sorry in advance
Dewdrop loves being wanted, even if it’s unhealthy. Loves when others want him. Even if all they do is fuck him and leave. At least they came to him.
It’s been a long day and Alpha has pent up issues.
It was a hectic and busy day at the infirmary and Aether needs an outlet.
Their latest ritual was a whirlwind and Perpetua didn’t have time to properly unwind.
He loves that they come to him, even if he’s often left unfulfilled.
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Worm anon get out (PLEASE DONT) he is me I am he love some BPD!Dewdrop using sex as the only way to cope with his loneliness :(( this is probably a bit jumpy I'm literally just forcing myself onto Dew as usual. He's my favourite guy to torture x
It becomes routine. Dew would work in the ministry all day, freshen up and wait in his room for whoever needed a warm body without any responsibility of affection.
He's good at it too, knows just how to move, to moan at the right moment. He learns each one of their little ticks, how Alpha likes when Dew digs his nail into his back hard enough to leave marks, how Perpetua likes when Dew leaves marks that aren't visible to anyone else. He gets no real pleasure from it, maybe he can try to pretend that these ghouls want him and not his body, can pretend their growls and praise are truly meant and not just for their sake to get off.
He knows he's beautiful, knows how everyone looks at him with lust and he basks in the attention, he can almost pretend that they look at him with genuine love and affection and not just lust. But after whoever it is that evening leaves, he's alone and sore and it makes his guts churn as he struggles to clean himself up knowing the others weren't as isolated as him.
It does deeply affect any potential relationships he has. Only being pursued for his looks and body, no one caring about his thoughts or feelings or opinions. His intelligence or personality don't matter to anyone, the only time he has value is when he's in bed. If he messes up during a ritual or makes a mistake in his work? He's getting drunk and letting anyone use him despite feeling so numb to it. He hates himself for it but it's the only way he can be sure he won't make a mistake and will receive praise.