24/April 2021
Before I leave this little bubble of mine - into the outside world, I want to share thoughts of these days. Maybe it’s not about leaving, but it’s about expansion, broadening horizons.
How often do you feel like you go back in time? I’m feeling like it happens more than often, more than is the norm (what is normal)? The concept of time is fascinating. It doesn’t exist, but it’s a great - tool(?) - like everything else we gave a name.
I don’t know anyone whom this had happened, but it happens - sometimes. It’s the second time my old bookmarks reappeared in a browser. Each time I felt surprised, and each time it was something different. This time I didn’t recognised the folder, even the content felt unknown to me. It was full of Miyazaki movies. It was deleted 4 years ago. Now, I felt like I want to know what this all is about. I chose 3 movies, and every one of them spoke to me in a different way. Relevant to the flow, I’m currently - breathing in.
The Tales of the Earthsea raised questions about life and death, how does it feel to give up, or to hold on to something (it’s challenging, maybe easy maybe hard/difficult), how to feel unknown to oneself, and a lot more. I laughed a lot while watching Whisper of the Heart. I love the name of this movie, a beautiful advice. And I wonder if I’m listening. It felt familiar, maybe it’s because I’ve learnt to feel the magic, of this/maybe just my world. And if I’ve watched this animation years ago it would’ve been a completely different movie.
(After I woke up this morning, I’ve decided to open a book. The paragraph on the page I’ve chose was about love, We think about how to love others, but who thinks about how to love oneself. Every one of us understands and feels it differently. And I think that love doesn’t hurt.)
Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind - it’s easier to destroy, than to learn the reason why it is happening, while blindly following one path, when there are many others. 2211 To be a part of what gives us life, not to be apart. I wonder where are we (people) going. I’m thankful I can see the world the way I see it.
I’ll always be living in a dream, with all of you.