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Say Something || Hanna & Caleb

A long, exasperated sigh slipped Hanna’s lips as she shifted around anxiously in bed, waiting for Caleb to finally come upstairs and join her. It had been nearly two hours since she left him, deciding that she was going to go up to her room after they attempted to have a movie night. Caleb had been distant the entire day, had barely even said a word to her or looked her in the eye, and it ended with them awkwardly sitting on the opposite sides of the couch. Every time she tried to start a conversation with him, he would reply with a basic answer, and whenever she tried to be affectionate, he wouldn’t reciprocate it back. She attempted to hide the pain by making it seem like it didn’t bother her, but it was honestly killing her inside. He had been acting like this for a few days now, and it seemed to be progressively getting worse. Last night, it got to the point where she couldn’t deal with it anymore, feeling as if she was slowly losing him and he no longer wanted to be with her, and after a few hours of tossing and turning, she eventually got up and left the room. Ashley walked in on her crying on the couch an hour later and asked her what was wrong, which Hanna then proceeded to tell her what was going on. It was in that conversation that she found out the real reason why Caleb had been acting different recently, and the reason why the strange car had been following them around. His mom hired a private investigator to find him and wanted to get in contact with him again. Hanna didn’t blame him for being upset and confused. She couldn’t even imagine what he was going through, or what it was like to be forced to live in multiple foster homes. But from the vacant look in his eyes every time the subject was brought up, it was obvious that she probably didn’t want to know.

After waiting another thirty minutes, Hanna realized that there was a good chance he wasn’t going to come, and was most likely going to fall asleep on the couch like he had done countless other times that week. Before she had the chance to stop herself, she got out of bed and grabbed the piece of paper off of her nightstand with Claudia Dawson’s phone number on it that she had found in the pocket of one of his jackets earlier that day, and began making her way down the stairs. She was determined to make him talk about it, knowing that it would help him cope with everything if he at least got what was bothering him off of his chest. Hanna knew by now that Caleb was the type of person that liked to keep to himself, and completely block out the rest of the world when it was hard for him to deal with something. The only way this was ever going to get better was if she confronted him and helped him though it, and she wasn’t going to allow him to shut her out. He needed her now more than ever, and she was going to be there for him every step of the way. Once she reached the landing, she proceeded to walk over to the living room, but stopped in the doorway before she entered. Her eyes scanned the room and landed on the bottle of alcohol he had in his hand, noticing that it was already half empty. Without saying a word, she made her way over to him and grabbed it from him, then placed it on the table beside the couch. “Caleb,” She started as she sat down next to him, looking at the piece of paper in her hands before she handed it to him. “My mom told me what happened – why that car was following you…” Tears stung the back of her eyelids as she glanced up to meet his gaze, seeing that his eyes were glazed over from the alcohol that was already intoxicating him. “I know that this is extremely hard for you, but I really think you should call her.”

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Drink The Pain Away || Caleb & Hanna

As she stood in the kitchen, waiting for the food to finish cooking that she was making for herself and Caleb, she glanced over to the cabinet where she knew her mom had stashed the alcohol. It was tempting, extremely tempting, to just drink away the pain and not feel anything, even if it was just for one night. Having the miscarriage bothered her a lot more than she lead people to believe. And it became easier for her to hide the heartbreak as the days went by. The accident wasn’t something people brought up very often anymore, probably because every time they would, she’d end up changing the subject almost immediately. It was easy for her to put up a front, and make people believe that she was doing alright, but it was a different story when she was alone. It would get to her the most when she was taking a shower, when she glanced down at her stomach and noticed the prominent bump that she once had, was no longer there. That’s when she would break, and feel her legs give out from under her, causing her to slide down the wall until she was sitting down in the tub as the sobs consumed her. She found it to be the perfect time to let out her emotions, and to let go of all the pain she held in throughout the day, because no one would be able to hear her cries through the sound of the running water. It also gave her the chance to make herself decent again before she left the bathroom, and make it seem like nothing happened. She knew that her mom and Caleb saw right through her, though. Hanna could see it in the way they looked at her that they knew it affected her more than she acted like it did. Losing her daughter was the most devastating thing she had ever gone through in her entire life, and she knew that she didn’t have to pretend like it didn’t hurt her every day, but she honestly didn’t want anyone to worry. Her mom was already trying to force her to go see a grief counselor, saying that it would help if she talked to someone about it, but she honestly didn’t think it would. Talking about it wouldn’t change the fact that someone had tried to kill her, and wouldn’t bring her child back. All she wanted to do was forget it ever happened, but she knew it was impossible. A piece of her heart was gone now, and she was convinced that not even time could fix the void she felt in her chest.

