#boondork

[askhornedheadapollo]

I dont think ema come to kill you, polly. But, if she come im here to protect you ( ' v')99 BTW, sometime you miss someone or something?

///Thankfully Maya channels him from time to time to make Apollo feels better.

[flosnix]

art trade with @boondork ♡

this is many days overdue but thank you hope for being the wonderful and most dedicated you <3 you asked for a piece with you and i in a place i wanted us to be... sooo, here is us hanging out drawing under a beautiful blue sky !!

[circusdaddydin]

just nonsense mumbles keep scrolling

sometimes i just get these thoughts that i’m just being used and no one actually cares much about me...well it’s not completely true honestly, there are some people who cares, but like, they have their own shit going on and i feel like i’m annoying them if wanna talk, like they keep telling me it’s fine, but in reality it’s not i can tell that they’re annoyed and they don’t want to hear anything from me, it really hurt to bottle up things,I sometimes explode in the wrong time and fuck shit up.

i really hate it, I’ve tried writing down what i feel and draw, it worked at first, but then..it doesn’t work anymore, it’s getting harder for me, I’ve also tried to sleep to numb the pain, but it’s not working anymore,I’ve reached the point where i even tear up without even realizing it, it just happens, even if i didn’t talk I just cry all of the sudden, i’m really exhausted, i’ve tried to stay positive, I kept telling myself that i’m fine but i’m just tired and i need to sleep,and yet when I try to sleep i just can’t my body starts to hurt me so bad, and i can’t sleep because of it, i’m so tired sometimes i stay up for like more than three days in a row, even pain killer pills doesn’t work on me no more, also i can’t seek medication cuz of family issues, and shit...sometimes i just want to end my life..I get suicidal thoughts all the time...but i try my best to shake them off....i don’t have goals, i don’t have anything to do, i feel pointless and useless, unwanted, and i feel so exhausted, it hurts everything , my body, my head, my stomach, everything, i don’t know what to think, or what to say, i don’t have much words to speak, i don’t know what to do...i feel hopeless...ironically...gosh i need to end this mess somehow.  

[dincircusdaddy]

AT w/ someone on IG

[dincircusdaddy]

@leonisu Glowing hair ~ this just inspired me couldn’t resist lol i hope you like it!!~~ 

[dincircusdaddy]

So today i had a real shitty day so i took a nap then when i woke up I found out that @leonisu nii DREW ME WITH HIM!! AND WHAT HE WROTE I’M IN TEARS ILYSM BIG BRO!!! YER THE BEST!! ////also miss talking to you ;-;

[circusdaddydin]

 Tagged by @grumpy-pepsi thank buddy 

Rules:

You can tell a lot about a person by the music they listen to. Put your mp3 player, itunes, spotify, etc. on shuffle and list the first 10 songs and then tag 10 people. No skipping!

1- Panic! at the disco - this is gospel.

2- Nicki minaj - the night is still young.

3- Boy in a band ft Cry - Limelight.

4- Panic! at the disco - Emperor’s new clothes. 

5- BTS - Fun boys.

6- Kradness - Magician Operation.

7- Blackbear - IDFC.

8- Starset - My demons.

9- Nano - Rock on.

10- Gdragon - Coup d’etat.

Tag : @sentinelmutt, @rionisu , @spade-kun, @straight-outta-nohr , @bakabedo , @noan28 , @chibi-kuma-chan , @setoblr , @himellu , @ap0llx

[dincircusdaddy]

Blank... Beauty