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Everything has changed and so am I.

I am free.

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why can't I built a reliable relationship to anybody

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Is it normal to worry that your partner is too much busy? We don't have much quality time anymore, we just do the needs. I miss it very much and I want to talk to him about it, whenever he comes back from sport.

I love him so much, I miss him so much.

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I'm so tired. I felt better, yet these depressing thoughts are coming back into my mind, whispering the hurtful truth.

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them: what did you do all day

me: lay in bed and feel like shit

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I'm kind of on fire

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tomorrow I'll have my first appointment with a trauma psychologist.

I'm so afraid my trauma isn't valid...

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oh my god, I feel myself getting delusional again...

I walked home and there were people standing behind be or next to me and whether I try to look at them they are gone.

And there was no soul around.