#breysrants

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My heart is bouncing so bad rn. It’s all bc of a stupid crush.

But bro- I’m done. I feel like I’m delusional but I know there’s just something about this that doesn’t feel like just a little flirting. It’s bothering me to the point of making me lazy. I love this person so much. It’s probably because of who I am to them, they haven’t mad a move, but I never wanna lose this person. But I want them to want me how I want them.

I hope they do. Sometimes I pray for them. Sometimes I pray that they like me back.

But then other times I feel like a bother bc of bs. I’m great in all the ways I could be. I know there’s no problem/nothing wrong with me so there’s no reason to ask what’s wrong wit me just because they don’t like me back. But like…ugh

What’s crazy too is they know how I feel. I told them chill bc those feelings always ended up coming back. I’m being manipulated I feel.

But what if. What if they’re too scared or something…😂

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As someone with a mother who wasn't ready to be a mother at all I'm so upset that I had to raise other kids and didn't have a chance to focus on myself. Like I was literally a freshman in high school when I stared smoking and I picked up even more bad habits just bc I had no mentor/someone to look up to and love me. Bro and one thing I hate the most is when people try to come at me for saying I don't love my mother. The amount of times that I forgave her is insane because I only wished for her love yet it was never received unless cps was involved. So now that I've finally learned from my countless mistakes, I'm moving on. She was my first abuser and my first bully and continues to carry on with her antics. All of my mental health issues have stemmed from trauma that she has caused. I'm trying to heal but I don't know how because I don't even have any time for my own health needs anymore.

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I am very much a stoner myself and if I had to be 100% honest right now I think I love weed more than sex BUT, THERE IS ABSOLUTLY NOTING BETTER THAN HIGH SEX(to me). HOLY, FUCK. And then having a good meal after? Lord have mercy.

i want a significant other so bad :(

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Sad bc more than half of my followers are tumblr s*x bots😪😓🤕

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STORYTIMEE!!

I met this guy a few months ago. I think it was September. I was hooking up w him and at the time it was no big deal or nth. He was also like...MAD FINE. Like I was shocked that he was real and wasn't a catfish. 

ANYWAY- So boom, we linked for the first time and we smoked and talked for a bit and he was mad cool. I finally decided it was time for me to get to work and annnddddd......it was so bad.(I only gave him head) I'm not lying to y’all when I tell y’all my head game was SO trash. He aint even nut and I felt so bad bc his dick was mad big and I couldn't take it all..some of my dinner came up too. NOT A LOT! BARELY ANY. I went home and was super embarrassed. And the fact that he was mad fine only made it worse for me. 

Time skip to a few days later. He Hmu and I was mad surprised. We hooked up again and it went well I did more than just give him head tho. He hmu AGAIN and we he asked if I wanted to “chill” w him. I also found out that he was a nerd like me and liked anime too. So we watched vineland saga tg and fxcked foreal for the first time and LORD HAVE FUCKIN MURCYYYYY. HE WAS DEF PART DOWNTOWN ATLANTA. I was sore the next morning, ongg. I wish I could say he put me to sleep (that night, lol) but IM THE ONE THAT PUT IM STRIGHT TO BED BRUH. HE FELL ASLEEP SO FAST. It was so funny. So to make a long story short we be fuckin at least once every week I kinda sorta maybe have feelings for him....I'm not ready for a relationship and he’s emotionally scarred but the way we movin I might as well be his lil gf, yk? He’s still very confused on his feelings about it but I appreciate the fact that he can open up to me at all.

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I am:

Breyana, 19, a Virgo, Black🐆

I use she/her pronouns

My birthday is September 8th, Virgo💪🏾

Sometimes I be forgetting to put x black reader on my fics but I mostly write for poc women but my blog is open to any and everyone💋

I like:

Food, CAKE, friends, games, fics, music, my mutuals, cats and dogs, cold places, my bed, getting higer than airplanes, anime, friendliness, busting…sodas😉, food again!

I don’t like:

School, ice cream cake (I literally can’t stand it), heights, disrespect, ageless bot blogs, contacts lenses, insects, being alone, ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIED of the dark for some reason😬 and more T-T

That’s it for now :)

looking for more mutuals as well, don’t be afraid to interact 😏