The sound of the timer going off brought her back from her thoughts, and she quickly diverted her gaze over to the oven where she then proceeded to take the food out and place it on a plate. Once she was done, she slowly walked over to the alcohol cabinet and opened it, taking a moment to contemplate on whether or not her mom would realize that there was one missing. After promising that she would replace it before Ashley got back into town from her business meeting, she quickly grabbed one of the bottles along with two glasses and made her way up the stairs. When she got to her room, she walked over to the bed and passed Caleb the food, then placed the two glasses on her nightstand. Without saying a word, she opened the bottle and proceeded to pour them both a decent amount. She then quickly took a swig from it, wincing at the taste as the liquid burned down her throat, and then set the bottle down on the table. “Here,” She said, handing Caleb one of the glasses. “I thought we could probably use a drink.” Hanna then picked up her glass and made her way over to the other side of the bed and got in, setting her pillow up behind her so she could sit in a comfortable position. 

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Don’t Ever Let Me Go || Caleb & Hanna

Memories replayed in her head. From ones that she thought she had forgotten, to ones that she could remember clear as day. It felt like she was watching a movie about her life, seeing the last seventeen years flash before her eyes. But it only consisted of the good memories, none of the ones in which she had spent so many years trying to suppress. And it was terrifying how vivid they were. It almost felt as if she was actually reliving them, and she was honestly convinced she was dying. For once, she felt at peace. There was no pain or heartbreak, no reason to worry or be afraid. It was tempting, to not wake up, and she would be lying if she said she didn’t consider it, because it would be so easy to just give up and stay like this forever. But then she thought about her mom and her friends, and how devastated they would be if she were to make that choice. Flashbacks began to flood her thoughts, ones that consisted of her mom laughing and smiling, and telling her how much she loved her. Hanna knew how heartbroken she would be, and knew that Ashley wouldn’t be able to function without her. She was all her mom had left, and forcing her to have to live the rest of her life alone would never be an option. Then she had flashbacks from moments that she had shared with her best friends, reminding her of everything they had gone through together, and the friendships that she would be throwing away. It would be selfish, to leave them all behind. And although they had played a huge part in her decision to stay, there was one reason that outweighed all of the others. Him. He was the ultimate reason for her waking up out of her state of unconsciousness, because even though she was asleep, she could still feel his presence at her side at all times, and could still hear his soothing voice as he spoke to her throughout the day. 

Every memory she had with Caleb flashed through her head in the matter of seconds, and as soon as they were over, she instantly opened her eyes. For a moment, everything was a blur. She couldn’t remember what happened, or when she fell asleep, or how she got into the bed she was lying in. All she could focus on was the throbbing pain in the right side of her head. The lights that were on the ceiling were bright, way too bright for her liking, and the only noise she could hear was the faint sound of beeping from the machines she was hooked up to. Otherwise it was silent, and the stillness of the room took her off guard. She blinked a few times in attempt to gain her vision back, which at one point, she did. Her eyes scanned her surroundings, looking from the white walls, over to the monitors beside her, and then down to her arm, where she saw the pink cast that covered it along with the many cuts and bruises on her skin. After realizing that she was in the hospital, it all slowly came back to her, and she remembered the reason why she was there, but she was still too disoriented to think into it or ask any questions. Her eyes then landed on the person sitting in the chair next to her as she noticed the warmth of someone’s hand in hers, and she couldn’t help but smile when she realized who it was. He was sound asleep, and she took a moment to just watch his chest rise and fall with each breath he took, finding the quiet snores coming from him absolutely adorable. After waiting a few minutes, she gently brushed her thumb along the back of his hand, silently asking for him to wake up and meet her gaze. And when he did, she looked into his eyes in complete adoration. “You’re here,” She said barely above a whisper as she smiled over at him. “Just like you said you would be.”

