How do you love so easy?
How can you laugh so freely,
as if tomorrow isn't there?
How can you smile so effortlessly
without any care?
I struggle to wake up every day,
struggle to find an escape.
I'm nothing like you and
your optimistic ways.
...
Yet you flash your dimples at me,
as if I was something lovely.
I wish I could believe
that I wasn't as bad as I think.
But how could I be?
I'm not you, never could be.
...
I could never mimic the way you see life,
The way you display your teeth
without any insecurity,
The way you look at everything
with love in your sparkling eyes.
...
Because, for you,
the sun will always shine,
the rain is always divine.
Your roads lead to adventures,
Any gift or reward is a treasure,
Isn't life worth it?
Aren't you perfect?
...
I wish I could be you.
I wish I had a choice.
I'd choose to
laugh as freely
smile as carelessly,
love as simply.
I'd choose to be happy, rather than be me.