#bubblingsilence

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Funny.. I always thought that you and Gil would end up together

OH MY GOSH

WHERE IS HOOK?

HE NEEDS TO SEE THIS SO THAT HE CAN HAVE A GOOD LAUGH THIS MORNING

I CAN’T BREATHE 

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rokkubi replied to your post: "Ahh, allow me to reiterate. I don’t get to see you all too often so today I’ll be keeping you to myself," Utakata shifted the younger’s weight upon his shoulder’s more comfortably, effectively ignoring the bouts of flustered flailing. “So unless you’ve got a place in mind, we’re going to my glade."

"Just my clearing in the forest. You’ve been there before, yeah?" The elder hefted Naruto firmly against his chest, rearranging their position so that the blonde was leaning back against his arms. ‘Bridal style, it was called? Hm, intriguing..’

   "Yeah, I have." He felt the blood rushing to his cheeks as the position he was in switched. Was he still not used to being so close to the other? Being in his arms like this alone was enough to get his heart beating just a bit faster.

   "Y-you don't have to carry me, 'ttebayo!" 

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"Ahh, allow me to reiterate. I don't get to see you all too often so today I'll be keeping you to myself," Utakata shifted the younger's weight upon his shoulder's more comfortably, effectively ignoring the bouts of flustered flailing. "So unless you've got a place in mind, we're going to my glade."

  “You know, you could have just asked me to come along. I don’t have any missions today, and I sort of was missing you. I guess it goes without saying that I wouldn’t of minded coming with you." A soft sigh left his lips as he swayed behind him. “A glade? What’s that?" What are we going to do there?

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"Why do you still want me?" The question was out of the robin's lips before he could bite it back, puncuated with a dropping of the amber orbs. The inquiry was laced with frustration, with disbelief, as to why the blonde held on, as to why the blonde didn't send him away, as to why the blonde desired him still. He was- /is/ bad. He was- /is/ not a good person. So.. "Why?"

  “Why do I love ramen so much? Why is the sky blue? Why is my sensei such a pervert? All great questions that are far beyond my knowledge. What I feel for you is indescribable, and I am sure that I don’t want to stop feeling this way about you for a very long time—as long as you don’t leave me again, but thing happens right? So when I figure out why I still love you the way that I do, I’ll be sure to tell you."

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"Neither of those things, Naruto," The robin sighed, his hands dropping once more to hang limply at his sides. "What I feel is guilt, is anger at myself, is regret for ever doing this to you. I wanted to protect you but all I did what break you even more. I don't /deserve/ to love you, Naruto. Don't you understand that?" Ochre orbs rose to clash against muted celeste, searching for a flicker, a flare, anything within. "Don't you understand I care about you more than my own life?"

  “You really mean all of that?" Those words put his mind at ease. Was that part of why he was frustrated? He was never sure of how Utakata felt until now, but the blonde was speechless. He couldn’t find the right words, or maybe they simply just couldn’t be said.

  “I…—I guess I never really will understand. I’m pretty scatterbrained, ya know? I was never really good at reading others, but please—don’t leave. I know I said I was upset about it—I still am—but I need you here. I really can’t take another hiatus of being away from you. I’ll only feel worse for letting you go in the first place." 

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"I.." /You what? You’re what, exactly? A moron? An idiot? Little more than a child? Look at yourself. You left the one person who understood you, who cared for you, and came back to break him even more. You're terrible, disgusting./ Bowing his dark head silently, the dark youth swiftly pressed the back of the blonde’s hand against his lips, silent, in a signal of submission. Or in this case, apology. "I make you sad, Naruto. Not happy."

  “You make me feel a lot of things.." He merely pulled his hand away. His words weren’t making him feel any better. Naruto wasn’t sure what would make him feel better at this point. All he wanted was some assurance.

  “Do you not feel that way about me?  Do you look down on me because I’m younger? What is it? I need to know…"

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The elder blinked, now caught completely unaware. Wh-What was that the blonde had said? "I beg your pardon?" His voice was low, hardly above a whisper and yet so filled with a childish wonderment that shined so within tawny orbs. Did- Did the Uzamaki just admit to- "I- But-" The slender hands flashed out to cradle the younger's face within his palms, amber eyes searching celeste intently. "I'm not threatening anything..I just want to make you happy. And if you're happy without me.." "So be it."

  “Why are you so surprised? I thought it was obvious…—It should have been." His fingers laced into the ones that rested so gently against his whiskered cheek, finally feeling calm enough to even make such contact.

  "You make me happy. Why can’t you just understand that?"

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"Then move on, Naruto," The demand was quiet, only barely above a whisper, only so riddled with the raw burning, a raggedness that raged within, dripping forth from the four words. "Pretend I'd never returned. I should've expected your being stronger than what I'd anticipated, and that you were ready to let whatever it was that we had to break free-" The words burned within his throat, burned within his chest. Get ahold of yourself. His voice rose, indicating a halt. "Then forget me, Naruto."

  "Pretend… Forget…? What we had meant far too much to me for me too simply erase it from my mind. I don’t want you to leave me again. I fell helplessly in love with you, and that is never going to change." These emotions were much too difficult for him to decipher. They just mixed into something that burned almost.

  “I’m so happy to see you, Utakata—I really am—but I am just so mad. Mad at you for leaving without me, and I know you couldn’t control that, but I will always be mad about it. Mad that you came just when my heart was starting to feel a little lighter… If you ever loved me the way that I do you, then please stop asking for the impossible. Stop threatening to walk out of my life again, and lower your expectations because I sure as hell did a long time ago!"