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Some people with autism get funky little superpowers like Photographic Memory or Child Prodigy

And some of us just get the ability to feel utterly alone even in a crowded room

[brainwrongbutalive]

Am I thriving or is my brain about to malfunction again?

[lassieposting]

So like obviously it's becoming more and more of A Thing that disabled people are entitled to accommodations in education/the workplace but y'all know what isn't talked about enough?

People who don't fucking know what accommodations a) they need and b) are even available to them

Like I'm applying to university right now and they're asking me what they can do to support me as a disabled learner - I DONT FUCKING KNOW, FAM. I went through the entire education system undiagnosed! When I struggled, I was told I was making shit up or that "that's how it is"! My one and only option was to white-knuckle everything I found difficult, so now I have no idea what would make those things easier!

[lassieposting]

I think the worst thing about being supposedly "high-functioning" is that you can fully understand how broken you are

You know you'll never fit in anywhere. You know your traumas and illnesses make you sharp-edged and brittle and unpleasant up close, that you will only ever be loveable from a distance. You know other people feel a whole spectrum of emotions that you will never get to experience, while you trudge through life confined to only two or three. You know your coping mechanisms are bad and wrong, but they're the only way you ever get to feel anything, so you keep using them anyway. You're able to conceive of all the things you could've been, all the lives you could've had, if you were different. If you were better. If you were normal.

Is it any wonder really that we end up angry and bitter and resentful at the world? When all we ever have is the knowledge that we'll never have a decent quality of life, or feel joy, or be fallen in love with?

Fucked up enough to be consigned to a lesser existence. Functional enough to know what we should've had instead. It's bullshit and it's not worth it.

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Anyway I'm. Very tired of having to exist as a mentally ill person so if we could hurry up and revolt against the rich so I can die for something that actually matters that would be great

[lassieposting]

Does anyone else compulsively reread arguments that ended their relationships with people they cared about to like. Punish themselves or?

[lassieposting]

I hate psychology advice articles so much bc it's always like

"You need to communicate your needs and set boundaries to have healthy relationships"

Like yeah except absolutely fucking not because not once in my life has that ever felt good or not ended in the other person walking away

[lassieposting]

So like. Is it normal to cry after a trip to the hairdresser bc it's been so long since you had physical contact with another human being or am i just. You know