It feels like the entire world is crushing down on me and I cannnot breathe. It's as though I am made out of cupboard, once I'm soaked, you can rip me apart. It feels like I'm being torn in every direction, in every way. The idea of being a grown up, an adult, scares me. I feel almost helpless to my surroundings, to my feelings. I can't seem to make it go away, I can't seem to make these voices to shut up. Waves and waves of saddness washes right through me, I did not ask for this, I do not want this. Honestly, I do not know the reason or reasons behind all these blankets of depressing thoughts, I wish I knew. Maybe then, I can stop feeling so much. Maybe then, I can stop being like this. Maybe then, I would be better, good enough and happy. Go away, get outta my mind. I don't even know where to being to tell anybody why I am so, I doubt anybody would actually understand. You gotta understand, that i am a very sad person to begin with, that is something nobody can change.