wolfstar - i need you (part 3)
Sirius increased his footsteps to the point where he was already jogging at this point. Marlene's words kept ringing in his ears. "Meet me or you'll never see your furry friend again," she whispered, words laced with venom. He hated himself, more than ever, for delaying his dinner with Remus. Sirius promised to make it up to him as soon as he went back.
"Siri, I didn't expect you to actually come," her voice surprised Sirius as he was so deep in thought about Remus's face and their upcoming dat- uh dinner. "Listen, Marley, I have NO interest in you whatsoever. And this is NOT Mean Girls!" Sirius argued, exasperated. "What's Mean Girls?" "Oh, uhh, it's a muggle show. TECHNICALLY, my point is that the days of hating one another is over. I don't love you, I don't see you that way!"
"But why Remus? Amongst everyone in this entire world, who fall at your feet, you fall for a twat! He buries his face in books all the time, is quiet all the time and practically erases himself off the surface of Hogwarts! He never supports any of the light-hearted pranks you and James conjure. And look at his face! It's horrifying! There's already so many scratches on his face, imagine his body! He's a freak! He's a freak, Sirius!"
That was it. Marlene had enough to say. With that he practically felt a growl in his chest as he took menacing steps towards her. "Why Remus? Because I don't want just anyone who falls at my feet. I want Remus because he makes me work for what I want. Him. He buries his face in books all the time because he likes reading and studying. He knows how to embrace knowledge and that's one of the infinite reasons I admire him. You feel like he's quiet and that he's a no one but you're wrong! You don't see him like I do. His eyes light up when he calls my name. He blushes when someone praises him. He jokes as much as the rest of us do. I see all of him! His talk, his walk, his voice, his smile, his everything! He doesn't support dangerous pranks of ours because he cares for us and doesn't want us in detention all the time. All of us have scars but some of us have them on the inside. And Remus sees them. I don't want to imagine his body because I want him to show it to me one day and be confident of it. He may be a freak to you but not to me, because I see the battles he has to fight. I feel like I've seen everything of Remus but I want more! I want to be a bigger part of his life. Not just for this stupid ball! For the rest of my life, even after my last breath, I want to see more of Remus. Know what he's feeling every minute of the day. If you don't let me tell him how I feel, I'll never get to see all these. Everything that I want with him will always be a dream. I need him, I love him, want him, and I'll do anything and everything for him!" At this point, Sirius's voice was hoarse with tears spilling from his eyes, as years of words that he has always wanted to tell Remus flow out and he can't stop them.
There was a moment of silence, Sirius's heavy breathing the only sound between the two as tears continued to roll down his cheeks. "What if he doesn't feel the same Sirius?" Marlene asks, tears prickling her eyes as they grew more red and puffy. "Then I'll stay by his side, forever, so that he knows, it's okay. He still has his Sirius. His Paddy will always be with him, even if it's not the way I wanted it to be," Sirius whispered out the last words as he slid to his knees, hands covering his face and he sobbed silently.
He heard Marlene's footsteps walk away from him, and he stayed in that position, too overwhelmed by the possibility of Remus rejecting him to move. He then felt warm fingers trail up his hands to remove them from his face. Sirius looked up with red puffy eyes and saw what he would call the living embodiment of beauty and grace. Remus was knelt opposite Sirius, his both hands cradling Sirius's face, with Sirius's hands on Remus's, both their foreheads leaning against each other.
"I heard that Paddy. And it was music to my ears. I've never found the courage to say it to you. For years now, I've wanted to actually. But I was scared, scared you'd leave me. I love you Sirius," Remus gently told Sirius as he wiped the tears from Sirius's eyes. Remus then stood up and gestured Sirius to take his hand. Sirius did so and stood up so that he was looking down at Remus, both their hands intertwined with one another.
Remus leaned in slowly, slowly and Sirius did the same, not wanting to scare Moony away. They were probably inches apart before Remus whispered, eyes lidded with lust and love at the same time, his breath tickling Sirius's lips, "I've actually never done this before, so lead the way Paddy." And with that Sirius crashed their lips. Remus's lips moved beautifully against Sirius's own; like they were dancing with each other. Remus bit gently onto Sirius's lower lip, asking for permission, to which Sirius allowed, by opening his mouth more and slipping his tongue in Remus's, exploring each crook and crevice, owning it; marking it as his own.
When they ran out of air and pulled away, there was just two teenage boys standing in the garden at 11pm in the night, who just kissed the love of their life, each other. Sirius's hand was at the small of his beloved's back and one caressing Remus's cheeks. One of Remus's hands were on Sirius's chest, the other tangled in Sirius's black hair. Sirius kissed down his lover's neck and whispered, just loud enough for both of them to hear, against his adam apple.
"I love you too Paddy," Remus replied lovingly, pressing a kiss to his forehead. "I'm sorry about out pinky promise by the way. Can we still have dinner?" Remus chuckled and led them to their dorm rooms.
I guess you can say that all ended well and they had a blast at the ball with a little distraction towards the end.
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