last goodbye
➳ book: open heart
➳ pairing: bryce x my (casey valentine)
➳ wordcount: 694
➳ trigger warning: death & angst. If you’re sensitive to those topics, please click off now
➳ note: as always, thank you so much to the lahela protection squad for giving me this idea! Credit to @lahelhands @shiyagiru @the-unconquered-queen
listen to six feet under by billie eilish for extra feels
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This day was supposed to be perfect. He had been planning it months in advance. The day he would get down on one knee, and finally ask her to be his. Forever. A fancy, candlelit dinner followed by a stroll in the park, ending with a proposal.
Instead, he was spending the day standing and looking at her grave. Her body, six feet under him. Her final resting place.
Casey Valentine
Beloved Sister & Daughter
September 29th, 1993 - July 18th, 2023
He would never forget the phone call from the hospital. The phone call telling him that she had passed away. The phone call telling him that the love of his life had been ripped away from this earth too soon. The one phone call that had shattered his world into a million pieces. Nothing could compare to the pain he felt at that moment.
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“Bryce? Bryce are you still there?” But he couldn’t hear Danny over the deafening sound of his blood thumping through his temples followed by the deafening sound of ringing in his ears.
A car accident, they said.
She was gone. She was dead. He was waiting for her to get back home. Home to the apartment they had been sharing for years.
His knees buckled. He fell to the ground as his world fell around him. It felt like waves were crashing around him. She was gone. Forever. He couldn’t help think of her cold, lifeless body laying on the street. She never hurt a soul. She didn’t deserve this.
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Silent tears turned into loud sobs as he recalled the memory. He really would never see her again. Never hold her in his arms again. Never kiss her lips. Never look her in the eyes as he tells her how much he loves her again. He took a shaky breath and cleared his throat, attempting to subside his tears to speak.
“Hey Casey…”
And he broke down again.
Just speaking her name was enough to tear his walls down. He missed her. He really missed her, but he had to get through this. He had to believe that, wherever she was, she would hear his final message to her.
“I- I miss you. I…” he fiddled with the hem of his shirt, suddenly nervous. “I want you to know that I love you so, so much, and I’ll never, ever stop.” He paused, taking another deep breath before continuing. “I know that you’d want me to move on. I know you would want me to find someone else… but I can’t. I just… I can’t. I can’t live in this world without you. You were my rock… The only thing keeping me sane in this… this messed up world that took away too soon… I’m so sorry I couldn’t save you and I couldn’t protect you.”
Bryce wiped away his tears, still running down his face, preparing himself for what he was about to do. “I, um, I was going to do this today… if you were…” another sob escaped him, “and I know you have no way of answering me, but I… I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I didn’t give this to you.”
He reached into his pocket and pulled out his grandmother’s engagement ring. The ring he would have slid onto her finger if she were still here. Slowly, he got onto one knee as his tears watered her grave. “Casey Valentine… I knew since the day I first saw you that I’d marry you one day. I know that if you were here, you’d say that that sounded cheesy,” He let out a cold chuckled, “but it’s true. You’ve always been there for me and supported me through thick and thin. You stayed with me after learning about my past. After learning all my flaws. I wanted you to marry me”
He carefully deposited the ring next to the tomb and stood up, taking a couple minutes to look at the stone.
“Goodbye, my love” he whispered one last time before turning around and heading back to his car.
He loves her. He’ll love her till his last breath, even if she’s already taken hers.
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Tagging people who might be interested: @egguistique @lovelahela @bloodboundhoe @luckyferrero @desiree—1986 @moty-oph @lahellacute @littlemisspraetor @fandom-trauma
