yeah so like none of us personally know a thing about the “real shoma” so this is pure fiction and wishful thinking so don’t get all offended on me ok thanks enjoy
where you actually met Shoma, you couldn’t remember
you were never formally introduced
never managed to recall how you learned his name
could never name an exact day or place when you first saw him
it’s like he’d appeared out of thin air but at the same time had always been there
the most you could remember is that, when you first noticed him, Shoma had been like a very rude shadow
he was always around but where he came from and what he wanted, you didn’t know
he’d just appear at your elbow suddenly and blend in with the group
while he never said much of anything to anyone, he most definitely never spoke a word to you
Shoma would just stand there and avoid eye contact like he’d rather be literally anywhere else in the world
but in reality, Shoma was a very whipped little boy and was exactly where he wanted to be
he was infatuated, hooked on the very thought of you
something about you was just beyond hypnotizing but Shoma had no idea what it was
he could honestly say that there was nothing special or grand about you
you were pretty ordinary, kind of underwhelming
but he’d find himself thinking of you and then magically end up near you and your friends without remembering how he got there
how the two of you ever managed to build a friendship out of these awkward beginnings was still a mystery to everyone
when you actually ended up dating it was just chalked up to fate and never questioned again
Shoma had never let on that he liked you in the beginning, and even after you started dating he maintained a cucumber cool attitude unless you were totally and completely alone
he couldn’t stand excessive PDA
(e.g. kissing, cuddling, hugging, holding hands, speaking to each other, sitting on the same sofa, being in the same room...)
and was only ever affectionate when he was sure no one but you could see or hear him
Shoma is a sweet snuggle baby when you were alone
still doesn’t talk much and rarely initiates skinship but is totally down for whatever you want
sit in his lap, scratch his scalp, stay up all night watching movies and playing games then take a nap, take lots of naps, lots and lots of naps
likes displays of affection, just leave the public part out of it
because pda makes him shy and he doesn’t like to feel shy
but he’s very giggly when he’s shy
and he’s very cute when giggly
so you tend to tease him anyway, especially because you know he’ll genuinely get pouty over it and pouty!Shoma is a rare and beautiful sight to behold
(he is truly just too cute for words but he doesn’t even know it I love him so much oh my goodness)
really has no idea why you even like him, Shoma is sure it’s just a stroke of a luck on his part or a case of insanity on yours
doesn't consider himself at all lovable
but you and I think he's the most precious thing in the world
Shoma used to worry about the fact that your love and affection was on level 2000 like all the time, when he could barely muster up a 7.8 on a good day
because even tho he truly truly cares about you, he’s not very good at expressing it
for the first few months of dating he’d go out of his way and force himself to be lovey dovey or else end up stressing about whether or not you knew how he really felt
but you did know and after you’d assured him of this at least ten thousand and eighty seven times, he finally believed you
and it ended up being what Shoma likes the most about you
he can be very stoic and unmovable and occasionally go full mental shut down when he’s stressed
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but you don’t take it personally and just wait for him to reboot in his own time, and Shoma appreciates that more than you’ll ever know
whether he’s shy and cute, or powerful and super cool, or even on total lockdown, you accept his moods for what they are
this has caused Shoma to place more trust in you than anyone else in the world
he knows that if his nerves of steel finally give, or if that dam in his brain breaks and a wave of emotion suddenly slaps him in the face, you’ll be there to comfort him in any way he needs
whether it’s to cry and scream and get angry for him, or just sit quietly and pet his hair, in his heart Shoma knows that you’ll be there
and because you never pressured him or expected more than he could give, in time Shoma found himself naturally growing more loving and now shows affection in his own little ways
instead of accepting all the cuddles and giving none of his own, Shoma’s love and sweetness levels skyrocket all the way to a 12.4 (a record high)
he still gets a little embarrassed in public, but occasionally he’ll let his guard down and be just a lil bit cute no matter who is watching
yeah, it might make him all stupid and giggly and adorable, but you get equally stupid and giggly and adorable so it’s totally worth it
medals and trophies and ribbons are great and all that
but there is nothing in the world he loves more than your smile, and Shoma considers himself extremely lucky to have won a place in your heart
