i'm ngl i really thought i was making it all up, the dissociation, the switching, the alters, sure sometimes my memory was spotty but i have adhd, that's normal, right? it's not real, i'm just a delusional little girl who wants to feel special.
except recently parts have been taking control with so much differentiation and their own opinions, my friend says she can usually tell when i switch even though ive only ever said anything to her on a handful of occasions because my speech patterns, vocal tones and pitches and cadences, and body language shift rapidly until it seems almost like i'm a completely different person. she says she suspected i had DID long before i ever told her.
another friend says even over text he can tell when i switch which really surprises me, i always thought it was impossible to tell, and then i look back and sometimes it seems like several different people are texting from my phone. another friend i've known since we were both 3 said a couple years ago when i said i was suspecting it that even though she didn't know or suspect independently it made a ton of sense and explained a lot.
so anyway if you suspect DID and you also think you're faking it try asking your close friends if they notice your alters and switches, even if you think you're the most hidden covert system in the world you're probably not tbh it's probably more visible than you think. idk
