Chapter 4. 1 of "Drag Path"
If you haven't read the former chapters, read it first.
This is part 1 of chapter 4. It is divided into two posts since it's too long.
Satoru sat alone in the silence of his own office. His eyes lingered on the calendar displayed at the corner of his desk.
Date Today: January 2, 2015
Yesterday, was a New Year. Heaven knows how much self-control Satoru had needed on that day to prevent launching himself together with a firecracker.
Four fucking years had passed.
If a person who is of a lower capability than him, could possibly only take at least three years to prepare them for a time travelling mission, then why can't he?
A person like him, was expected to finish the training for less than six months, but he got delayed, and delayed, and delayed, and delayed.
Six months to complete what others needed years to learn, and he can't do it.
Six months became one year,
And before he realized it, four years had slipped through his fingers.
His body's condition is normal. His body was healthy. It was perfect.
He was physically fit, has a good stamina, a healthy heart, a healthy lungs, a good vision, a good hearing, he is practically the perfect embodiment of a greek god.
His body was proven to survive and withstand exposure of the Chronos Chamber and the mission itself.
Every medical examinations he went through, he passed.
His cognitive abilities? That's not even a question anymore. There is no way he would never pass when it comes to intellect.
The way he thinks, learns, remembers, and solves problems where beyond everyone's expectations. There's no need to second guess.
He understands complex analogies, solves complex problems, recognizes anomalies quickly, and the list just goes on and on and on.
He has a good memory, so good that he had already memorized the thousands of documents dumped into them years ago. Maybe even better than the people who had written it.
It might be offending, but it's true. Jealous much?
The papers that was worth more than a three-year memorization was compressed into an unimaginably two-month journey.
Yes, he memorized it all. Word. By. Word.
Ask him, "In 1967, what is the coordinate number of the location of the blackhole that they've discovered?"
And he'll say, "Dumbass, it's a wormhole that they've discovered, and it's not in 1967. And to answer your question, it's Latitude: 35.6883 and Longitude: 139.6065."
He possessed everything they wanted and needed in a candidate. If anything, he exceeded every benchmark they had established.
Needless to say, he was physically, mentally, and emotio—
Satoru seemed to forgot to take care of one thing.
Something that matters the most.
What would physical capability and intellect mean, if emotions get in the way?
In those four whole years of his life, he always passed everything, except for that one thing.
Whenever it was time for the neuroscientists to examine him emotionally, he doesn't get the result he was always hoping for.
It was devastating, soul crashing, even.
In those four whole years, he was deemed as emotionally unstable.
He can manage anything and everything, except for his very own emotions.
It seems like the greatest obstacle isn't the concept of time travel itself.
What was the point of possessing the perfect body if your emotions could make it betray you?
What was the point of understanding every fucking problem ever written if emotions like grief could make you ignore all of them?
..if his heart refuses to cooperate with it?
Four years of repeatedly trying and convincing himself that the next assessment would be different, and still,
"You're still not ready."
Those words haunted him more than he wanted to admit. He hated hearing them, because it was so fucking true.
Being emotionally unstable is not necessarily, legally bad. It's a human response that can happen under intense stress, trauma, grief, fear, exhaustion, basically anything negative. Humans are prone to those afterall.
The problem is that, even if someone like Satoru, who is physically fit and highly intelligent, overwhelming emotions can interfere with their ability to use those strengths effectively.
Though, he has no recorded case of such things happening, the Neuroscience Wing, can't take such risks. He needs to be perfect in all aspects.
Four years, and the Neuroscience Wing, is the farthest he went under the basement. There was only one level left, before he reaches the very bottom.
He may have the body and mind to accomplish almost anything, but strong emotions such us grief can still undermine him in ways that no amount of training can fully prevent.
Four years and he still can't move on, as if he was still on that day. That's a tragedy for Satoru.
A person can understand exactly what's happening to them and still suffer through it. Afterall, knowledge is not the same as immunity.
The others might think that he is already perfect, but what is the value of perfection if the one thing that makes you human can still bring you to your knees?
Satoru was the perfect candidate, but apparently, not now.
He was suddenly pulled back to reality with the sound of his name. He looked at Suguru.
Satoru ran a hand through his hair before sighing deeply, "Yeah, sorry."
"It's 7:34 already. The kids are waiting." Suguru looked at him with a frown. "You're 34 minutes late."
"Yeah, yeah. I know." He slowly stood up as his swivel chair rolled back. He brought two whiteboard markers with him and a few textbooks before going out of his office.
The institute knew that they can't force Satoru to be emotionally ready. It takes time. That's why they offered a solution,
to be one of the teachers of Kosei Academy.
They believe that it would help him get out of the state he is in. He just started a year ago.