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The Perfect Birthday || Caleb & Hanna

Her fingers tapped nervously on the steering wheel as she drove, trying to think of something she could say to break the silence. The two of them hadn’t said a single word to each other since they left the restaurant, and the tension in the air between them was thick. Everything had been going fine until the check came, which ended with them arguing over how much money she had spent on dinner. She was used to it by now, though, considering Caleb always seemed to throw a fit whenever she did something for him that involved spending money - especially now since she was pregnant. It stung in a way, to see him so upset at her since she had been planning his birthday for the past month, trying to make sure it was going to be absolutely perfect. Hanna knew that he probably hadn’t actually celebrated his birthday in the past twelve years, and she wanted to make up for it in every way she could. Her mom even helped pay for everything, knowing how important it was to the blonde, and Ashley thought of Caleb as a son, anyway, so she definitely didn’t mind pitching in a couple hundred dollars. “I know that you’re probably not going to be thrilled about the next surprise I have for you, but can you at least try to act like you’re enjoying your birthday?” Hanna said softly as she pulled in front of the hotel, glancing over at him as she parked next to the entrance. 

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Broken Promise || Hanna & Caleb

Hanna sat on her bed with Caleb by her side, trying to finish the school work she fell behind on from all of the days she had skipped in the last couple of weeks. Being pregnant was a lot more stressful than she thought it would be, from having to deal with the judgment from everyone at school, to wondering if she was actually going to be ready to be a parent in six months. And on top of it all, she witnessed Caleb breaking the promise he had made about not working on phones anymore. It was at school when she had caught him. He told her that he was going to skip lunch, and that he had to study for a test in the library, which she knew was a lie as soon as he said it. In the past few months they had been dating, she couldn’t think of a single time she’d seen him study, or even pick up a school book with any intention other than using it as a paper weight. But she went along with it, smiling and kissing him before pretending like she was going to meet up with the girls in the lunch room, but as soon as she saw him walk down the hall, she turned around to follow him, making sure to keep her distance. He made his way out to the front of the school, and she hid behind a wall as she watched him meet up with some guy, where he then proceeded to hand Caleb a phone. She was angry to say the least, but she played it off the whole day and acted like she knew nothing happened.

It was getting to the point where she wasn’t sure how much longer she could go without saying something to him about it, though. But she knew that he would probably deny it, and tell her that it wasn’t what it looked like. So she was determined to catch him in the act, knowing that wouldn’t be able to lie his way out of it if she walked in on him actually working on the phone. In the back of her mind, Hanna knew that it probably shouldn’t bother her as much as it did, that it was a good way for him to make money, - which they needed now more than ever - but it terrified her to think of what might happen to him if he were to get caught. It wasn’t something that she wanted him to risk, especially not now when he had so much to lose. And she honestly couldn’t even fathom the idea of trying to get through all of this on her own. After many failed attempts of trying to concentrate on her homework, she finally closed her Chemistry book and placed it back in her bag. “Hey, Caleb?” Hanna said hesitantly, getting up out of bed and grabbing her purse off of the floor as she tried to think of a reason to leave. “I forgot that I was supposed to meet Emily at The Brew… I asked her to help me catch up on a few things in class, and we also had some stuff to talk about.” Her voice was steady as she tried to make the lie sound convincing. “I should only be gone for an hour or two, so try not to miss me too much.” She smiled, walking over to his side of the bed and leaned over to kiss him. “I love you.” Hanna pressed her lips against his one last time before walking out the door. As she reached the bottom of the stairs, she made her way over to the front door, where she then opened and closed it to make it seem like she had left.

