Tear soaked cheeks, bloodshot irises, there was no hiding it, no hiding the fear and pain that swirled around inside the she-wolf as she sat hidden away in the deepness of the bayou. Feet were tucked beneath her as she sat on the dock, digits toying with the laces of her shoes as she stared blankly out across the water. Regret, guilt, and fear kept her awake nearly every night, her little spot at the lake the only thing that silenced her mind and brought her semblance of solace, the stillness of the water helping her to take deep breaths, meditation at it's finest but ever since Brooks had shown up, every emotion she felt intensified and that fear that one day she'll be back in that deep black nothingness she had wound up in, her peace worlds away and leave him and her siblings without her again, break them all again pierced through her every vein. Her sister-in-law's voice cut through her thoughts, causing her frame to jump slightly as she realized she had carelessly allowed herself to ignore her surroundings before baby blue hues landed on Jordyn and hands rose to wipe at her features. "What isn't wrong," Lorelai countered softly. "I'm scared, Jordyn. That whole gala just reminded me how fragile we all are and now Brooks is here and I- God, I don't want to die again but what if this whole being back thing isn't meant to last? What if this was just part of their plan? Reunite friends and families just to rip them away from each other again. I see the way they look at me. I see how broken they all still are because of what I did and I just- I can't sleep because I'm scared that if I close my eyes, all of this will disappear again and I'll be back in the nothingness, the endless darkness that I had been in before being back."