In the end, he did not find help there, did he? There was nothing in there, he was left alone, he...
He died?
Was this... Was this death?
Dim patches of light flickered in front of his blurred sight. His body was gradually waking up from the artificial hibernation, but he was still not aware of his surroundings.
And who was that?
His brain did not register the touch on his cheeks, but his head was moved. Someone was talking to him or yelling or whispering, it all sounded so distant, and he could not make out a single word of it. Maybe there was none to begin with.
He raised his shaky hands, trying to examine the face of whoever was above him. Since Lance buried it in his shoulder, he got a good hold on it around his jawline and raised it in front of him. He traced his temples, his forehead, his nose; but even with eyes wide open he could not recognize him and his fingers were so cold he could barely move them across the blue paladin's delicate features.
However, the voice. He knew that voice.
"Lance?" asked a hoarse whisper.
It was Lance.
It was Lance!!
"Lance!!" he wanted to shout, but his sore throat muffled his word into a tiny, tense crack. With each blink the other's figure became clearer and clearer, eyes, cheeks, smile he thought he would never see again. "I'm alive... "
His voice choked with tears. It was happiness, relief and guilt: the overwhelming realization that the darkness did not take him after all, that his last felt regrets were given another chance to be erased, and that he was still here. He completely forgot about himself: he cried as he did as a small child. Teeth gritted tight, fighting an already lost battle; his shoulders quaking, glassy eyes overflowing with tears; a chest jumping and sinking in a steady, violent rhythm, and yet he was not giving out a single sound, save for a very few, high-pitched whimpering here and there.
He made it out.
Smile growing impossibly wider, he nuzzled slightly into the hands exploring his face, no doubt smearing his tears into them further. The voice calling his name was rough, hushed, and if Lance hadn't seen who it was coming from, he probably wouldn't have recognized it. Despite that, it still made his heart swell up; because no matter what, it was Keith.
"You're alive!" he cheered back, quietly - his own words coming out equally hoarse. As the paladin before him began to cry, Lance wasn't sure what to do; this was the first time he'd seen Keith cry, immediately deciding it was something he hated. It reminded him of the way his younger brother used to cry.
His hands were back at Keith's cheeks, thumbs wiping gently at the tears streaming from his eyes before another wave of glee washed over him. A laugh croaked out of his chest; he didn't know why he was laughing - this wasn't funny at all - but he was just so overjoyed, so relieved-
The thumbs had already stopped their maneuvers, and they were soon replaced by Lance's lips.
He started at the corners of his eye, kissing away any new tears that threatened to fall, moving to his temple; then his forehead; his nose; his cheeks; his jaw--
Pausing in front of his mouth, he let his heart catch up with it's stuttering beats. His own eyes were still watering, every blink sending another salty droplet tumbling down his face; but he slid his hands back into Keith's hair, running his fingers through the locks he hadn't touched in far too long, pulling him forward until their foreheads touched and he closed his eyes to let out a warm, shuddering breath.
"You're alive..." he whispered again, more to himself than to Keith.
He had to say it again, as if not announcing it would stop it from being true - he could still barely believe it was!
His knees were aching from holding him up against that hard floor, his throat was starting to hurt from choking back sobs, and tremors were still erupting throughout his body, making it harder and harder to breathe-
But Keith is alive; and that's all that mattered anymore.
The gentle kisses on his face and the fingers running through his hair soothed his crying and he eventually realized what he was doing: breaking down, in front of Lance. Unacceptable. But the way he consoled him was so adorable, so sweet, he did not mind it this time. He would be ashamed of it tomorrow. Not today's problem.
With his jaw stopping to tremble, a weak smile formed on his face. Damn it, he was so lucky to be able to meet him again... He did not want anything but keeping their foreheads locked for hours, just feeling the warmth of his skin, just feeling the fact he was against with him.
And then reality struck him again.
"Wait."
He suddenly let go of him, and tried to stand up with the same haste: his numb limbs protested, making him trip for the second time. He caught the edge of the short stairs before he could fall on his face.
"Shiro?" He cleared his throat, voice raising in panic. "Where is Shiro? Is he alright??" He looked around, but the other cryopods were all closed. He... He did not die, right? He remained alone with that monster. Keith left him alone with something they could not bring down as two, for god knows how long, because he made a grave mistake.
He should have been here, why was he the only one recovering?
"Lance?!"
Honestly, Lance was quite content to just sit there and bask in Keith's conscious presence - even if his legs were starting to tingle - so when it was suddenly taken away from him, he couldn't help but try and chase it.
He failed to stand quick enough to catch the other when he fell, but luckily, he managed to catch himself. Lance was confused about what he was talking about at first, but his eyes soon widened upon recalling the situation Keith was last awake in.
"Sh-shiro's fine! He came out the pod days ago!" He was back by Keith's side again, hesitating before placing a hand on his shoulder. "You've been in there for five days, Shiro came out on the second--"
"I-Is he..." he replied with a shaky sigh. Oh thank heavens he was safe, just the thought of him getting severely injured because of his mistakes...
His stomach growled with a loud roar, but the red paladin paid no heed to it.
"Five?"
He looked at him in disbelief. Was he... Was he in the cryopod for five whole days? Nobody was ever treated in there for so long, Coran even told them that its maximum worktime was around forty-eight hours. That meant...
That certainly meant something, but his brain was still too tired of everything that happened to him, and he could not make a logical connection between the two.
With much more careful moves, he stood up. He should have been resting, Lance knew it all too well how did it feel in the first twenty minutes after leaving the cryopod: but Keith did not want to hear a word about wasting another second with recovery. Starting with his fingers, he warmed up his muscles from hand to neck, from neck to waist and then down to feet.
Five days.
The fact that he made his team worried sick did not even cross his mind. The first few thoughts that occured to him were that he missed out on countless training sessions, that because of him they could not form Voltron and practice with him; that Lance probably had a thing or two to say to him...
Oh, right, that thing...
He wiped the remaining tears off his face. He was incredibly tired and hungry, but then again, he was afraid of what Lance will tell him once they both calmed down. Would he shout, would he yell, would he cry? He was really worked up now—to be honest, he could not imagine his feelings, he could not imagine having Lance gone for five days—maybe his tears dried for good.
But he was still guilty, and it had to be addressed sooner or later.
When Keith stood up, Lance followed him, wiping his own face on the sleeve of his pajamas with a sniffle. Gross.
He cleared his throat and sort of hovered around Keith, still worried about the stability of his legs.
"You need to eat something, you've gotta be starving." Keith may have ignored his rumbling stomach, but Lance definitely didn't.
"Come on, I'll fix you up a nice cold plate of food goo~" he grinned, though tiredly, grabbing the others elbow loosely and tugging him towards the exit. He was still pretty exhausted himself, considering he'd only had about 3 hours sleep, but taking care of Keith was his top priority.
Plus, he'd skipped enough meals to feel a few grumbles in his belly too.
"Ah, yeah." He nodded, there was no help in denying it. He went wherever Lance guided him, but he did not look at him. A single glimpse at his grin was enough to keep his thoughts and the butterflies in his stomach busy for the next half an hour. He was also quite dizzy from the crying and from the extremities his body withstood: hibernating was, to say the least, not a fun and relaxing activity.
His movement was shaky, but he did not trip nor he lost his balance a single time. He focused all his attention on putting his left foot after the right, but he did it, whatever happened to him he kept going, he kept fighting it, he kept pushing his body to its limits.
Just like he did when he was a child.
He spent the walk in silence: his head was buzzing with the images and impressions of the mission, which felt like a memory from an hour ago. His sense of time was out of the loop, he could not even say if it was day or night.
But he might have just asked it, right?
"Shouldn't you tell the others...? I mean," he turned his face away with a pinch of embarrassment. "They might be, er... Forget it."
He held a smile on his face as he led Keith towards the kitchen, walking a little slower in order to accommodate him.
His gaze kept wandering to the red paladin, hand still holding onto his elbow. He didn't want to let go.
What if letting go sent them back to the healing deck, waking up on the couch to a still unconscious Keith? The grip tightened ever so slightly.
They walked without a word, Lance trying to focus on where they were going rather than Keith's concentrated face, up until his voice pierced the silence.
"I think, uh... I think everyone's asleep right now." He turned to Keith as he spoke, heart fluttering a little upon seeing the other turn away like that.
He was sure it wasn't morning - he was way too tired to have been sleeping that long - and he couldn't hear much else other than their own footsteps and the quiet hum of the castle, so he assumed it was still late at night.
"Besides, it'd be better to eat and build up some energy first. Seeing the others will definitely involve a lot of hugs and tears, especially from Hunk. And maybe me again," he stated with a small smile, walking Keith through the door of the kitchen once they reached it. Everyone was worried sick over the past five days, and he knew they'd want to know about him waking up right away - but Keith only just woke up; that many people trying to coddle him all at once, and so soon, would probably kill him.
