the place has been still new to her, even though she has been introduced to a few things already, so far. what she's noticed is that they have a syste going around, she has to, but wonder, how long it will last for them. she has bad experiences written all over her, as big and smart the group seems, she's worried, if they'll get to see the next sunrise. sometimes it feels as if she was the spirit of the bad things that go down, the cause of everything. every time she goes somewhere, things fall apart. maybe she shouldn't overthink it so fast, enjoy her stay and be more glad that aj has a proper roof to sleep under tonight, real meal to enjoy and a boy his age to relate to. ‘ i just know how fast these things can go to shit, that's all. ’ she justifies, eyes on the other for a second. ‘ i've been to groups before, it's always nice and good, until life takes advantage of it again and then the second you look away... you're on your own. you're alone. ’