#break conformity

[c0gitoergosum13]

This is probably the 2nd most life altering decision I've made since enlisting. That's terrifying.

[for-walpoles-serendipity-blog]

STEP TWO: Relinquish the old

We all have uncontrollable habits, some more intrinsic than others, that worm their way into our very existence and infiltrate our lives to the point where we no longer govern ourselves, we are dictated to by them. I speak of 'them' as another entity because although we think we are ourselves, in some strange and tragic way we are no longer independent. Habits can be conforming to societal norms, or constantly thinking 'I'm not good enough'  and this in turn ensures that we harms ourselves in order to be the sickness that is 'normal', for we're all just trying to fit in to the point that we have forgotten how to be ourselves. But, what if we didn't have to? whoever fucking had the audacity to 'define normality' anyway? The sad truth is, 'us', we did it and we will always do it. Change trends, expect others to follow and ridicule them if they dont. So I guess I'm not sure where that leaves me. I wish I could say that I was heroic enough to defy everyones expectations...but I can't relinquish the habits, don't know how and perhaps don't want to. Its safe.  Maybe open recognition of these flaws in humanity will allow me to find the serendipity that I crave...something so different, exciting and so new that I and only I will have the ability to define myself. So in this blind journey that is life, will i fall or fly?