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Word count: 37,875 Chapters: 10/10 Fandom: Sherlock (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sherlock Holmes/John Watson Characters: Sherlock Holmes, John Watson, Mycroft Holmes, Greg Lestrade, Mrs. Hudson (Sherlock Holmes), Rosamund Mary "Rosie" Watson, Victor Trevor (mentioned) Additional Tags: Angst, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Psychological Trauma, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Suicidal Thoughts, Post-Episode: s04e03 The Final Problem, Sherlock Whump, casefic Summary:
Sherlock becomes the prime suspect in a homicide case, and recently unearthed memories of his childhood are complicating matters. It's up to John to track down answers — can he help Sherlock before it's too late?
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Rec: Enthralling, creepy, insidiously addictive. I was glued to the screen for every word of this thrilling, complex casefic in which John has to take the lead when Sherlock begins suffering from blackouts and seizures and behaving erratically. Of course his mysterious malady is intrinsically wrapped up in the murder investigation, and as the answers start coming to light, it turns out that the roots are much deeper and further back than anyone suspected.
The story is brilliantly plotted from start to finish, drawing on events and details in series 4 and exploring their implications in a way that did them proper justice rather than using them as red herrings or leaving them as half-thought out, unrealistic handwaves. And as the story progresses, we find that there have been other developments on a personal level since Sherrinford which complicate the situation and make finding a resolution even more imperative.
I thought this was particularly good at conveying the urgency and emotions at play, from Sherlock’s frustration and fear, to John’s disquietude and overarching care and devotion, to Mycroft’s genuine concern and regret. Amidst the scary medical incidents, ill-conceived secret-keeping, lurking nightmares and lies, the moments of steadying domesticity, quiet comfort, and acts of friendship shine brightly as a reminder of what it is all for in the end.
Warnings (amply given in the fic itself) for suicide and ideation.













