I'm making real process. Progress. I am organizing it however the fuck I feel RN. Not with the headings I thought I wanted to use. But the fact that I know that is , um, kindof huge. I did make Fuck me like it's 1945 and The Midlife Crisis piece like this, but those were 40 pages each not 200. Ha I think it's will be really unfunny if I don't finish this manuscript. Like someone will be like "Hey did you ever write that rape book that you Facebooked about in 2017?" I'll have to finish it cuz I'm posting me working online. Trying to organize my thoughts. I need to cut and rewrite SO much. Well I have 7 more days. I better fucken (!) finish this shit. Not necessarily this week, but this year. I think I like listening to music to edit. David Bowie and Queen for the opening. Ha I'm making a Largehearted Boy playlist before I write the manuscript. Earlier Missy Elliot and Sleater-Kinney. Now Deap Valley "Femejism" - they opened for Peaches at Irving Plaza. Great song called "Gonnawanna." Sorry I'm going to miss the awesome panel I curated @knockdowncenter for @nastywomanproject These are the voices I want to add to @nastywomenexhibition : #pamelasneed #ashtonapplewhite #ayanaevans and #buzzslutsky - I'll write a real post about it, but just thinking about their voices - not their work, personas or all that- their embodied voices in the room, timbre, laughter, smiles and smarts. I'll miss that. I'm a little afraid by myself. I remember when men followed me. Plus I'm writing about having been attacked. LOL ! 😂Rape Culture sensitivity .Remember when they looked and they took one look and thought they understood. I am eating blue chips and drinking a Lemon Elderflower Tarragon (!) soda. It makes my bottom teeth cold. Illness isn't this bad thing that happened to me, it's just my unique thing that makes me suffer, and everyone has stuff that makes them suffer. Cancer is very unspecial . I mean so many people have it. I have to pay attention to it just like everyone else has to pay attention to their challenges. I have to keep tricking myself into believing this- I forget and I then I need to fake it til I make it. #fuckcancer #writing #healing #rapeculture #residency