That, and, maybe there was a selfish part of Lance that wanted to keep Keith to himself for just a little longer.
So it was night time. He nodded.
"Maybe you?" he cocked an eyebrow with a teasing tone in his voice, but he did not start mocking him. He did not have a legit reason to do so, considering he probably cried harder than the other.
The late night dinner was mostly spent in silence: Keith did not even bother with chewing on the goo, he just forced it down in one go. After that, with a simple declaration of 'sleep,' he guided the blue paladin back to their room. Ever since he ate he regained most of his strength and walking was not a problem anymore.
He disappeared in the bathroom for ten minutes: after a quick shower, he towel-dried his hair and proceeded to brush his teeth. He was feeling alive. This was probably an ironic word to describe his state with, considering how dead he was in the past five days, but with all his senses regained and body clean and smelling nice—something that he did not really bother with before the whole pajama and shampoo thing—he was feeling good.
Putting on his red attire, he stepped out and closed the door behind him.
Alright.
Alright.
He could do this.
He had an idea ever since they went to the kitchen, but now that he was right before executing his plan, he was getting nervous. One thing he should not have been doing was thinking about it. Thinking and overthinking made everything ten times worse when it came to Lance, he just... He just had to go with the flow. Lance would stop that stream if he was heading to the wrong direction, right?
He looked at the already tucked in paladin. How much sleep did he get in the past few days, he wondered: his face was... strange. Even without the tears it seemed to be longer and paler, a shade he did not like on him. With a small sigh, he turned off the light. His entire body tensed in an instant: the darkness made his stomach flinch with fear growing inside of it, but he tightened his fists and gritted his teeth, not letting it take over him. That was not the outpost's darkness. It was their room's safe, welcoming, warm darkness. He was not in danger.
The bunk bed slightly moved, but in a way that was somehow different. Or just forgotten. At any rate, the metal frame should not have budged under Keith's weight, and Lance could soon realize it was not the frame but his mattress that shook—with one hell of a dexterous move, Keith climbed over him without touching him or moving the air around him, and crashed into his bed on the inner side.
He could not push him down from there. His plan was flawless.
Except for the lack of pillow and blanket, and that he pressed his back against the wall, afraid of touching the other.
But hey, at least his positioning was top-notch.
He stared in the direction of Lance with all his nerves on the edge, but he could not see his silhouette in this pitch black nothingness. He did not realize he withheld his breath and readied all his muscles for... For something, he did not know it either.
Man, there should have been some kind of, any kind of buzzing device in this room, Lance could probably hear his nervous and violent heartbeats.
They didn't talk much between the meal and going to bed. Lance didn't really have much to say; he was happy just seeing Keith moving again.
He looked better after eating - stronger - even though he was on the way to bed right after.
When they made it to Keith's room, Lance was straight under the sheets. He'd done all the bed time preparations he had the energy for the first time he went to sleep, so he didn't bother with repeating them now.
Despite being able to hear the water running in the shower, he couldn't take his gaze away from the bathroom door. He was so tired before, but he knew there was no hope for him falling asleep when Keith wasn't in his direct line of sight.
Jesus, was he clingy or what?
He rolled over onto his right side, eyes still trained on the same spot. Keith slept on the top bunk, too. How was he going to be reassured he was there without, like, x-ray vision or something?? What if he did get to sleep, but woke up with the same nightmares as before? Lance would have to keep getting out of bed to check on him... What if Keith saw him, though? He'd definitely get weirded out. Maybe he should ask Keith to sleep with him...
No. There's no way. He would never agree to something like that; the guy wouldn't even hold his hand--
Still, the sinking feeling in Lance's chest suggested maybe it wouldn't be so bad to ask. He just-...
He just didn't want to wake up alone again...
Just as the lump in his throat began forming once more, the door he'd been watching intently swished open. Keith stepped out in his familiar red pajamas, and Lance never thought he'd be so happy to see a pair of cat themed night clothes on someone's body.
Turning his head away slightly, his gaze followed Keith sneakily around the room; right until he switched off the light and they were both shrouded in darkness. He chewed anxiously on his bottom lip; he should ask him now.
Before the words could come out, Lance felt an unusual weight on the other side of his mattress. Did Keith just...??
He flipped himself over in the bed - even though it was too dark to see anything anyway - and couldn't help the disbelieving grin that consumed him when his hand felt the dip of the mattress in front of him over the blanket.
"You not gonna get cold?" he asked quietly, tugging gently on the sheets currently stuck under the red paladin's body. Part of him honestly just wanted to pull the other to his chest and hold him there until they fell asleep; but another part of him said he shouldn't push his luck like that.
"A cold? I was hibernated for five days, are you... I mean."
Way to go, Keith.
He means, yeah, he was shivering-there must have been something up with the heating system-but saying a straight 'yes' to this question would result in...
Damn it...
He lifted up his body with his forearms and feet, letting go of the sheet stuck under him. Okay, he had to get under it now. No big deal. Except that Lance's whispering was still echoing in his ears.
He crawled closer inch by inch until his hand bumped into something, his chest? He froze. What was the matter with him? He was the one wanting to hold him close before he drifted into sleep, why was he hesitating now? Just the very thought of being in the same bed as him was unbelievable. Maybe he did overstep. Maybe...
Maybe in these times, he should just rely on Lance's experience. Yeah. Even if it required him to humiliate himself with such awkward questions.
"I want to... hug you but, how."
His hand fumbled on his arm for a while, trying to figure out the 'how', before he slid it up to his shoulder. Wait, was he caressing him just now? On a second thought, he did not need the blanket, his face could warm up his entire body.
He felt so stupid...
"W-We're lying and so--"
He chuckled a little at Keith's mistake, helping to lift the quilt up so he could slide under it easier.
Lance heard and felt the rustling of the sheets as the other shuffled closer, worrying for a second that the hand that hit his chest would be able to feel the intensity of his heartbeat. The question that followed - accompanied by the fingers gliding up his arm - did nothing to slow it down.
"H-hold on, let me just--" He shifted so that the arm he was lying on was bent, and his hand was positioned under the pillow. Moving forward a little, he took Keith's elbow and brought it down to his own waist, wrapping his free arm over the top of it and around so his palm pressed against Keith's back. He pulled him a fraction closer; enough that he could bury his face in the top of his hair, letting out a satisfied sigh.
"Is this-... Is this okay?" he whispered again into the mullet in front of him. His face was burning up, just like the rest of him, but the heat was a welcomed one; a complete contrast from the ice cold nights he'd spent alone.
Having the other this close both soothed his every nerve and set them all ablaze, the only thing he could do about it was take deep inhale of Keith's scent; like it was the last breath of fresh air amongst a cloud of poison gas.
He would have given an arm and a leg for night vision, just what was he doing? The moment Lance took his elbow, it almost went limp: the blue paladin could move it freely around, Keith did not hold it back with a single muscle.
He squirmed left and right, trying to get into a comfortable position. His right hand was either below him or between them, it annoyed him to no end. Ah well, he could live with—
That sigh tickling his hair: it froze his entire body, followed by a dizzying heat wave. Dear lord, he was short compared to him. He did not only feel stupid but like a child, too. 'No, it's just how he positioned himself.' he nodded these thoughts away. He must have been lying in a higher position. Simple. He should not get competitive over their heights (at least, not now), just what was wrong with him?
He absent-mindedly grasped wherever his hand was—oh, a waist. Nice. He could not complain: his old bed was now entirely Lance-scented, and he had the real one hugging him, too. It was warm under the blanket, a huge contrast with the coldness he carried up until the kitchen and the pillow was comfy, comfier than he remembered. Lance's—albeit not entirely calm—breathing and his hand on the back soothed him. In a way...
He lay almost entirely still, and for the question no reply came. His fingers fluttered on his waist, for his hand was still shaking a bit, but save for his rising and sinking chest, he did not move, nor said anything. Had he fallen asleep already?
His head dropped a little.
"No," he mumbled after a minute or two. "I'm tempted to," his right hand's index finger traced the 'V' shape of the blue paladin's shirt, and drew a small circle on the collarbones above. "Kiss this part." He tapped it twice. "I can't sleep."
'I'm a handful.'
"How about—lift your head," he warned him before he accidentally hit his chin with his movement. He turned around in his hug, careful to not to shake him off, and pressed his back and waist against him. This way, he could extend one of his arms, while his right took Lance's hand. He was not only acting more familiar with him, but he was also holding hands: his experience must have been traumatic or the heavens had finally listened to Lance's pleads. Either way, he squeezed his hand a little and buried his face in the pillow.
"I regret all my decisions," he groaned.
