#aboutlastnight I entered the conversation knowing it would be our last. Knowing that logic is never a part of the conversation. Knowing that when it went against her narrative, she would run away as usual.. I did not think she would push my boundaries the way she did. I did not think she would make me lay hands on her after I repeatedly asked her to keep her hands off of me. Hours (and many drinks later) I am m sore physically but so much more hurt emotionally because I really did love her and believed her when she said she loved me too. Even now all I want to do is check up on her an make sure she is okay but I can't. I an not okay today. I am saddened that I had to be a way I said I'd never be again.. Worst of all I'm facing the fact that maybe I'll always be alone because I'm never going to settle on being who I am now, knowing who I am becomming. Maybe I'm not meant to stay in love with another person, only be there temporarily.l considering I am blessed to live my love everyday... #lessons #singleagain #byesecretbae