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newness.

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in a world of my own //

shot by williejane on Instagram

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week one of being 24🌹

&& im hoping the rest of the year keeps this same energy.

eyes, heart & mind wide open.

here to watch, learn & grow.

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natalia leckey

shot by, cooperrpattison on IG

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i know my heart, i know my worth.

i know my heart, i know my worth.

i know my heart, i know my worth.

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ain’t seen my curls in a minute

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had a really busy but really good day at work. got to see my big brother this week. still in shock it’s october.

in the mood to be alone. to write in my journal and read, paint & sleep. to sing and to cry, listen to music & drive. i’m going to try to do all of those things on my next day off.

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this my favorite song, spin it ‘til the needle breaks

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“we repeat what we don’t repair”

i’ve always said “healing comes in waves” and this forced time to sit still and feel all the feelings i typically breeze past in my busy day to day are crashing into me. it doesn’t feel bad, i’m just feeling a lot. constantly being reminded that, we (humans) don’t learn, most anything, all at once. and that’s okay.

giving myself grace and room to learn the lessons of today. to take what i need and move forward. i tend to get stuck in the “unpacking” of a thing. ive had a poor habit of getting stuck at feeling uncomfortable and instead of digging deeper and trying to find understanding, i push past and avoid. i tend to take what i want, not what i need. and think i’m doing fine until the avoidance becomes debilitating and life forces me to sit in my shit.

i don’t like that feeling. the feeling of playing catch up or whack-a-mole in my life. making the conscious effort to make decisions that line up with the life i want for myself physically, spiritually, emotionally is work but it’s well worth it.

“i can be whatever i want to be according to my mental and physical abilities and the application of my will.”

~a letter to myself,

love yourself baby, you are worth it.