May 7, 2017
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Is it better now that I’m not around?
It blows my mind the things that still remind me of you. I turn on my PS4 and I see your face (new PS4 I have the slim now) bringing myself to play GTAV is hard. Its one of my favorite games.
There are so many things you ruined for me. I hope I ruined just as many things for you otherwise its not fair.
Birthday
Two of the best birthdays I've ever had were spent with you. I spent all day wishing you would say something the way you did last year but I knew you weren't. Things have changed. Just..... It's hard not to miss you extra today.
I've been stuck on the Melissa channel the last couple of days....
I got so many fake goodbye kisses...
I wish that last time I saw you in July I would've known. I would've gotten a real one. Fuck. I miss you.
Confessions
For a while I had been thinking about keeping your text thread. I text you always, daily, (even though I’m 99% sure you blocked me) and you never respond. Every time I send the text I always delete the conversation just so I don’t have to look at it. But for the last few days Ive thought about keeping it so I wouldn’t lose the messages (my iPad isn’t getting them for some reason). I thought about just creating a contact so I don’t have to look at the plain number all the time when I open my messages. Today I finally did it.
2:42AM
I wept tonight. I remembered what it felt like when you would kiss me eyes and I've never wanted anything more.
Not talking to you has been one of the hardest things I've done.