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Our Future Together || Hanna & Caleb

The weather was perfect for being in the middle of spring. It was starting to get to the point where you could actually feel the seasons changing from winter to summer, and almost warm enough to where putting on a jacket to go outside wasn’t necessary. Normally Hanna would be excited about it, about being able to finally start wearing her summer dresses and other cute outfits that she had been dying to put on all year, but her stomach was growing larger by the day, and baggy sweatshirts were quickly becoming a part of her regular wardrobe. Although she loved the little one that was growing inside of her, she wished that getting the size of a watermelon wasn’t something that needed to happen. It was in times like this that she was thankful she had a car, so that she could escape from her small town and drive off to a different city. She thought it would be nice to spend the day with Caleb, to be able to walk around somewhere they couldn’t possibly run into anyone they knew, and that’s exactly what they did. After school, they jumped in the car and drove a couple towns over until they found a small, quiet park that had trails surrounding a lake – it was perfect.

They walked in silence for a while and enjoyed the beauty around them, content with just holding each other’s hand. As they made their way down the path, Hanna took a moment to close her eyes, letting Caleb guide the way while she breathed in the crisp afternoon air. Her whole body instantly relaxed from the warmth of the sun beating down on her skin through the small breaks in the trees. This was exactly what she needed – especially after how anxious she had been all morning. It was their first day back to school since Spring Break, and all she could get herself to do while she sat in class was stress about whether or not people could tell that her stomach had grown twice the size. She knew her friends noticed a difference - seeing the strange looks they had given her when she walked up to the group before school. It honestly terrified her to the point where she had steered clear of them for the rest of the day. The last thing she wanted was to be questioned, but she figured that avoiding them had probably made it worse and they wouldn’t hold back from giving her the third degree about it the following day. But she quickly pushed the thought aside for the time being, not wanting to ruin the perfect moment, and continued to glance down at her stomach. Her bump was prominent, only covered by the tank top she had on since she decided that it would be fine to leave her jacket in the car. “I can’t believe I’m already nine weeks. It said online that she was an inch long and about the size of a grape.” Hanna smiled, placing her free hand on her extended belly and raised her eyes to look over at him. “It’s hard to imagine that we’re actually going to be able to hold her in our arms in seven months.”

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Our Perfect Little Secret || Hanna & Caleb

Hanna had never been a morning person, especially once she started experiencing pregnancy symptoms. She hadn’t been able to sleep through the night since. And she definitely didn’t want to wake up early this morning, considering it was still Spring Break and there were only a few more days left to sleep in before she had to go back to school. As she stood in the shower, looking down at her stomach, she found it hard to believe that she was already eight weeks pregnant. Besides the morning sickness, she didn’t feel pregnant yet, which she thought she would have by now considering that she was already two months in. The only thing that she could notice changing was that her pants were becoming more difficult to put on, but she couldn’t see a difference. Maybe it was because of the fact that she felt like she was constantly looking, as if her stomach would just magically get bigger, because she had been anxious to actually start showing. A part of her couldn’t wait for their baby to grow, and to feel her son or daughter moving around inside of her, but the other part was terrified, because it meant that people would start noticing and asking questions. For a while, she could just pass it off as gaining weight, but she knew the longer waited, the worse it was going to be when she told everyone – especially her mother. There was no doubt in her mind that Ashley was going to be the first person she would tell, because even though her mom was bound to be disappointed in her, Hanna knew that she would always be there, and the blonde needed the moral support when she told everyone else. She was already convinced that the only people she would have left in the end were going to be Ashley and Caleb, because she had a feeling that Alison wouldn’t want her to be a part of the group anymore once she found out. But she tried not to let it bother her, didn’t want to start worrying about it until the time came. 