And I kid you not, when rumors spread that he would be one of the lecturers of the said academy, the number of applicants quadrupled. Some parents even offered a huge amount of money just so their children could get in, fortunately, the academy does not accept bribery.
As they should. Fuck corrupt people.
The wooden classroom door swung open with enough force to make everyone inside jump from their chair.
Professor Gojo walked in without glancing at the crowded room. The door slammed shut behind him with a loud bang, the sound echoing against the walls of the classroom.
Tall and impossibly composed, he carried himself with an effortless confidence that bordered on arrogance. His snow-white hair looked as untamed as ever, stubborn strands falling over his forehead as if they refused to obey gravity itself. Beneath long, pale lashes, rested a pair of striking cerulean-blue eyes.
It was more than enough to make anyone feel as if they were being dissected at the very place they were in.
It was almost unfair, really.
The university had somehow managed to hire a professor who looked more like he'd walked straight out of a fashion magazine than a faculty office.
If not for his uniform suit that he is wearing and the stack of Physics books tucked beneath his arm, anyone would have mistaken him for a model who had accidentally wandered into the wrong building.
Naturally, the students' attention followed him the moment he entered.
That's right kids, pay attention to his perfection.
The students instinctively stood up from their seats.
He barely acknowledged them.
With a lazy flick of his wrist, Satoru motioned them to sit down while making his way to the desk at the center, and sat on top of it.
"Alright," he said flatly. "Open your Physics textbooks to page 345."
The rustling of pages immediately filled the room.
"We'll be having a fifty-item quiz after today's discussion."
Multiple groans could be heard across the room.
"No multiple choice, as usual." He looked at their faces one-by-one, making him smirk mentally.
Or maybe that was just his way of coping.
"Twenty-minute time limit." He rested both of his palms on the edge of the desk behind him, leaning back effortlessly. "So unless you're interested in failing, I'd suggest paying attention."
Not a single student dared to complain.
As prestigious as this academy is, surviving Professor Gojo's classes, felt less like earning a degree and more like volunteering for psychological warfare.
Those students better ask Suguru to teach them reverse psychology.
It would probably be their one and only chance at convincing Satoru that a fifty-item quiz with no choices and a limit of a quickie, were a terrible terrible idea.
If anything, Satoru would hear their complaints and bump the quiz up to a hundred questions out of pure spite.
Damn, those students who weren't able to study here in this university, specifically in his lecture, better be thanking the academy itself for rejecting them.
Indeed, attending some crappy university might bruise their pride a little, but atleast they wouldn't have to survive one heck of a test and an instructor who somehow looked personally offended whenever someone scored below a perfect score.
But then again, maybe he was the poorer one.
He had to grade all of those papers afterwards.
"Hey, professor.." a flirtatious voice came from the doorway.
Now, who the fuck is this fucking weirdo, one long thick fucking hair braid were infront of her fucking face.
Seriously, who styles their hair like that?
The woman went inside his office. Heels clicked loudly with each step. She placed her elbows on his desk, leaning forward in him.
No thanks, he prefers Y/N's unruly hair over your fuckass braids.
Satoru paid her no mind and kept checking his students' worksheets.
She waited for his response but didn't get any.
She reached over and rested a hand on his right shoulder, kneading it, rather intimately. Ugh..
"Fuck off." He swatted her hand off of him. "Did I gave you permission to go inside my office?"
Yeah, who gave her the right? She didn't even knock.
..Then again, why hadn't he locked the damn door?!
"Hmm, feisty. I like that." She smiled at him, alluringly.
Satoru slammed the test papers in his table. He stood up and went near his office door.
"Out." His expression remained flat as he opened the door. The latter just smirked at him.
"Make me." She sat on his chair.
Good heavens, he has been thinking of having an early out since morning, but it seems like he's going to work longer than he intended to.
"Don't make me come near you." He warned, the grip on the door handle tightened.
"Oh, you can come near me."
Okay that's it. Satoru quickly drew closer to her, his left hand harshly grabbed her front braid, dragging her with him, and yanked her out of the office.
Satoru slammed the door close, and locked it.
"Hey!" She shouted, pounding on the door several times as she twists the knob.
When no response came from inside, she clicked her tongue in annoyance as she muttered curses under her breath, and stormed back toward her own office.
"These bitches can't get ahold of themselves." He muttered under his breath, like he already experienced this shit multiple times.. in which he did does.
He kept on checking his students' worksheets.
But there was this one student that stood out of the rest..
Satoru sighed more. That kid had never gotten atleast a two digit score in all the past quizzes he had given them.
Maybe he's a student athlete and just got here because of having a talent in sports.
Wait, since when did the university even accepted student athletes?
Whatever, doesn't matter if Yuji failed or not. Satoru would still make remedial tests for the students who didn't get passing scores. Aw, how thoughtful.
