Apr 23, 2020
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Something that I'm really trying to process right now is my near inability to finish creative process, or at least inability to do it alone. So many people around me are so able to just, like, do things. Crafty things, design things, acts of creation. I can twist things. I can help build ideas. I can start a project. I'm terrible at finishing them. It's so hard. And I'm usually pretty good at not feeling worthless for that. Today, with all of the other challenges I have, it's hard. It's so hard to not let myself think I'm just utterly without use, without worth of respect or love because I can't do Things. I'm great at helping. I'm pretty solid at caring. I'm terrible at doing. Today that's hard. But I'm trying. Throw should be better.