Caleb was taking her to her first ultrasound appointment today, (thankfully her mom was already at work, so they wouldn’t be questioned about where they were going) and she wasn’t going to let the anxiety of her future get in the way of how beyond excited she was to see their little one on the screen - even though she knew that their baby was too small to actually be seen as anything other than a little blob with arms and legs. When she was doing research online earlier that day, it said that they would be able to see the baby’s heartbeat, and that was enough for her. Just knowing that their child was healthy and growing the way they should be was all she wanted. As she got out of the shower, she put on the bra and underwear she had laid out for herself, and made her way back to her room. Once she walked in, she closed the door behind her and noticed that Caleb was still lying in bed almost in the same position he was half an hour ago. She couldn’t help but smile to herself at the sight of him – she loved being able to live in the same house as the love of her life. “I wish you would have joined me. I forgot how boring it was to take a shower alone.” Hanna chuckled as she walked over to press her lips against his before making her way to the closet to find something to wear. She loved how she felt completely comfortable walking around half-naked in front of him, loved feeling the heat of his gaze on her body as she crossed the room. It made her wish she wasn’t pregnant so that maybe he would be more tempted to stop her from putting on clothes in the first place. They hadn’t had sex since she told him about her pregnancy, and she was becoming convinced that she would have to go at least seven more months without it. “I don’t know what to wear. None of my pants seem to fit me anymore.” She sighed as she sifted through the hangers, knowing that she would have to get a whole new wardrobe in a few weeks.

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Nightmares || Caleb & Hanna

Side Note: Her dream is in italics.

Hanna rarely had bad dreams, but the past few nights had been nothing but. The nightmares only seem to get worse with every passing night, leaving her lying awake for hours because she was terrified to fall back asleep into the same dream. Normally being in Caleb's arms was enough to comfort her, making sure never to wake him, because just watching his chest rise and fall as he slept helped her remember that the dreams weren't real, that he was still alive and breathing and nothing was going to happen to him. But tonight was different.

Hanna sat in her bed, trying to finish her homework as she waited for Caleb's text that he was outside so she could sneak him in, but the message never came. It was a quarter till nine, she still hadn't heard from him, and she began to worry. As soon as she reached over to call him, her phone vibrated to inform her that she had a new text. All of her worries disappeared as she saw who it was from - that was until she read it. It was a message from Caleb asking for her to come pick him up with an address attached to it. She quickly plugged it in on her phone and saw that it was about twenty minutes away, and sent him a text saying that she would be there soon. Not trying to worry about it too much, she got in her car and followed the route on her gps until she reached her destination - an old abandoned warehouse. She was hesitant to go inside, unsure as to why he was even out here in the first place, so she sent him a text telling him that she was there, but she never got a response.

After waiting almost ten minutes, she started to get worried, and she decided to finally go inside to look for him. Hanna shut her car off, and slowly got out, making her way over to the door that was already slightly open and called his name. With no answer back, she stepped inside the darkness, the only light that she had to go off of was from the moon shining through the broken windows. As she made her way around, she called his name twice more before she heard something fall from behind her. She quickly turned around to see a dark figure emerge from the shadows with Caleb in their grasp, a gun pointed to his head, and panic shot through her body as her blood turned cold. "Let him go!" She yelled as she made her way closer, but they immediately pointed the gun at her, silently warning her not to take another step. Her eyes hastily made their way to look at Caleb, his arms tied and his mouth covered with tape, but she could still hear him screaming for her to run. Then the figure placed the gun on the side of Caleb's head and her legs were trembling beneath her now, her mind racing a million miles per hour to try to think of a way she could save him. "Don't hurt him! What do you want from me? I'll do anything! Take me instead!" She screamed, her voice breaking as tears streamed down her face. This couldn't be happening, she couldn't lose the only person in the world that she loved. She looked back down to him, and she could see tears soaking his face as well. "Please, just kill me instead!" Her voice was strained through her sobs, pleading for them to listen to her. She watched as the gun faced her once again, meeting Caleb's eyes one last time and whispered "I love you.". He shook his head as he tried to escape their grasp, his screams muffled by the tape covering his mouth as he was about to watch the love of his life die in front of him. She then closed her eyes, waiting for the impact, but it never came.

The noise from the gunshot was enough to startle her awake, shooting straight up in her bed as tears raced down her face. Her heartbeat was out of control, and she felt as if she just ran a mile with how uneven her breathing was. She was crying hysterically now, unable to keep back all of the emotions from her dream because it felt all too real. Everything was numb, her body, her thoughts, and no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't get herself to say anything. All she could do was stare at the wall in front of her, trying to calm herself down, but she couldn't because the dream kept replaying over and over in her head to the point where she almost was second guessing whether or not it was real.