#butitsgettingbetter

[chrisontherun]

Went for a short two miler this morning to clear my head. Didn’t use my Garmin because fuck it (see also: I forgot to charge it), but I knew the route. It ain’t easy getting out there in this Texas heat but I’m glad I did it!

Also, took a tour of the Texas Rangers’ 1.2 Billion (with a B) stadium and #holyfuck. I took a bunch more pictures but I think I got the gist of it with these three.

[dahliasanddimples]

Day 3. Well at least you weren’t the first thing on my mind today… or the last thing I thought about last night. Maybe bc last night I was buying a gift for my cute little niece. Is shopping the trick? Is shopping really the way. Mood: add to cart. Did not get the best sleep last night weirdly bc I popped a NyQuil. That usually knocks me out but it’s a new room for me so maybe it’s adjusting. Maybe the feng shui is wrong. At least you weren’t the last thing I thought of or the first thing. Though you came immediately after lol

I got a second job and I swear I wanna call out. I feel like it’s too soon I don’t want to. I feel like it’s too soon and I don’t have the social skills to start yet. Maybe I should get one in a different place, really start new. At first I wanted to get one downtown so that I might possibly run into you, or your friends and you guys could all see me. Like damn she works there. And she’s a cutie and and and.. I still might. But for me. Not you. Bc it’s a good way to meet people and network and get my mind off you. I just might actually. Plus extra money duh

Day 3 and I feel a TON of a tonnes better. Honestly I felt better just sending that text. I think that’s closure for me honestly. Like closure that it’s actually over and not just lingering in the air. Even though I did drunkenly end it the night before *face palm* closure that it’s over on a good note bc you know what I did love you but I actually didn’t think it was working. Like whole heartedly I didn’t think it was working. Even in the first initial break up I knew it wasn’t working. Even before we broke up I knew it wasn’t working. We are very much different. I’m a likeable person so it’s not hard to have fun with me but damn. I’ll never forget. Took your ass out of the city and complained the entire time. Took your ass out and didn’t even appreciate it. HA. You’re actually a loser. Why do men always feel some type of way when women are financially more powerful. Like get your money up girly

Also lately I’ve just been getting major ICKs about my ex. He has just been on my mind for all the wrong reasons. If there was anyone I regretted it would be him. And there’s a lot I regret but he’s just…. He’s just A FUCKING WEIRDO just barf just fucking BARF

Anyways I’m up earlier than I have been in awhile and it’s taking all of joy to go back to sleep.. let me.. hit.. the gym *sleepy face*

[camila-473]

Talking to Ronnie again and i am feeling happy