doing a Health Overhaul atm and feeling so #grateful I'm somehow in a mental place and community/financial spot where I can afford, know how to, and actually engage with my body enough to plug into quality non-NHS healthcare. was able to push through my lifelong needle phobia to do acupuncture and it's helping my pain/sleep/fatigue so much?? everything I'm doing is low-cost community care and I'm friends with/organise with so many ppl connected to the clinics I'm accessing? been so not-dissociated I've been able to do little workouts? I feel supported enough by the other shit my medical traumatised ass has rallied for another round of referrals with the GP?? who am I!
also just the contrast yday of playing nice tran 4D chess for a tense transactional 20 min of making my new GP feel like ally of the year for continuing my decade-old T prescription VS immediately after heading to my herbalist's living room for a 90 min chat about my body over a bowl of banging chana masala + bread I baked for her before making plans to smoke weed together on Friday. lmao.
