#c!pidge

[re-ikrmso]

MAYBE I SHOULDN'T THOUGH. (OC writing) CW: Read at own discretion

𝗠𝗮𝘆𝗯𝗲 𝗜 𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱𝗻'𝘁, 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵. (SHANE + PIDGE)

I know I shouldn’t though (Won’t Make me Better Though) It’s been three hours. Elsewhere, the bottles clink and fizz, the subtle noise drown

Cws at minimum? : (Child Abuse, Physical abuse, Harassment, Sexual Harassment (towards a minor), Depiction of implied intrusive sexual thoughts)

Art based on this writing: You Are...

I FUCKING FORGOT TO UPLAOD MY OC WRITING THAT I DID ART BASED ON.. Here it is~

also, yes, the title and subchapters are lyrics from the wsame song. ^_^ i was oringally going to make it more based on the latter parts of the writing, but i had to write leadup, and writing this lowkey had me too ill. maybe someday i'll be able to write something darker ^_^'

Obligatory, "i do not condone actions within" and "use your brain pls"

[re-ikrmso]

VIEW AT OWN DISCRETION (c!pidge + c!shane art)

"You Are..."

YOU ARE A VERY BAD MAN.

A BAD, BAD MAN.

A bad, bad, man.

with a child who loves you, very, very much.

Inspired by this FNAF art.

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Completely unrelated to the last ask but what's pidge's (your oc) fav food to have?

eee! ask anything you want! anyways, they’re pretty picky and they can easily get tired of their current favorite foods easily! (totally not my excuse for thinking on thier fav foods but really dont be shy asking)

thier favorite snack is birdseed though!

and they do like to eat pokepuffs, but i’d say they really reaally like pizza or something with meat (they imagine theyre eating someone’s pokemon when theyre pissed off)

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im listening to this song and for some reason it reminds me of my team rocket oc's story. so imma ramble a lil.

thoughts that would be related to song kinda:

-team rocket oc's mentor(shane) being an a drinker

-team rocket oc(pidge) blaming most of shane's treatment of them on alcohol

-vibe of the song related to pidge attempting to be cool/normal/suave

-pidge kinda dodging the issue of thier free will, this song kinda symbolizing them blaming thier problems/situation on other things and they are aware of this

-but also pidgeisnt entirely right on blaming themselves for everything so when they are fully aware of that its thier mockery of other people trying to reason why pidge is in thier situation when they didn’t have that much control at all

pidge is complicatedddd

(blame it on thr alcohol)

[re-ikrmso]

Ecoute cherie. the time is now.

"Listen, Darling. The time is now. I have time. Listen, darling. The time is now. LISTEN DARLING, RIGHT NOW,

Shut up."

(kind of a turning point-ish for pidge! or showing they're past a turning point!!! showing their apathy growing for what they're doing... they don't really give a shit anymore, not as much. all they want to do is have their mentor stop looking at them like they're going to fail his expectations.

Pidge didn't always start out willing to kill. Someone had to put them in the right direction, the right track. Looking with expectation. And Pidge eventually, they grew tired and apathetic. It is more complicated than that, but long story short: they eventually grew tired of their mentor expecting them to fail, to flail, to not get their hands dirty. But they're not that same 12 year old he took in anymore. So to shut him up, they did their job. Why so surprised? That's what they were meant to do, hm?

It doesn't bother pidge as much as it used to, not like it should. but just shut up. the time is now.

Song lyrics referenced:

Écoute chérie- Vendredi sur Mer

Écoute chérie (Sped up version I like)

Extras below:

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not connected to any of my main stories! I just had a little intrest in pokemon and this rom hack, and i just had to draw them out....

so here’s my Team Rocket OC! 

they’re just a silly little guy (probably truamatized beyond belief if i apply certain lore to him)  they are such a dummy they are so precious wow and they also murder pokemon on orders and have been (indirectly?) conditioned to not have empathy for pokemon, and huh. maybe they’re not that swell of a person...? I have like a silly little lore for them, a general outline for them. I’m not really planning to give them a full fledged story, but i do have specefic moments in my head lmao.

also like many(?) other characters of mine....

comedic sociopathy runs rampant for them ^^’

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cw/tw grooming mention

im almost 100% sure now that some of my personal grooming experiences (???? it was deffo sexual and i hated every second of it , but im not sure about the correct terms)

are absolutely leaking into my oc lore because like why the fuck do i consider Red Velvet's "Russian Roulette" as a viable song between Pidge and their mentor

OKAY i dont view it explicity from the "pidge got sexually groomed" and i see it more as like pidge becoming emotionally dependent for validation and erm. learning a kinda sweked worldview from their mentor/shane

and i deinfietly was into this song earlier but like. ough the connotations of the song I HAVE TO EXAMINE THE SONG NOT FROM ITS INTENDED MEANING FOR IT TO SOUND NOT OUGHH BUT LIKE IF I LOOK AT THE SONG WITH ITS LIKE KINDA ORGINALISH THING WITH LIKE ROMANCE THEN ITS OUUHGHGHGH BUT ITS NOOTTTTT

its more like shane being like "please trust me kid ill be a good gamble, its always a good gamble" and pidge is like "okay i trust you and i really look up to you and i will to try and cater to you. not only out of a feeling of debt but also fear because i feel your stares at me. this will cause me to push myself and go fucking laughing mad for the first time after killing enough cubones to the point where i feel nothing" and shane is like "good job kiddo that was kinda freaky but this was kinda what i asked for so cool have some more validation"

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What's a random fact about Pidge?

ohho!! ^_^ ty for the ask! I’ll give you several since im not sure if i’ve already said em or not!

-pidge was originally going to be a girl, but i decided to just make then GNC as fuck or bigender or genderflux . erm. i dont know… 😭

(“i’m probably nonbinary or some shit but i got a job to do”- pidge, probably)

-thier uneven haircut is a result of them getting an unwanted haircut from thier mentor/shane. they ended up moving too much and tried to leave, which fucked up thier cut and dhane didnt feel like trying again so he just let pidge keep the longer hair

-They’re not sure if pokepuffs are for human consumption, but they like to try and buy pokepuffs often as treats for thier pokemon

-they think pokepuffs taste and feel like shit but the pokepuffs are pretty and it they think they can piss off someone by eating one they’ll do it

-Pidge was raised slightly religious. They did not like it. It was horrible. Team Rocket (at least in my interpretation) was to them a very welcome thing, at least in terms of thier religious beliefs since yknow. Arceus? Pokemon god? Still a pokemon. Lets ball the motherfucker not so godly now huh? Pidge felt at least a bit more vindicated hearing something like that.