As Satoru was making another 50-item test to make his students suffer, a knock from the door came.
Right, he forgot about that. Trauma response, they say.
He went up from his seat and opened the door for Suguru.
"Sup, how are you doing?" Suguru went in and sat on the chair infront of Satoru's desk. The latter went into his office chair.
"Good." Satoru responded, dryly.
Suguru didn't ask him anymore. He just stared at his friend, checking the piles of test papers.
"You're giving them a hard time."
"They're, giving me a hard time." Satoru emphasized the first word and looked at Suguru for a brief moment before his eyes went back down to the papers he's grading.
It was unclear to Suguru if he was talking about the students or the government.
Maybe both, but he chose not to ask him anyways.
Just like Satoru, he was also a professor at the academy. He teaches both psychology and law.
But unlike Satoru, he was ready in all aspects. Physically, mentally, and emotionally. He can do the mission.
Satoru mentally thanked Suguru for not going. It was selfish of him, really.
If Suguru agreed, then Satoru will probably not be able to go for years, or even decades, possibly.. never.
You see, the reactor stores 900 petabytes of biological data, millions of neural scans, and every organ's resonance frequency.
That is for one person alone.
The quantum computers located at the 3rd level of the basement, spends years solving equations just for one human alone. It can't compute multiple individuals at the same time, one at a time only.
When calibration reaches 100%, it cannot simply switch.
Doing so, erases the solution and starts all over again. This would take even more years, decades even, as it needs to rest because of the toll it took for computing non-stop for years.
Four years ago, the both of them finished their first month of training. The department chose a bold decision to take Satoru's data into the machine, for they are confident enough that he would be the one to pass everything.
Six months came, Satoru was not yet ready.
Emotionally unready. That's what the scientists' reports says. That's fine, the quantum computer is not yet finished computing anyways.
They gave them another six months, but in their demise, another failure. Okay, that's still fine, it's not yet done computing.
This time, they tried Suguru,
He was physically, mentally, and emotionally ready.
Unfortunately, the institute chose to compute Satoru's data. It made them regret it a little. But it doesn't hurt to hope a little bit more since the computers' ain't yet done computing.
They should've just chosen Suguru. Fuck themselves for thinking so lowly of him.
Oh, so basically whether Suguru choose to go or not, he still can't afterall.
He have no choice. They gave him no choice. Fuckass government.
Now four years have passed, the quantum computer has finished computing everything.
The only problem is, Satoru.
"Fucking finally done." Satoru sighed, leaning his back on the chair as he rubbed his temples.
Suguru lifted up his head from the book he is reading. He didn't leave the chair he had been sitting on since he came inside Satoru's office.
"Good. Let's get some coffee." Suguru said as he closed the book he was reading.
They stood up from their seats and walked out of the room.
"You must be mad." Satoru muttered out of the blue as they were strolling around the streets.
"For what?" Suguru can't help but furrow his brows in confusion, looking at Satoru on his side.
"I get to go, and you can't."
Suguru stopped for a moment, which made Satoru stop too.
"What made you think of something like that?"
Satoru feels bad for his friend, but he would feel even more bad if he is not the one who'll go.
They went on their tracks before Satoru continued, "I know you liked her."
It made Suguru look at him while raising his eyebrows. His hand remained on the handle of the coffee shop they're about to go in.
Suguru just looked at him without uttering any word. He opened the door, and went inside as Satoru followed.
"American Latte." Suguru looked at Satoru for his order.
"Bubble tea. 200% sugar."
The fuck, this late at night?
Does 200% sugar even exist? Well, from now on it is. The girl at the cashier would certainly make an exemption for the Gojo Satoru.
Suguru looked at him with disgust. Although he knew how much of a sweet tooth his friend is, he still can't get used to it.
They went and find a seat, waiting for their order.
"This brings back memories." Satoru said as he looked around, as Suguru agreed.
It does bring back memories. This was the coffee shop that the trio were always at after school hours have finished.
The only difference now is that there was one spot left for someone.
The trio became a duo. In the future, the duo might soon be a single man alone.
Their order came and thanked the waiter.
"Seriously, Suguru," Satoru started, the slurping sounds from his straw sounded a little bit louder than it should. "Don't you wanna go?"
"It's not like a have a choice."
Suguru can't really answer him.
Truth to be told, he doesn't want to. He believes that changing the past is fundamentally unethical.
From his perspective, the timeline belongs to everyone, not just one person alone.
Every person alive today exists because history unfolded exactly as it did. If we change that history, who are we deciding who deserves to exist?
"You know, you better get your shit together. Time is ticking." Suguru responded, completely avoiding his question.
"I know." He slurped the one last tapioca pearl in his drink.
A person who is assigned on this mission better be preparing themselves.
Satoru better be preparing himself. He'll be tested again next week.