#bwletters

[shipsmokeonthehorizon-blog]

Dear Me

"Dear You

I don't know how you feel about me at the moment, but I want to say a few things

Basically, I miss you, a lot

I'm sorry I haven't tried to speak to you sooner, I wanted to give you some space, but I couldn't really help myself any longer.

It's been weird, not speaking to you, bad weird

It genuinely feels like there's something missing from my life, I guess it just shows how much you mean to me. There hasn't been a day where I haven't thought of you. You're such a big part of my life and you mean so much to me but when that's not there anymore it's awful.

Having said that, I just want you to be happy

I'm probably doing that wrong at the moment, I just don't really know what to do

If you never speak to me again, it's okay as long as you're happy. I can't quite imagine myself getting over you but that's not the point 

I care about you and I'm here for you and I know you've heard that from me before and didn't know how to use it but it's true

I just want you to be okay, I hate the thought of you not being.

You make me so happy, you're so beautiful and amazing and I know I've said that a lot before but it's true

I don't want to lose you, you mean so much to me

Hope you're okay

I love you

and I'm sorry" a.g

[shipsmokeonthehorizon-blog]

Dear Somebody

You’ve received apologies so frequently I’m hoping you trust my sincerity in each and every one. I thought maybe for a change you deserved a thank you,

I’ve experienced so many broken promises from people who told me that they would never leave me and that they’d always be there for me. But almost everybody has left eventually. I cannot recall one person that had a reason good enough to do such a thing other than the reason I gave to you. Yet you’re still here, and despite how much I dislike relying on you, it is massively reassuring to know that you care. I truly hope that I do something nearly as good as that for you, because that I owe you.

You are one of the wisest people I have come across, and this I adore. Because nothing or nobody has ever had the ability to change me from weak & powerless to hopeful in seconds by explaining that things WILL improve. You have fixed parts of me that I didn’t know had broken and you have opened my eyes to what really matters

No other person really matters to me as much as you, and I will never forget the little things you say and the plans we make. Nobody knows me better than you, because you waited around.

b.w

PS- there is nothing that I regret more than wasting precious time and confusing you by walking away from you with no explanation, I taught myself what a hypocrite was by becoming one