#brain scraps

[tomasvalentine]

1242 / 3.22.17

I fucked up. I fucked up in the most royal way and I’ve been single ever since we broke up. I’ve been attracted to people and people to me and even got feelings very similar to being heartbroken when I got curved but it’s been whatever. I can’t date. Not officially. Not exclusively. Not seriously. I can’t. I want to be able to tell her one day that I’ve been waiting for her. For us. For the world to let our paths cross again. To meet again. In the meantime I’ll keep keeping busy the way I have these two years. It’s funny how everything I do I do in hopes of making her proud. I know she’s probably growing and succeeding and winning battles inside of her but I can’t help but hope that maybe just maybe she does anything wondering the same thing. I’m proud of you. Always.

[tomasvalentine]

haiku for cat

5.18.16 /  22:48

must she set on fire every string she threads at night with a single text

[tomasvalentine]

04.19.16 Today I realized that I don’t notice the sunsets anymore.

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absence

19:12

like a puzzle piece you fit right into my body, you make my soul whole the butterflies before never made me think i'd propose but with you i knew early on we'd elope even when i told us both i wasn't "in love" i knew you were the one and darling look at us now, there is no us now i dare not ask for you back, too early for you to figure your heart out give it time give it time i earned this pain, deserve this pain, i will give it time give it time give it time to give us a second chance

[tomasvalentine]

Letter to a Cat

15:55 Oh honey dear please don’t let this get weird Let’s keep it real, the way it’s always been See you and me we grew from the start and since last night and from now on we’ll only grow apart.

[tomasvalentine]

a kiss

8.30.15 / 23:13 it’s like breathing subconsciously i need it

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prayer

10.06.09 / ~03:00 every night i leave my window open, just a little crack kneel down to the floor, bow my head a little low unite my hands and clasp them tight in a prayer that you’ll come home tonight tuck myself in and close my eyes shut turn to a side and embrace your hologram get up, restless, i just cannot sleep, a sigh escapes my soul i walk outside, look up to the sky and sing songs to your star

[tomasvalentine]

when you

12.08.06 when you see other colors and enter other worlds you’ll forget my name and what we had before when you trespass the line and touch the unreachable stars you’ll see what’s forbidden above this putrid land when you get so high and you don’t want to come down you’ll leave me behind to fly other skies it’s then that you’ll see that your heart isn't for anyone as fragile as it was to me when you’re alone and you feel cold you’ll recall the warmth of my body pressed against yours the glow in my eyes will be no more i’m not yet dead, tho worms have eaten my bones i know you’ll come back to save my soul