Jan 15, 2018
My little artist. #hecaughtmesneakingpictures #calebmatthew #alwaysdrawing
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My little artist. #hecaughtmesneakingpictures #calebmatthew #alwaysdrawing
Love and Trust
I love him with every ounce of my heart, and every in of my being. But he makes it so hard for me to trust him and have confidence that he will do the right thing. I.E. tell a girl to back off, or not even put himself in that situation. I am going home in exactly one week and up until 10 minutes ago I was completely confident that I was going to spend every waking moment I could with him.... But now I am not so sure. This is why; Earlier while we were texting I mentioned to him how hard it is for me to miss him and be so far away for him and suggested he find a job down here and spend his work term with me... He replied with: "maybe in a year or so". Of course I took that to mean that he doesn't think we will last and doesn't want to make any sort of commitments. We have been together (loving eahother) for nearly a year and a half..how can he still be so skeptical? I just don't understand what I need to do to convince him of how much I cherish him. And how much it hurts my heart when he ignores me.
Never should have left.
The more I am here, the more alone I feel. The more I can feel my heart breaking again. I just want to be home. I have this horrible, gut retching pain in my stomach that I need to be home right now. And there is not a single thing I can do.