Dating!Shoma
boy
is
stressing
he’s not good at this dating thing and it’s driving him crazy
you make him giddy and nervous and he can’t think straight when you’re around and Shoma DOES NOT like that
he hates when he’s not in control of his own emotions but god you’re almost addicting
the way his heart races when you laugh or smile or look in his general direction
the way time feels like forever and only a moment you’re within sight
the way you make even the most mundane things look like poetry in motion
who else on earth could open a cabinet with such grace? lace a shoe to perfection? scratch a nostril with so much poise????
only you, that’s who
but Shoma hates himself when he gets like this, because it doesn’t make any frickin sense to feel this way and he knows it
but then it dawns on him that you’re the one he should be angry with
like, how dare you be perfect?
how dare you make him feel like this?
but most of all how dare you be okay while he’s a mess? how can you just carry on like a normal person while he’s over here struggling to survive?
Shoma eventually decides that he can’t continue living like this and is determined to ask you out
but how do you do that?
“Is it good to be blunt?”
“Or should I play it cool??
“Which is cooler, playing it cool or being very visibly smitten?”
“Am I smitten? Am I in love? What am I? Who am I??????”
Shoma truly doesn’t know and his brain is scattered and turning cartwheels and its just really really bad
but somewhere up in heaven, a bored angel has given him a break and you, literally the girl of his dreams, confess first
you just mention that he seems interesting and would like a chance to get to know him better, and invite him to some local event
this date is simultaneously the best and worst night of Shoma’s entire life
to you he seems distant and somewhat uncomfortable but really he’s just trying keep it together
his body is on autopilot because his mind is gone, his brain isn’t even on the same continent at this point, it’s somewhere in the Pacific about to jump into an active volcano
probably spills a drink in his own lap or accidently flips a small table or something, and just stares at it for like a solid five minutes before moving to clean it up
now he’s stressed, on autopilot, and ready to die of embarrassment but he continues on as if nothing happened
later on at home he puts his fist through a wall or rips a pillow in half
anything to release some of this steam his head pops open like a pressure cooker
to punish his mind that has recently decided to return, Shoma plans to sit there and think of all the things he should’ve done differently
but all he can remember are the cheap barrettes in your hair, and the smudge of chocolate on your lip, or the way you very nearly inhaled a fry as you laughed at something that wasn’t at all funny
you were absolutely beautiful
with some miraculous feat of strength, effort, and bravery, Shoma picks up the phone and calls you
it’s like two in the morning but you answer right away
you are merciful and don’t mention any odd or embarrassing things he’d done, something Shoma is very grateful for, and you end up talking until well after sunrise
any dates after this point go beautifully
at first he puts in extra effort to make things go smoothly to make up for awkward beginnings and prove that he’s not always a nervous wreck
but after trying so hard to make you like him, Shoma realizes that you adore him even if he’s flipping tables or tripping over thin air and that he was stressed out for nothing
eventually relaxes and can be his normal, zoned out self
Shoma doesn’t take you out very often, prefers to stay home or go somewhere very secluded and enclosed
very seldom does he suggest an activity or speak up about what he wants to do or where he wants to go, but accepts and completes every whim and notion of yours without debate or question
prefers it when you approach him for kisses or cuddles or anything of that nature
tho he is very hesitant to get the ball rolling himself, once it’s going he can roll right along with it and reciprocate every touch and caress
when Shoma does initiate things he’s a very beautiful combination of intensity and tenderness
his touch is soft and gentle but it leaves you breathless and somewhat shook every time
holds your hand under the table but doesn’t look you in the eye as he traces the lines in your palm with a feathery touch
kisses are sudden and unexpected, and he always turns away directly afterward as if nothing had happened
Shoma would get your attention somehow, kiss you slowly and completely, then turn back to the movie like he hadn’t just stolen your breath away
but just to clarify, the boy is very aware of what this does to you and he’s doing it on purpose
Shoma knows exactly what turns you to putty so occasionally he’ll bust those moves just to make you melt
Shoma likes to flip things and make you the marshmallow for a change, since he is permanently soft for you
and I mean genuinely SOFT and smol and uwu and all that, he adores you okay
like a lot













