The horror of individuation becomes one's negative call to spiritual awakening, a call to greatness which is actually the paradoxical call for self-dissolution. Hence the horror with which one is plagued, that contemplative horror which prescribes the death of the self as individuation's own auto-fulfilling rite of passage, is the same and the earnest horror that actually brings one closer to accessing the absolute via their own negation. In this way, one can only think the absolute through the impossible conduit of horror itself: individuation is the perplexing instrument with which horror operationalizes and through which one becomes oneself. The horror of individuation, the horror of becoming oneself by leaving one's self, then, suggests a revelatory or epiphanic nature via its own doubleness. For the real horror is always reserved for those who remain ignorant of this mystical horror, who stay themselves without ever experiencing the intensity and corollary contentment of not being, or unknowing, themselves.
Brad Baumgartner, Weird Mysticism: Philosophical Horror and the Mystical Text