Lance's thighs were in a disturbingly perfect level.
Lance didn't worry much at not receiving a reply, assuming that there wasn't a problem to be voiced. As he tried to get his breathing in order despite the hand on his waist, his eye lids started drooping, feeling the rise and fall of Keith's back through his palm lull him into a peaceful state.
He was close to drifting off to sleep, but when Keith spoke again - finger tracing his collarbones - he snapped out of it pretty soon.
"O-oh--" he breathed out, mourning for his previous efforts of calming down.
Doing as he was told, Lance regretfully pulled his face from it's spot amongst Keith's hair, arm lifting up too as he felt the other flipping over on the bed. Once he was settled, he lowered it again, more than pleased with this new level of closeness; the hand holding his sent a giddy buzz throughout his body.
He let out a hushed laugh at Keith's lamenting, displaying no mercy as he snuggled back into the mullet in front of him.
"Never thought you'd go for the little spoon~" he teased, holding him a little tighter, running his thumb over the knuckles of the hand in his own. A special kind of relaxation washed over him; though his heart was still racing at the proximity, every movement he felt of Keith's chest spread a new wave of calm rippling through him.
Keith is safe. Keith is alive.
Aftermath #1
Another morning of waking up after Keith. How early did that guy even get up? Lance wouldn't have even noticed if it weren't for the familiar red cat pajamas scattered across the floor. Lazy hands rubbed at his eyes to wipe away the grogginess of the morning.
Despite no one being there to hear it, Lance let out a dramatic sigh, throwing his quilt to the side and stiffly getting out of bed, stretching out his long limbs as he went. He spared a glance to the little blue clock he'd introduced to the room; 6:47 am PST (Pidge Standard Time), he should have time for some morning pampering, breakfast didn't start until seven.
Easily stepping over the mess on the floor, he made his way towards the bathroom. A quick release of the bladder, washing of the hands, and brushing of the teeth later, and Lance was ready to start his routine.
It was shorter than his night one - mostly just the essentials - starting with washing his face and patting it dry.
After a successful face wash, he began his hunt for the cleanser. His many bottles and tubs were in even more disarray than usual; as he picked out the bottle he was searching for, he couldn't help the smile that overtook him at the memory these products held. He never did get to experience the results; he'd have to sneak a feel the next time he got Keith alone...
He finished up in no time and without issue, fond grin present throughout. Upon getting changed, he was finally ready to face the day, leaving the bedroom and making his way to the mess hall.
Just as he reached the doorway, Pidge and Allura appeared to be on their way out.
"Hey, what's goin' on?" He stopped in front of the table they'd just cleared away. Breakfast shouldn't be over for a while yet, was his clock wrong or something?
"We're heading to the control room to keep watch over Shiro and Keith's mission, we were just getting some food first." It was Pidge that answered, but her reply only sparked more questions.
"Wait, mission?"
Before he could get an explanation, Hunk entered the room with a loud yawn.
"Mornin' guys. Have Keith and Shiro already left for their mission?" Hunk's words came out with ease, as if this was common knowledge. What the heck were they talking about?
"Yeah, they did, we're going to the control room now." Pidge responded, again. Allura seemed to be the only one to notice Lance's confused expression, prompting one of her own.
"Alright, I'm gonna grab some breakfast, I'll join you in a bit."
"Sure thing."
This casual conversation wasn't helping him at all. His hands raised to halt any exits, stepping directly into Pidge's field of view.
"Woah, okay, hold the phone, Keith and Shiro went on a mission?? When was this?"
Everyone had matching looks now; but no one was feeling as clueless as Lance, that's for sure.
"Not long ago," Allura said, her tone suggesting she had no idea why Lance was so shocked. "Didn't... Shiro tell you? Last night?"
"Uh, no??"
"Oh! Right!" Hunk cut his way in, lifting his finger along with his realization. "He told me and Pidge after the bot fighting thing. You disappeared somewhere with Keith; didn't he tell you?"
If the deepening furrow of his brows was anything to go by, it would be safe to assume he hadn't.
"Uh... D-don't worry about it, dude! He probably just forgot to bring it up--" The yellow paladin held his hands up in defense, as if to block out any notion of Keith purposefully hiding this from him. It didn't work.
"That is strange though... This is one of the biggest military bases we've ever tried to infiltrate, I imagine it would be hard to forget about it..." the princess mused, hand to her chin, earning her a defeated stare from Hunk that only begged the question of 'why, princess?'.
A fair look to give, considering her words did nothing but fuel the upset that was essentially setting Lance's good mood on fire and watching it burn. A well balanced mixture of fear, worry, and anger brewed slowly in the blue paladin's chest as his thoughts took over.
This was a dangerous mission.
This was a dangerous mission; and Keith hid it from him the entire time they were together.
One of the last things they did was argue; Lance was already worried about the barriers Keith kept building, and then he goes and hides something like this?
As if sensing the steam about to burst from her teammates ears, Pidge promptly ended the silence.
"A-anyway-- the point is; they're on a mission now, and we're going to the control room to keep updated. You coming?" she offered, already knowing the answer.
"Yeah, I'm coming," he spoke sharply, but the younger paladin knew the edge wasn't directed at her. It was interesting though; why was Lance so troubled by this?
"Shouldn't you eat something first?" The careful voice of a befuddled Altean joined in once more.
"I'm not hungry. I'll eat later, it's fine, let's just go." Lance just waved her concerns away. He wanted to hurry up and see the status of the mission already; the one that just had to be hidden from him according to Keith.
"I'll catch up with you guys, I am hungry." Hunk was already grabbing a bowl to fill with the questionable food goo.
"You're always hungry." Pidge snorted, guiding her two companions on their trip to the control room.
"All the more reason not to skip breakfast!~"
With a collective amused huff and exchanging tired waves, the trio were out the door and on their way to join Coran a few rooms down. Lance's amusement, however, didn't last very long.
Why didn't he tell him? He had so many opportunities, why did he keep it a secret? What was the point? Was this why he was so eager to make up after the food thing? He must have been genuinely worried about the mission if he was ready to apologize so soon...
It was understandable; Lance had seen the size of the base before, when they started orbiting it. It was huge; probably crammed full of sentries and soldiers alike. Hell, he wouldn't be surprised if there were a few Druids hanging around either...
God, he hoped Keith was okay.
He better be okay.
They made it to the control room in a matter of minutes.
"Hey Coran, anything new to report?" Pidge asked, strolling up behind the ginger Altean to get a glimpse at the screen in front of him.
"Not yet..." He spun around slightly - mostly with the intentions of talking to the princess - spotting Lance close behind them with a less than jolly look on his face. "Oh! Good morning, Lance!"
"Mornin'..." the blue paladin grumbled, still lost in thought and glaring at the floor.
"They've only been gone about 15 minutes or so, this is a larger base than usual; so let's give them some time to work through it."
Pidge hummed in acceptance and Allura offered a nod. They usually took a little while to get back to them on the smaller missions; it was no surprise their feedback was delayed further on one as big as this...
Half an hour passed by without a single report.
Hunk joined the rest of the team shortly after finishing his meal; he and Pidge started up a conversation about various improvements they have done and could do to their lions, whilst Allura and Coran were discussing the status of the castles functions over by the control panel. Lance spent most of the thirty minutes brooding in a chair, restlessly bouncing his leg up and down, trying to stop the silence fueling his distress.
That became impossible when Coran's ping received no response.
"I'm going to get them." He stood, not waiting for a reply, already in autopilot to get to the hangars.
"I'm coming with you." Pidge, seemingly just as done with waiting as Lance, began following close behind, Hunk soon joining them with a determined nod.
The paladins didn't hang around for Allura's confirmation; they didn't need to. She knew just as well that if the Galra knew about the castle's presence, they no doubt knew of the two people roaming around their base as well.
They raced to the lion in record time, not wasting even a second before bursting out of the hangar doors and flying straight for the Galra base.
As memories of the night before buzzed through his head, Lance could only push harder on Blue's controls. That was the first time Lance had kissed Keith; he refused to let it be the last.
"We're at war?? I can be gone tomorrow, you know that too."
You better fucking not be, mullet.
The moment the monster's gun fired, the whole building fell into darkness.
With no windows whatsoever, the establishment without electricity was as good as a hole in the ground. The two paladins did not expect it hitting the power generator room and since the beast did not need vision to track them down, it gained the upper hand out of it.
"Keith, jump right!" shouted Shiro, as soon as he heard the abomination leaping torwards his teammate.
The red paladin did not think twice before following orders. Missing his target, the creature's huge body slammed into the wall, tearing it down and tumbling into the room nearby. The blast accompanying it threw Keith off balance, but as soon as his shoulder hit the floor, he sprung up and was on his feet again. Whatever pain he had before, he closed it up in the back of his mind, paying no heed to the growing warnings of his muscles slowly giving in.
