An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Yesterday, I gave you angst. Today, I give you FLUFF, courtesy of @salzrand
saying “sure, tol/smol hands...but what about tol/smol feet?” :)
And then this happened...
but something triggered my deep thinking tonight and those lovely doodles helped cheer me up a bit from that ;w;
though i would like to talk a bit about what made me upset before and its that feeling that i missed something or should be somewhere else than where i was/am. and often this isnt just about a place but sometimes its just that i dont necessarily fit in with even the closest of people in some aspects of life that are or will be important or even just the fun parts like kinks and all
and i have to thank one person that has constantly screwed in and told me over and over and over again that im not meant to know and have experienced and understand everything. hes a blessing to have. and i know that but from things as silly as kinks to beliefs sometimes i just dont know what to say since i dont really have much of an opinion on it
that or my opinion on it s just twisted in so many ways i hate to even think about it and when i do im scared ill come out of thinking about it in a sad manner. but honestly, and this is where a majority of celes' personality comes in
it must be so nice to have that and those things
the girl that had everything and yet had nothing (celes)
idk im thining too much but i guess i just never really developed those thoughts and ideas and thats probably why ive gotten such a kiddy and toddler way of thinking things through. and although some people enjoy it and like it, i find it hard to like myself when it just sort of makes you feel insignificant yknow? like im not utterly depressed about this (im actually surprised a lot of the things ive gotten deep into lately hasnt made me sad but more... melancholy and into deep thinky mood)
people like my simplistic mood ive heard, they enjoy how cheerful i can be at times and yet i for some reason cannot get over the fact that difference are differences and sometimes im just set apart from them like this but this doesnt mean im set apart from people in general
and all of a sudden celes' backstory and track of thinking makes sense
