death is a hard concept to grasp, to say the least. dying. nothingness. heaven, if you believe in it. hell, reincarnation, the afterlife.
but while the idea of death may be hard to grasp, the idea of mortality is even harder.
as i type this post, i am breathing. my heart is beating, blood is pumping through my veins. but literally any second i could die. my life could be over. i could cease to exist.
and if it can happen to me, it can happen to the people i love.
as cliché as this is about to sound, i have to take a second to tell the people i love just how much i love them because i lost a friend today and i am made up entirely of emotions.
katy, you are my rock. you were there for me every minute of some of the hardest days of my life. the sully to my mike wizowski, i love you forever. brittany, what do i even say about the love of my life? i've said it a million times but you are the realist friend i have. i have never experienced friendship like yours and i am so lucky to call a beautiful, sassy, unbelievably strong, heart like yours my best friend. ellie murray. my fucking partner in crime. i love you with all my heart and honestly some of my best memories in life involve the two of us. you are strong and feisty and the hottest asian i've ever met. erin mackin. mack attack. the only other person i've met who appreciates macklemore and ryan lewis like i do. thanks for teaching me about nose rings and snapbacks. you are genuine and you are sunshine and you are going to do so many good things as long as you remember to just be.
to the four of you, i have to say that as i'm sitting here typing this, my heart is swelling to roughly the size that is was the night we said goodbye. i am so unbelievably lucky to have people like you in my life. i love you. my life would never be the same if you died. a piece of my soul would go with you.
