Happy Valentine's day, Tumblr.
I have an update re: my health.
PET scans suggests that it's not sarcoidosis, and if it is then at least the only organ that is involved is my brain. Brain MRI suggests it IS probably MS. Which is actually the best news because it's the most treatable of all the things that are potentially causing me to slowly go blind.
I have to get a lumbar puncture and a spinal MRI to confirm, and also there is a mass on my thyroid as a side-concern which needs to be ultrasounded. Everything is booked in, it's just a matter of waiting until the end of the month. Its also SO expensive but I'm lucky that I'm in a financially sound position.
So I just have to wait and try not to worry about the vision that I might not recover in the meantime. As long as I still have one normal eye I'll be able to drive and work but it's a matter of time.
So I'm kind of unmotivated and anxious and depressed and I just don't feel very engaged with anything at the moment. So I still want to be a part of the fandom communities, but probably not for a little while.
I feel hopeful that when I do get this sorted out, my creativity and energy will return a bit more to help me participate more actively. Like - not go blind is concern #1, but also, be more focused and improve memory and energy are bonuses that I didn't even consider before.