Both of them turned on their helmet's flashlights and looked at the mutant. With a few staggering movement, it stood up and spun around, facing Shiro this time.
'This is it,' Keith thought.
'When it falls over, it's vulnerable.'
His heart throbbed against his ribs violently. He was almost paralyzed by the barely seen terror in front of them: there was no Red this time to take the damage instead of him, there was no back-up fire to aid his reckless offenses and there was clearly no team to make up for his mistakes should he have made one.
But 'gaining time' was not an option anymore. Who knew if the others tried to contact them in two minutes or in twenty: Shiro was shouldering most of this fight since Keith was injured, and he could not last much longer. They had to take this down.
He lowered his bayard behind his back, trying to suppress the shaking of his whole arm. One hit. He only had to land one, precise hit on a vital area and they both could go back to the castle.
Shiro lowered the center of his gravity, and once the monster took off, he threw himself over a broken pillar, his landing followed by an agile tumble.
The very same moment, Keith darted out and after a few steps, he leaped at the chimera.
The black paladin's eyes widened in surprise. Keith bounced away from the dog-back and with a roar as great as the creature's was, he stabbed the back of the mantis-head.
The power of his jump was so great his hands sunk into its body up to his wrists. Warm, blue blood pooled up around his skin and spouted from the wound in a great deal. Keith had pierced a thousand Galra soldiers before, but the unmistakable sound and the repulsive smell of stabbing a living creature always made him retch with disgust.
The loud, sickening noise of the skull cracking was suppressed by a bone-chilling shriek; the beast shook so fiercely, Keith had to hold onto his weapon with both hands to stay on top of it.
"Why don't you die?!" he yelled, with a mixture of anger and panic in his voice. He squeezed his knees together to get a hold on the mantis and with all his force, he twisted the blade inside of it.
With a sudden jerk, the abomination bent forward, shooting the paladin off its head. The bayard, losing contact with its wearer, deactivated itself and fell to the ground with a loud clank.
Keith crashed into a door and dropped to his face. Shiro dashed to him, but he came to a halt when the monster almost stepped on him in its faltering dance. It not only survived, but it did not look severely damaged either: the blood dripping from his head was coursing down on its spine only for a few seconds, before it healed; and even after that, it did not interfere with its movement.
'The brain...' Keith pushed himself up. 'The brain isn't in his head.'
The last thing he saw when he looked up was an enormous body towering above him, and standing on its rear feet, it swung a paw at him.
He could hear a shout. Maybe it was his name, maybe it was yet another order, he did not understand.
The blow sent him flying, but he only realized that when he was facing the floor. He thought it rolled him over, but he could not smell the beast anymore, nor did he see anything with his flashlight broken. He must have distanced himself from it.
A thousand sharp pain jabbed him in the face. The claws melted into his flesh with such ease as if they just dripped into water; with his helmet's visor crushed, its shards shattered his cheeks into a web of wounds, something alike to a broken mirror. His burnt stomach and his hardly breathing chest were ripped open, with a few chunks of armour hanging here and there, a sorry reminder of what they had failed to do.
All the locked up agony ran loose. He screamed. He screamed so loud and so long his throat went sore and his voice eventually broke. His stomach churned and heaved viciously: he pressed his mouth against his forearm to stop it, already gagging on the metallic taste of his own blood.
'I'm go—'
Keith!
'I'm going to—'
Keith, get away!
'Get away.'
A distant echo rang in his ears, Shiro's voice. The ground shook: the monster moved again. The red paladin stood up, panting so heavily he could barely stay on his feet. He saw a small, white point getting further and further away. What was that, he wondered. Was it important? Should he chase it? No, he had an order, he had to get away.
He did not understand that Shiro was luring away the mutant from him, he only knew what he was told. His body felt incredibly heavy, he could barely drag himself along the pitch black corridors, but he knew he had to.
'Stay conscious. Stay conscious. Stay conscious.' He kept repeating it.
'Don't panic. Panicking. More blood loss. Deep breaths.'
Even with a complete silence settling around him, he did not realize when the two combatants got out of earshot. His head buzzed so loudly he could not hear his own footsteps.
'Deep... breaths...'
He repeated stubbornly, but his breathing slowly turned into whimpering, tears building up in his eyes.
'It hurts.'
He grabbed his scorched shoulder.
"It hurts!" he cried out loud. He bumped into a wall—and a door's opening button, that worked one last time—and he leaned against it, sobbing.
"I don't want to die."
'Don't panic.'
"I'm going to die!" he sobbed. His shoulders shook violently, his entire body trembled at the signs of inevitable death. He was getting slower and slower, his muscles tense and strain. His head was hurting with a pulsing, stretching pain, craving for blood. There was no one to help him. The last person he had ran away to save himself.
But one last time, he defied the thought of giving up.
"Not like this..."
He staggered into the room, groping his way through an unseen canteen. After a few steps he threw off his helmet, gasping for air. He had to help himself. He had to find something, he had to close his wounds, he had to stop the bleeding. He had to... He had to live, he could not die on this mission, not on this one. His entire life was worthless, he did not want to end it in such an insignificant way.
He had to stay to make a difference.
He still had so much on his hands. Entire galaxies were waiting to be set free from the Galra, he still had to become good enough to take out Zarkon, he had to keep proving himself in front of Red to gain access to all of her weapons, he still had so many things to tell Lance...
"Lance—"
Panic took over all his senses at once, and his crying became uncontrollable.
"Lance..."
The picnic's warm air, the weight of Lance’s body on top of his, his hug, he could feel them all. His soft skin nuzzling against his face, his sweet laughter wiping out his worries, his soothing scent putting him at ease; how Lance cared for him like no one before, how he reached out to him again and again even if he pushed him away, and his honest words he never replied to...
'I'm so sorry—'
There was no more chances to repay his kindness.
'I'm so sorry...’
‘Please forgive me—'
He was so tired he tumbled over a chair and a table, but he could not feel the pain of falling on the floor anymore. Deep inside he knew he had to fight this fatigue, that once he dozed off there would be no wake up from this sleep, but he did not have the strength to help himself anymore. It was the end of the road.
The throbbing pain in his ears muted his panting and whimpering. He suddenly found his eight-years old self in his living room, standing in front of the all-too-familiar cupboard.
Mom, dad. He started his speech whenever he looked at their photo after he came home from school. He squeezed the cheap copper frame in his tiny, bruised hands and pressed his lips together. I want to die.
The paladin closed his burning eyes, his chest finally slowing down to a calm rhythm. All the pain slowly faded out, lulling his mind into peace.
But I'm afraid.
The base was heavily guarded, fully equipped with firepower and ammunition with plenty of soldiers and sentries alike to defend from both the ground and sky.
After spending too long trying to deplete the surplus of fighter jets that were buzzing around like flies with guns; they located a likely place for their teammates to be hiding, spotting a tall cloud of smoke rising from a hole in the central building's wall. Hunk managed to mark their positions without a hitch, Lance went in with no mercy to the structures wellbeing and paying no heed to the many shots being fired his way.
Crashing through the ceiling, Lance was met with another experiment - concocted by the Druids, no doubt. It was smaller than ones they had fought before; without a lion to defend them, it was no surprise that the black and red paladins went through such a struggle.
Even Lance was having a hard time grappling with the dog-mantis-centaur hybrid with added firearms, but with Blue's freezing power and raw strength, he managed to take it down in a matter of minutes.
Once he was sure it was dead, Lance hurried out of his lion to tend to a beaten down Shiro.
"Shiro! Are you--"
He was cut off by a heavy hand on his shoulder, his leader dismissing those worries in favour of something more urgent.
"I'm fine, just--" he had to pause, helplessly trying to breathe the pain out of his weary body-- "get Keith."
Lance didn't need to be told twice.
He had Hunk in his ear giving him vague instructions on where to go; leaving Shiro with a quick 'Wait here!', Lance made his way down the unlit corridors on foot.
Despite the absence of light, he could still discern the absolute mess that was left behind. It seemed like his comrades had put up a fight, based on the chunks of fur and blue blood scattering the place; but most of it was rubble and claw marks with a few missed shots here and there.
"Alright... Go ahead.... Keep going.... Go right... Keep going..."
He followed Hunk directions carefully, bayard activated and ready should he bump into any enemies. He was thankful for his friend's instructions; if he were alone in this, there'd be no hope of him finding Keith in this maze of a pitch-black battlefield.
His eyes were wandering over the walls and doorways - trying to observe the environment around him with only the faint light of his helmet to barely illuminate the details - until a quiet splash sounded under his foot.
Looking down, he adjusted his eyes to fully comprehend the liquid he'd stepped in.
Blood. It was blood...
