Reading the entire Scott Pilgrim series over the months following my first breakup is one of the most resonant experiences of my life.

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Reading the entire Scott Pilgrim series over the months following my first breakup is one of the most resonant experiences of my life.
It’s only been 4 days.
My heart is shattered.
My heart is numb.
Do I even have one anymore?
This is the kind of heartbreak that causes a person to shut the world out. Permanently. From their mind, their body, and their heart.
This is the kind of heartbreak that leaves you speechless...breathless...wandering..questioning.
You didn’t even give me a chance to tell you that I’d wait for you. I’d wait a hundred and one years for you. I would spend every single day for the next ten years snubbing any man that even looked my way, if I knew you would still be waiting for me.
I don’t understand this.
How can you tell someone you love them everyday, then one day you suddenly say you think that it’s best for your career to end it.
Does a career really end your love for someone?
If a clean break was supposed to be your way of making things easier, it didn’t.
I can’t bring myself to delete your messages...delete your number...delete your name and face from my memories...
Every time my phone lights up my heart flutters in hopes that it’s you, changing your mind...wiling to compromise...
It’s never you.
Will it ever be you?
Relationship
Sometimes you think back to the special thing you had with that person and you wonder what happened that caused everything to be over
I'm seriously breaking things off with you (again) in a Facebook message. I'm sorry, but it's not like I'm going to see you anytime soon. And to clear it up, I'm not sorry for how I feel, I'm sorry for giving you false hopes.
You could at least say hey, i do exist you know..? I guess you really don't realize how much it hurts me to see you just walk past like we never had anything.. I have no clue why I still care about you this much when it's obvious, you could care less.
things change..
wow to think last year we were closer than I have ever been with any guy and now we have forced conversations.. when did that happen?
I'm glad that you hate your life. I'm glad the girl you left me for turned out to be nothing that you wanted. I'm glad that she's doing exactly to you what you did to me. I'm glad you finally feel what that pain feels like. I'm glad you have had to live with this guilt of treating me like complete shit for 2 years. I'm glad that she takes advantage of how giving you are. I'm glad that you have to text me to feel happy. I'm glad she can't please you. I'm glad you haven't been pleased in 2 years. I'm glad that I know all of your secrets now. I'm glad you don't trust her. I'm glad she drives you to drinking. I'm glad that it makes you text me about how sad and pathetic your life is until 2 in the morning. I'm glad you realize how bad you fucked up by letting me go, I truly am the "one that got away". I'm glad that you look back on all of our time together and realize how much you took me for granted. I'm glad that you remember all those good times and that you don't have those with her. I'm glad you miss me.
You were brutal and mean and cold. I never expected you to take a such a turn and crush every fiber of my heart. You got rid of any trace of me like I was a bad shade of paint. You tried to forget about me, move on, create this "perfect" life and now you're right back where you started. Wanting me. You blocked out how shitty you treated me and how badly it ended and now its back to bite you in the ass. Karma lets no one get away unscathed. You deserve every ounce of this and it gives me more pleasure than you can ever understand to know that you are now stuck in this shit hole of a relationship. I hope she leaves you and breaks your heart and I hope you cry even half the amount that I did. You were the lowliest piece of shit I had ever come across for what you did to me. I loved you with everything I had and gave up everything to be with you. You never appreciated me or even saw all that I did for you. You never saw it up until now, when all of your efforts are being ignored and it gave you a flashback of how you treated me. Even now you're still trying to put up a wall but there's a huge hole in yours. A hole I can see right through and see how unhappy you are and how much your heart aches to be close to mine. Too bad you stupid fucker. I told you that you would regret leaving me and now you do. Now you have to see me succeed and shine and do all the things that you'll never be able to do. I'll be able to love, to be happy and be able to enjoy my life.
Fuck you.