Falling in Love
Around 2020, I fell in love with the thought of being a detective or an investigator.
It all started when I randomly wanted to watch the Sherlock series on Netflix.
It was amazing. The Science of Deduction! The way how one can observe, analyze, and conclude!
"Goodness," I thought. "I want to be like Sherlock Holmes"
After a while, many months later or so (or I think even more than a year!) I saw an anime called "Moriarty the Patriot" showing on Netflix.
Moriarty The Patriot
So, I decided to watch it.
Not only was I amazed by William's genius, but the more I fell in love with the science of deduction. I also want to share that my eyes were further opened in the political and societal aspects of the unjust and unfair existing hierarchy between the nobles and the commoners.
Anyway, somewhere along the line, I felt like i couldn't make myself consume any more media related to this theme. The reason was that I felt like I couldn't achieve what William or Sherlock had.
Beliefs and Foundations
I have a negative perfectionist belief in me. "If I'm not as amazing as them at the get-go, then it's impossible to reach that goal."
Gosh, it took a while for me to verbalize that belief or foundation of mine.
But, when I verbalized it and acknowledged it, that was the moment I could challenge it.
I realized deep in me, I couldn't just let that love of mine go just for some limiting belief!
BS Forensic Science or Criminology
But, another obstacle appeared. When I finally decided to pursue this love of mine as a profession, my brother told me the reality of existing politics in the workplace, especially in the government.
Here's a little background:
I wanted to take up forensic science or Criminology and have work experience, which I could mainly get in the government workplace. The reason for wanting to get experience from the government workplace was because I wanted to put up my own detective agency. But in order to do that, I needed some credentials and credibility. Therefore, working in the government had to be an option.
But, when my brother explained to me in detail the politics in the workplace of such a profession in the government, I felt like I didn't have the foundations to be in such a place. It would have been too difficult for me. The place is toxic, that's the gist of my brother's stories and explanations. He also mentioned how the workplace affected my dad. My dad, by the way, was a police man with the position of a General and he was exposed to such a toxic environment which was difficult for him.
So, anyway, I gave up pursuing that dream altogether.
Until the present.
Sherlock Holmes Book Collection
A few months ago, I was able to buy the Sherlock Holmes book collection at the Big Bad Wolf Book Event.
But it wasn't until now, December 2024 that I decided to read it.
It's been on display on one of my tables here in my room. And everytime I glance at it, I feel like I wanted to read it.
Reason for not reading it until now, I didn't feel interested enough anymore.
But anyway, I decided to read it for fun. Meh, why not right?
The Sparking of Love Once Again
I read the first chapter.
I had a few giggles here and there.
But I felt it again. Deep down, this theme amazed me.
I felt it in my chest. It was the same excitement I had the first time I watched the Sherlock series, and the Moriarty the Patriot anime series.
I wanted to pursue it somehow.
But I knew that working in the government was out of the picture.
Also, I actually want to tell you that I was pursuing Animezin PH (one of my projects where I blog and make videos about anime meets mental health themes). This was my main project, and I wanted to focus on it and make it my main source of income.
Doing all of them
I was thinking deeply a night ago, December 8, 2024.
I was thinking "Why should we only commit to one passion? Can't we commit to all of our passions? Can't we deepen our love and knowledge on all of them?"
It's true, we dont have all the time, money, and effort in the world.
But it doesnt mean you shouldn't sacrifice other passions.
I believe we can pusue all of them, with whatever capacity and time we have. We reach what we can reach as long as we're alive.
Prioritizing and Intertwining My Passions
However, since time, money, and effort are limited, I thought that the best option is to prioritize my passions without sacrificing other passions.
Do you know the hierarchy of needs by Maslow?
We need to provide our basic needs first before we can reach the other higher levels.
Currently, I am finding ways on how I can intertwine my passion of being a detective with Animezin PH and my other projects that would be my main sources of income.
At the same time, I will hone my problem-solving abilities, observation, deduction, and analysis abilities, through social interactions and my current projects (like programming a game website) and journalling what I learn through blogging and content creation for Animezin PH.
Concluding this sharing
Me and my dad are close. And when I shared him everything I shared on this post, he told me that I'm on the right track.
He shared to me as well that one of my weaknesses is: I plan but I don't execute the plans. Theory without Application.
He also mentioned that, with regards to being a detective, I could put up a private investigative agency, or work in other private investigator agencies without working in the government.
But of course, I need the necessary knowledge before starting that. So, I'm going to study things on UDEMY (not sponsored), and continue reading the Sherlock Holmes books, and most importantly, apply what I learn in any endeavors and projects I have.
As for gaining experience, I dont know yet how to do that, nor do I plan to take up any college course.
But I want to focus on my Circle of Influence: the things within my control. Which is working on my current projects and not worry about what ifs, what nots, the far future, and the negatives that hadn't even happened.
Anyway, there's no point in life if I don't pursue the things I love.
That's all for now. :)