His stomach dropped.
Keith....
He moved faster, caution thrown to the wind. He had to find Keith.
The further he went, the more his anxieties built up in the pit of his stomach; he was holding them back pretty well, all until his foot hit a broken off shoulder plate.
A red one.
His pace doubled, racing down the trail of red, long since tuning out the instructions from his yellow teammate.
The only thing that paused his quick movements was the sight of a deactivated bayard; drenched in the monsters blue blood and abandoned on the floor.
After picking it up and clipping it to his belt, Lance couldn't fend off all the fears finally coming to the forefront of his thoughts. He desperately tried to ignore the possibility of the worst case scenario, but by the time he reached the end of the blood line that seemed to continue under a door - it was becoming near impossible.
Judging by the lack of lights, the power was out - the door wouldn't open without it. He didn't think twice before blasting a hole through the purple metal, immediately rushing through with a hurried perimeter check.
"Keith?"
No reply.
It was hard to see with only his helmets flashlight to outline the mess of a room, but from what he could make out, it looked to be some sort of canteen.
There was a small kitchen, and to the right of it; a collection of chairs an tables, currently in utter chaos. Amidst the knocked over furniture, Lance caught sight of a familiar form, unmoving in his bed of alien seating.
He practically fell to his knees beside Keith the moment he saw him. The red paladin's helmet was beside him, the banged up appearance only intensifying the foreboding feeling shooting up Lance's spine.
Under the subtle luminescence of his visor, he could already see Keith was covered in still bleeding wounds; however, the thing that stopped his heart in it's tracks was the image he was greeted with upon rolling his teammate over.
The sight alone was enough to twist his stomach in the most painful of ways; but the added smell of burning flesh - Keith's burning flesh - forced him to turn away in order to suck in a deep, calming breath, intending to quell the knots forming in the pits of his abdomen.
His face was gruesomely torn, clawed away by the mutant Lance had killed moments ago; the material of his suit melded with the now shockingly pale skin on his left shoulder and stomach, emitting a stench that nearly had Lance heaving; blood was still pooling around them, seeping into the skintight fabric covering Lance's knees--
He hadn't even noticed his own laboured breathing until the inhale cut it short. Shit, he was panicking.
Continuing his deep breaths, his eyes scrunched tightly closed. He couldn't do this right now, he had to get Keith out of here and back to the castle. Keith was currently bleeding to death; he didn't have time to be freaking out--
Another deep breath.
Calm down, calm down, calm down, calm down, calm down--
The sounds of his troubled teammates were coming back into focus. Without wasting another second, he gently lifted Keith into his arms. (Or at least, as gently as you could when it felt like your bones were trying to shake their way out of your body.)
"Keith's injured," he spoke quickly over the commotion in the comms, the dry tightness in his throat making it difficult, "I'm taking him to Blue now. Coran, get a healing pod ready."
His curt yet quivering tone only enhanced the worried questions coming from his fellow paladins, the speakers in his helmet filling with their too loud voices. He didn't answer. He couldn't answer. The only response he registered was Coran's acknowledgment and Allura's plan to wormholing out. As he shot down the unlit hallways, past the wreckage, over the rubble and straight to his lion, his mind zeroed in on one thing only; get Keith to a pod.
It didn't take long for him to finally reach Blue. Nearby, Shiro was barely standing, clearly waiting for Lance to get return. The poor guy looked exhausted; probably felt it too. Choosing to ignore the guilty wince the black paladin aimed at the body in his arms, Lance nodded his head towards the lion in an order to follow, climbing into her already open mouth himself.
Once they were all seated - Shiro more slumped against a wall and Keith propped up carefully in Lance's lap - Blue immediately roared to life. Before he could even reach for the controls, she was already moving; leaping out of the lion-made hole they'd come through and shooting directly to the castle. It was like she knew what her paladin wanted to do - needed to do - allowing him to focus mostly on shooting away the swarms of fighter jets trying to give chase.
His shots weren't as accurate as they could have been, he was maneuvering one handed after all - holding the red paladin still in his arms with the other - but luckily for him, his team still had his back.
They'd long since given up trying to talk to him, the lack of replies proving it to be pointless, but the green lion was still helping to clear a path to the castle whilst the yellow lion shielded them from various attacks.
Lance wanted to thank them, tell them that everything was fine, that they were doing a good job... But the words wouldn't come to him. His throat was clogged up with the still potent stench of Keith's burning flesh; his head was still spinning with the fear and worry for the teammate he was trying to save; stomach still churning at the memory of Keith's mangled face, the one he'd refused to look down at since.
He couldn't do anything but fly.
"We're at war?? I can be gone tomorrow, you know that too."
There they were again, those words ringing loud through his jumble of thoughts. The straight expression he'd been keeping up faltered, eyebrows furrowing further as he swallowed down the growing lump.
They reached the castle hangers just in time for Allura to open a wormhole for their escape. The second Blue was powered down, Lance was out of there; Keith still cradled tightly in his arms. They were starting to ache.
He was greeted with Coran, whom he absently informed of Shiro's status, leaving him the task of carrying the black paladin.
It was all kind of a blur, he spent most of the run to the healing pods in a sort of focused daze. He had a goal in mind, one that took priority over everything and anything. There was no time to answer all the questions; Keith was bleeding out, blood was leaving a trail wherever they stood, Lance was covered in it--
He was stopped before he could reach the place he so desperately needed to go, held back by the familiar grip of his best friend as his hold on the red paladin was removed.
He'd almost fought it - tried to get him back - but the shrouding of his senses let up long enough to understand the explanation Hunk was trying to give him.
The daze didn't end when he watched Allura perform the quintessence ritual to account for blood loss. It didn't end when his teammates were finally put into the healing pods without a definite idea of how well it would work. It didn't end when everyone sat down for an eerily quiet meal, all too shaken by the days events to strike up a cheery conversation. It didn't even end when he went to bed; laying awake for hours just staring up at the top bunk Keith should have been sleeping in too.
It ended when the exhaustion finally took over; when recalling the day couldn't keep his eyes wide open with nausea and fear anymore.
He drifted off into a heavy sleep, worries for the morning still weighing on his mind.
Keith would be okay.
He had to be.
He woke up in a cold sweat - again - eyes wide and breathing rushed. It was the third nightmare that night.
Always the same thing, too. The memory of Keith's appearance on the ship always coming back to haunt him. Various scenarios would play out in front of him; Lance getting there just a second too late, but right on time to watch the creature he was supposed to have killed tear Keith apart; getting so close to the castle of lions, but having Keith die in his arms before they could reach the pod; making it to the pod just fine, only to find out there's nothing they could do, Keith dying inside it while Lance slept soundly in his bed.
He felt sick. Every time he closed his eyes he saw the ripped flesh of Keith's face, his stomach dropped and twisted, as if it was being wrung out like a wet towel.
Eventually, he gave up on the prospect of a peaceful sleep, opting to just get up already. No matter how tired he felt, this lassitude was better than dreaming.
It was still early, everyone should be asleep at this point. He stood from the bed - Keith's bed, Keith's room - and slipped into his casual clothes; the armour was still covered in blood, after all. He wasn't ready to face that yet.
Slinking out of the room - choosing to skip his morning routine since it wasn't even morning - he soundlessly wandered to the hangars.
Although she wasn't lit up, Lance still felt like Blue had been waiting for him. Once he reached the base of her paw, he slid down the cool metal until he was sitting on the floor.
"Hey, Blue... Mind if I sit here?"
He didn't need to ask, he knew that; but the friendly purr that resonated within him helped soothe the tightness in his chest. He was glad he came to her instead of sitting in the empty room all night, or going to bother Hunk.
There was no need to hide from Blue - he couldn't hide from her. She aided in calming the raging worries and regrets that were drowning his mind. Although she couldn't wipe the tears from his face, the playful comforting she provided was more than enough for him.
Lance stayed with her until he had to leave for breakfast; he couldn't skip out and worry his team, after all. Still, the smile was easier to wear after a good feelings jam with his robot lion space ship. It didn't ease the weight in his chest, though.
Shiro woke up after only sixteen hours in the pod.
Coran stayed up late into the night tending to the healing paladins... But only Shiro woke up.
Keith looked as good as new; his face was healed without a trace of the horrors that had befallen it, and all his bones were popped back into place perfectly. He looked completely fine.
But he wasn't awake.
"Lance, do you think I'll ever become as a good fighter as Shiro?"
Once again, Keith's words echoed through his head.
He'd answered almost immediately, not even understanding the reason for the question. It didn't make sense to him; for someone as great and talented as Keith to be comparing himself to Shiro. They were both great fighters, after all; each with their own specialties and strengths.
But now that he really thought about it, knowing what would happen next, he could see why he would.
"Even I can have insecurities, can't I?"
Lance couldn't tell if it was really Keith's insecurities talking, or the nervousness from the mission to come. Either way, when Keith woke up, he was gonna find out just how valuable he is; whether he can beat Shiro in a fist fight or not.
Despite already running on a less than ample amount of sleep, Lance still couldn't find the will to close his eyes and let the drowsiness take him. He'd been tossing and turning for at least an hour now, the silence of the room filling him with unease but his music doing nothing to soothe it.
He was restless.
They hadn't been able to do much training - most of the day was spent taking care of their newly awoken leader and tending to the still sleeping teammate - and any that they tried to do only ended in failure, so they eventually gave up. Maybe the lack of exercise could be contributing to the list of reasons Lance couldn't sleep.
He only visited Keith once; when Shiro was still healing. It was silly, really - like he was avoiding it. He probably was. He couldn't be sure he wouldn't act weird around him, in a way that the others wouldn't notice. This thing between them was supposed to be a secret, after all.
The thought brought about a pathetic laugh.
A secret...
That was why he couldn't even go to his best friend to seek comfort, wasn't it? Having to resort to crying by his lion companion for any sense of support. While Blue was great company, at times like this, few things could console better than one of Hunks hugs.
As he stared, once again, at the empty bunk above him - thoughts running wild and centered on nothing but Keith - he had an idea.
The quilt he'd been clutching was thrown to the side, body sitting up sharply and sliding off the bed, Lance grabbed the unused blanket from the top bunk and practically sprinted to the healing deck.
In contrast to his fast movements beforehand, Lance stepped quietly into the room; the only sound he made being a sharp intake of breath.
Keith was there, still sleeping soundly in the illuminated crypod. Just as before, he looked completely healed; so why wasn't he waking up?
Lance knew it had only been a day or so, and Keith's injuries were very severe; but Shiro woke up ages ago, it just didn't make sense--
What if something was wrong with the pod? What if there was something that happened to Keith that it just couldn't fix? What if it was malfunctioning and the other couldn't get out? What if-....
What if he never woke up?
He could feel the trembling in his jaw start up. Before those thoughts could take over again, Lance wandered over to the community couch they'd installed and laid down, quilt held close to his body as he shifted to get comfortable. The scent of Keith clung to the sheets, surrounding him in faux comfort that an absent person was there with him. It was probably weird, that just a smell could calm his nerves so much, but Lance wasn't about to complain.
The couch faced the pods, just far enough away for the emitting light not to reach, but close enough that Lance could still clearly see the inhabitant's peaceful features.
Now that he thought about it, he'd never seen Keith's sleeping face before; he always slept too late to catch a glimpse. In any other situation, he probably would have enjoyed seeing him in that state of complete relaxation; but right now, he wanted nothing more than for him to break out of it already.
Still, he couldn't help but trace every detail of the others boys face with his eyes, as if trying to overwrite the image that haunted him since a day ago.
Keith really was beautiful...
He didn't know how long he spent just staring at the paladin before him; he couldn't bring himself to look away. He had to commit every last attribute to memory - even if it was at distance like this.
Somewhere along the line, Lance's eyelids grew heavy; the quiet humming of the pod at work and Keith's tranquil exterior lulling him into an undisturbed, dreamless slumber.
He'd still be there in the morning.
Whether that was a good or bad thing, he didn't know.
Slumping heavily onto the couch in their space lounge, Lance landed face first into the cushions with a heavy sigh.
Today was exhausting.
They collectively decided to train with the princess' encouragement; even though it was the weekend, which they usually used for team bonding and relaxation. Allura had concocted a new regimen over night, since the normal plan didn't seem to work out; this one was more focused on close-combat.
It was almost as if she designed it to thoroughly tucker them out; and it worked. Lance could hardly feel anything over his muscles screaming under his skin. Maybe he was just in worse shape than he first thought; Keith did say he never trained enough...
Aaaand his mind was back on Keith. For a few blissful moments, he'd managed to drown out that jumble of emotions; but all good things had to come to an end, apparently. Speaking of good things...
He mentally backtracked to his last night with Keith before the mission, - something he seemed to be doing that a lot lately - memories of the evening they'd spent together started flooding in once more.
As he rolled over on the couch, trying to ignore the aching in his entire body, a small smile dusted across his lips; one of the first real ones in what felt like forever.
Their time at the picnic had been so serene; he still remembered Keith's face as he sat down and basked in the atmosphere of the secret garden, the image succeeding in jostling the butterflies in his stomach all over again.
He remembered how happy he was, how much fun he had, despite Keith's lackluster response to his totally awesome surprise. It was nice... They even fed each other like some cheesy couple in a cliche movie! A hue of pink painted his cheeks.
That was the first time he'd kissed Keith...
Suddenly, the tightness in his chest became unbearable.
He missed him. He missed Keith. He missed his stupid mullet and ugly jacket; he missed his social ineptitude and awkward fumblings; missed his laugh that was a better melody than any song Lance had ever heard; missed his inexperienced but eager kisses that never failed to leave his heart pounding and knees weak; missed watching him flush at Lance's frankly sub par attempts at flirting; missed his gorgeous god damn eyes that he just wants to see open again---
Luckily for Lance, none of his other teammates were around to witness the rise and fall of his mood. Blinking away the stinging in his eyes, Lance made a hasty exit out of the common room and straight to the hangars.
He needed Blue.
The feat of falling asleep that night was proving harder than the last; however, it didn't seem as impossible as it had in that room.
His idea of a sleepover in the healing deck turned out to be a good one, and he was almost on the brink of dreamless oblivion when he was brought back to full alert by a figure entering the room.
Through the darkness, Shiro's back appeared in front of the light of Keith's cryopod. He didn't notice Lance laying stiff and still behind him, that much was clear.
Lance was confused at first; what was Shiro doing here so late at night?
That question was soon answered when he finally noticed the trembling of the older man's shoulders.
His human hand reached up to touch the glass, quickly turning into a fist as the robotic one wiped away at his tears. The subtle weeps grew louder; it sounded like he was mumbling something to the sleeping paladin, but Lance couldn't bring himself to listen in.
He was having a breakdown--
The blue paladin soon realized he was holding his breath for all it was worth. He wanted so badly to comfort their leader - maybe even join him - but he knew it was better if Shiro didn't know he'd seen him like this, all things considered.
So he suffered through it. Suffered through his teammates suffering; in silence, because god knows he deserved a moment to cry to his hearts content.
Lance laid there, eyes screwed shut, trying to block out the sobs echoing quietly through the room in an attempt to give the man some privacy in his woes.
Eventually, the weeping stopped.
He didn't know when, but he knew they did.
Shiro didn't leave for a little while after, but even with the presence of their broken leader lingering in the room, Lance somehow managed to drift off to sleep.
Heart heavier than ever.
Breakfast was spent almost entirely in silence.
It had been four days since Shiro and Keith returned from the mission, and the latter one was in a cryopod ever since. His injuries were severe, and he was already unconscious when they retrieved him. Not even Altean technology was able to heal everything in an instant, Coran said, it needed time. He did not mention why it took so long, but at one of the practices, Pidge dropped a hint: that Keith might have suffered a blow on his head, and restoring one's brain must have been a delicate process, even with such equipment.
If not impossible. But nobody dared to say that.
It was Lance's turn to clean up after everyone, but in the middle of washing dishes, he had an idea. He knew this feeling very well: it was not his own idea, but one planted in his mind. It did not come in a friendly, purring way, as Blue communicated with him: it was a proud, compelling roar, a voice so assertive it was impossible to ignore.
[Come to me]
In less than twenty minutes, Lance reached Red's hangar. He did not have the chance to ask him any questions, as the lion stood up by itself and swallowed him. It was probably the first time Lance ever sat in his chair, but he did not get a welcome nor any kind of further instructions. The lion booted up his systems in silence.
The control panels had the same distribution as Blue's, yet everything seemed to be vastly different. The information being displayed was much more extensive than Lance was used to: from regular distance, altitude and other status reports, there was a Beaufort scale, a hygrometer, graphs, all kinds of calculations ongoing. They did not clutter the screen, instead of being there at once, they switched each other's places in a dizzying speed. Lance saw numbers and symbols rolling from the corner of his eyes, even the health and basic information of the other lions; there were data in a one hundred and eighty degrees in front of him everywhere. It was impossible to understand everything that was happening there.
And normally, the biggest difference was the colour. Instead of his own lion's soothing sea blue or Hunk's childishly giddy yellow, everything was painted in a fierce crimson. This kind of red was not the colour of tender feelings, such as love or passion. No, it was the shade of blood, determination and rage, all powerful impressions molded into a weapon, a tool that was entirely out of control under Lance's shaking hands.
[A link with you] [It is a desire so deep] [But his fear is even deeper]
[Watch him carefully]
The cockpit was suddenly engulfed in darkness. Something was out of place, though: he could see his entire body from head to toe, but his chair was nowhere to be found. After he stood up, he could not touch it anymore, neither anything that was around him a few moments earlier. The smell of metal, the low, mechanical buzzing, and the cozy, warm air were all gone and were replaced by an untouchable, invisible silence. An abyss more frightening than his worst nightmares, yet one that had nothing in it but him, and so he was perfectly safe.
The scent of old books. Dust. A soft rug under his feet.
A stuffy, gloomy room appeared around him object by object. An old couch with bookshelves on both sides, a coffee table and a CRT TV behind it. A small chandelier hung above him with a few missing light bulbs. There were some parts that were blurred out, such as some small items on a cupboard or the hands of the wall clock: their absence was only striking when one searched for them consciously.
It was a beautiful, sunny day outside, but the thick curtains made sure it stayed there. When Lance opened them, sunshine streamed in, yet he could not feel its warmth. Why was it so empty, it was strange: but once he thought so, he could feel the change. Everything was back to normal. Now it was warm.
What was this place?
This is where he lived, the reply came as soon as he asked the question. He?
He had no time to look around. A door in the distance opened, startling him.
“Keith!” A middle-aged woman’s voice. Lance could not hide before she stepped in. She was around forty, well-dressed, though undoubtedly rural. She had a kind face, a neat, almost elegant braid, and eyes so lively as if she was still in her teens.
She stared at Lance for a second, but she did not give any reaction to his presence. She glanced around, then turned on her heels and walked away.
Was Lance invisible? And where was Keith? He decided to follow Mrs. Collingwood. How did he know her name? The more he thought about her, the more he knew. She lived in the neighbouring house, which was five minutes on foot from here. She, alongside with her husband were always very busy, having two workplaces at once, and they were the most beloved people in this small village, but they had no child...
Enough, he stopped. This was nonsense, was he making up everything? Was he writing a story?
“Keith?” she asked again, dragging Lance back to what was happening around him. They stopped in front of a door, a very ominous one: it was made of wood, just like everything in there, but it had scratches from dogs or cats, and cuts and breaks, as if someone was trying to get in, or worse, get out...
Mrs. Collingwood, however, paid no heed to such frightening thoughts. She knocked on the door, but since she received no answer, she slowly opened it.
A garbage dump.
That was the most accurate first impression of his bedroom. From notebooks to cans and dirty clothes, there was not a free spot on the floor or on the bed. The shutters were tightly closed, but since they were broken, enough light flew in to illuminate the room.
"You don't like to clean up, do you?" she asked with a smile and walked to the bed. She grasped the edge of the blanket and gently pulled it down. She chuckled. "Keith, you smell."
"Don't smell me, then," he grunted.
His tone was so different. It was high-pitched and weak, and jumpy. He was still before or during the voice change... Since Lance was practically invisible to them, he stepped closer and looked at him. He had the mullet. Of course he had the mullet, some things never changed. But he was much younger, his prominent features were yet to take shape, and his eyes were so big, he almost looked girlish. He could not examine his face more, because he buried it in his pillow.
'I hated this,' Lance heard his words inside his head. 'I was sick of this place. I wanted to go away, but I didn’t know where. I wish I wasn’t here. Or anywhere... But then she always turned up.’
Were these... Keith’s memories?
"The school called you?"
"Yes and no," she answered in a rather honest way. "I wanted to visit you anyways, and then I was called this morning that you're absent."
"Mhm."
Silence set in. Mrs. Collingwood let out a small, but not a bothered sigh. She stepped away from the bed and bent down to pick up a notebook. Flipping through the pages she chuckled again with her shoulders shaking.
"Are you bored of school?"
"Very."
"Keith, we want to give you something. Me and Ben, that is."
'My birthday was still so far away.'
"Why?"
"To motivate you."
"You're giving me stuff when I ditch school. You're the worst parent ever."
'It hurt her. I should've apologized.'
Mrs. Collingwood's face was yet again blurry. Lance could not read her expression.
"On the eleventh of April. If you go to school every day and ace your tests, you'll get it."
"Acing my tests? Wasn't it a gift?!"
"What, didn't you say you were bored?" she teased him.
Keith turned on his back and looked at her. The woman's features suddenly became very clear.
"Is it food?" He squinted at her.
She made a zipping movement in front of her mouth.
"My lips are sealed."
Keith grunted. "Fine!"
They suddenly changed places. Lance was in a school he had never seen before. The classroom was full of young children chattering and laughing, and everything was unusually clean, something that was impossible to imagine in a city school... The room had huge windows and there was not a single cloud on the sky. The air was fresh and had the scent of the flowers next to him.
But Lance had the solid impression of hating to be there.
“Good morning!!”
It was a girl, no, it was Aly, Lance just had to think about her name and he got it in an instant. Eleven years old. She had been clinging to Keith for two years. She was always cheerful and optimistic, but shy and easily frightened. Whenever she saw him, she stopped doing whatever she was busy with and walked up to him.
‘How annoying.’
Yet she was the only one who could have disturbed his solitude.
“I’m so happy you’re here!” she tilted her head with a smile so sweet, Lance immediately knew what she thought of him. Unlike Keith, it seemed.
“I was here yesterday, too.” he mumbled in indifference, and sat down at his desk.
“I’m happy whenever you come to school!”
“Why don’t you just confess to him?” asked a boy nearby, startling her. She blushed down to her neck.
“W-What...”
"What, don’t do that,” joined in another one. “This guy’s a junk. Hey guys, listen!” he looked around to get the attention of the whole class. “Did you know Kogane doesn’t even have parents?” he laughed, and his group did so too. “Not even they wanted him! How lame! Telling us he had a family! Hahah!”
“Really...?” Aly looked at him in utter disbelief.
‘How did they know?’
Keith did not pay attention neither to the girl, nor him being bullied. He rested his face in his palm and looked at his notebook. ‘I had to do well on the tests.’
Despite his thoughts and actions, Lance had a very tight feeling in his chest. He was found out. He was being ridiculed for his made-up stories about his family, about his afternoons with his brothers and his younger sister he never had, about places they had never visited. And his parents were being badmouthed too... But he deserved this, did not he, since he was lying in the first place.
His feelings were so intense it was hardly understandable for the blue paladin. He wanted to get out of the room and to run away: but he did not know where to. He knew he did not belong to here, he did not even belong to his own house, but he did not know better than to go to school and then leave school, eat once a day, to tire out his body with self-made workouts so he would not have the energy to feel anything, to shower when he was feeling itchy, and to study, study, study...
His foster parents got money after him as long as he was in education, and in turn he was given some allowance—money he did not spend well and so he never had enough to eat. But so many years passed by living like this, survival became his second nature.
He hated it. But he was too young to know better.
“Yeah, Aly, just look at his clothes, he must be a homeless!”
“And he’s always so dirty.” Now even the girls were upon them.
“Just imagine his socks!“
“What imagine, we smell it in the changing room.“
“Ew!“
“He doesn’t even have a phone!”
“What?”
“Really?”
A widespread laughter broke out.
‘Four more minutes until class.’
“Hey, Kogane, are you deaf?”
Picking on him was half as much entertaining with him not giving any reaction. Lance knew it was not the first time, and it would not be the last: and so Keith must have learnt to cope with it. At least on the surface.
“He’s too cool to reply to us,” snickered the boy who revealed his secret. “Aly, you shouldn’t be talking with him.”
“I-I...”
“Yeah, do you want to be this lame too? Look at this liar. Liar and coward!”
He grabbed Keith’s hair and pulled him up from his seat.
It hurt. It hurt so much even Lance felt it on his head.
Aly was trying to say something, but she was too afraid to do anything. She stepped back, shaking.
“Let me go,” said Keith, and glared at his attacker.
“Why're you so cocky all the time, huh? Do you think you’re better than us? The teacher isn’t here, you wim—”
A punch in the face. It was not a ten-years-old’s blow.
Lance could feel the cracking of bones on his fingers: the nose. The boy tripped over the seat behind him and hit his head on the next desk so hard he fainted.
Keith got suspended for a week.
Time passed and eleventh of April came. Lance could not see clear memories of this day, he only had impressions. It was the first time Keith rode a speeder bike, and he did it very well. A wave of incredible freedom washed through the blue paladin: it was light and yet overwhelming, something he never really had before, but now it was in an excess. Excitement and curiosity mixed with boldness, and even if he was afraid, it only fueled him more. This sensation made him go and do and look forward to and live—
It was Keith’s way of feeling happiness.
Parenting was indeed not the strong point of the Collingwoods, because they left the bike at his house, without any kind of supervision. They only told him to never go faster than the maximum speed they agreed on, and to always wear the helmet they gave him: and then he would be allowed to use it whenever he wanted.
And even if Keith was not visited by them for weeks, he loved it so much he never broke these rules.
Second of July. A school yard in such a lush green it was almost a garden.
"Hey, Aly,” Keith addressed her, not even looking up from his book. “Do you like me?”
“W-W-What??”
He swung his feet, since they did not touch the ground.
“The confession thing. Do you want to do it?”
“No!!”
“Because I don’t like you,” he said and glanced at her.
‘She looked sad, but I didn’t understand why.’
“T-That’s okay,” she gulped, trying to hold back her tears. She took a shaky breath and forced a smile on her face. “W-What are you reading?”
“It’s a guide book about the Garrison. I want to be a pilot. A fighter pilot.”
“Oh!” Her smile widened. “Then I’ll be a cargo pilot!”
“What?” he looked at her in disbelief. “Why a cargo pilot?”
‘And how did she know about these things?’
“Because cargo pilots took care of fighter pilots!”
“Just where did you hear that from...”
“Well, they carry things, don’t they? They must carry food, too! Maybe cakes!”
“Aly, th-there are...” he turned his face away. “There are no cakes in... space...”
“You smiled!!!” She jumped off the bench and ran around to face him. He further turned away.
“No!”
“You did!! You totally did! I saw it!!”
Her laughter echoed in his mind as the scene faded away.
This was the last time they met.
[Blue paladin are you still with me]
Lance was back in the pitch-black darkness, with Red in his head.
[Humans don't connect like we do] [A huge flaw . . .]
[Is this helpful?]
Lance stumbled out of the red lion's mouth with more on his mind than someone so tired should ever have.
It was overwhelming. He wasn't sure what he was supposed to do with this newfound information. The only thing he could feel was frustration.
Frustration at the Collingwood's for their abysmal parenting; at the petty brats that made up Keith's classmates; at the fact he had to learn the rules of survival by the age of ten; at the Galra for indirectly putting him in a crypod coma for 4 days straight; at the universe itself for dealing Keith such a hand of crap that was worlds less than he was worth---
Pain consumed all feeling in his left fist as it came into fierce contact with an unfortunate storage box in his path. His breaths were shaky and deep; while the initial rage simmered down, he nursed his injured hand by his chest with a hiss. He started on the path to the training deck; maybe punching a few robots will make help him cool off.
Keith deserved so much better than this. Better than sitting around in an alien doctor pod after getting scratched up by some Druid's shitty fursona. Better than being bullied by a bunch of coddled kids who don't know the meaning of the word 'struggle'. Better than an asshole like Lance treating him like shit for an entire year because he couldn't accept that he was gay for someone so much better than him--
He was practically vibrating. Lance was too tired, too exhausted to handle this kind of information in this kind of situation. He was so angry, and he knew it was pointless to be but-- Fuck-
He deserved better. Lance wanted to give him better.
But he couldn't.
Because he wouldn't fucking wake up.
Just wake up, Keith!
Wake up.
Please...
Lance couldn't get out of the mood he swan dived into.
Even the others had picked up on it eventually; probably when a particularly bad mistake of his ended in the failure of the whole team during the turret exercise. The princess commented on it, and Lance's unusually snappy response shocked everyone. He apologized almost immediately, Allura waved it off just as quickly - but no one missed the hurt expression that flashed across her face when he'd said it.
They'd tried to comfort him - even though they weren't entirely sure what was wrong - but it must have been hard considering they were dealing with troubles of their own.
He was just so... tired.
He didn't know what had sent him plummeting like this; maybe it was what Red told him, or maybe it was witnessing their leader breakdown the night before - or it could be the weight of these emotions that have built up over the past few days pulling him down. Maybe it was all of the above.
Either way; he was exhausted, sad, and frustrated. All he wanted was to see Keith awake again, every hour he spent in the pod was beginning to take a toll on everyone.
After his seventh loss against the fighter bot and skipping dinner, Lance went to the first place he was drawn to -- the healing deck. That was where he was, after all.
He stood in front of the cryopod, just staring at the resting person in front of him in his slumber. With a worn out smile, he noted that Keith was taller than him like this. He'd like that.
Keith...
Four days. He'd been in this pod for four days. It felt like longer, but considering he was only meant to be in it for twelve hours, this was like an eternity.
He watched the closed, pale lids that curtained the sparkling eyes he yearned to see again; something he'd picked up during the nights he spent sleeping on the nearby couch. There was a nagging worry he'd never get to see them again, that he'd have to rely on faded memories to appreciate them.
It wasn't fair.
Keith had already spent half of their relationship unconscious. They'd only confessed to each other last week. There was still so many things he wanted to do - to say - but every minute that passed added extra weight to the heart in his chest.
This shouldn't be happening. Keith should be fine, he looked fine! So why wasn't he waking up already?!
He lifted a trembling hand and pressed it gently against the glass in front of him. It was cold. He bet if he could touch the sleeping body behind it, it would be just as freezing.
Taking a deep, shaky breath, he balled his fits and bit his lip.
Their picnic date; it was the first date they'd been on. Lance didn't even know that would be the last night before Keith's mission. If he had, he would have done something way better - sweeter. Something that wouldn't have ended in a petty argument and Lance running away like some shitty soap opera.
He would've taken him stargazing, on a peaceful planet they'd fly to in their lions. Keith would probably spout some sass about them already being in space and constantly surrounded by stars, but Lance would pull out a blanket and make him look at all the constellations anyway. He'd bring Pidge's laptop and play whatever romantic music she's got stored in there (he knows she's a closet a closet Frank Sinatra fan), along with a basket of food that wasn't weirdly flavoured cakes he found in Hunks snack stash. He'd have kissed Keith like he did in the garden; under a thousand stars shining brightly, but the only lights he'd see would be the ones twinkling in Keith's shimmering eyes.
As the hot tears finally started spilling, he slid down the glass until his knees hit the floor. His throat strained with the effort of holding back his cries, diluting them to weak whimpers while his heart twisted along with his stomach. Every muscle in his body was tightening, he began curling in on himself until the trembling in his shoulders spread throughout. He could barely breathe, he felt sick. He wanted Keith back - needed Keith back - the burning desire to hear his stupid voice again setting fire to any shred of composure he had left.
His keens grew louder; before he knew it, he was already choking out begged promises.
"Fuck, Keith-- Please man, I'll-- fuck-- I swear I'll never insult your mullet again, I'll stop calling you cute even though you hate it, I'll let you eat whatever you want off the floor, I'll stop starting pointless arguments just to rile you up, I wont ask you anything you don't want to tell me, God--- I'll do anything Keith, just--" The words caught in his throat as another sob wracked his body, his voice became pathetic. "Please, just wake up..."
Of course, it all fell on deaf ears. He continued to kneel in front of the cursed cryopod, caving in to the wails he was holding back. It was pitiful, he became a bawling mess, his laments echoed through the halls; no doubt disturbing the other inhabitant's quiet night.
He didn't have the capacity to care at this point, all cognitive thought drowned in his own sorrows.
Through his tear blurred vision, Lance recognized the yellow clad shoulder his face was being buried in as Hunk; muffling the croaked begging spilling from his mouth as a warm hand stroked through his hair.
A sight he held dear was burned into his imagination, never once letting himself think of anything else; Keith, shoulders dropped and completely relaxed, outlined by the serenity of their secret garden, a soft light illuminating the perfection of his features.
Keith's eyes were closed then too, he recalled, but he wished they weren't; maybe then he could have studied them as thoroughly as he did everything else.
Lance fell asleep with that image on his mind, cradled in the comforting arms of his best friend while the violent sobs mellowed out into tired whimpers. With one last hushed plead under his breath, he was gone.
Please wake up.
ℒ Pulling them into a hall/alley to kiss them passionately. (i'm sorry i'm gay)
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❝Lance?!!❞ Keith growled, irritable that they’d just been walking a ways behind everybody in the dense alien city. It probably wasn’t very smart to allow the possibility of them getting split up, and his less than sweet expression showed what he thought about it. Still, there was a concern that Lance had something on his mind that couldn’t be said in front of anyone else.❝What are you doing? We have to stay togeth–❞ His words were muffled against Lance’s tongue, which had apparently invited itself in to explore his mouth without hesitation. There was a fight in Keith, really, there was! However, his half-hearted shoves and reasoning became blurred, amethyst eyes softening until they closed. Gloved hands violently grabbed for the sides of Lance’s stupid, baggy jacket and pulled the blue paladin flush up against himself, using the momentum to pull them back until he was sandwiched between his adorable fool of a boyfriend and the wall of a building. Then again, Keith realized he– himself– was also a fool for encouraging this, rolling his chin to match these affections with vigor.





