"You aren't alone" that is what I always tell myself. But everyday, at 2:29 in the morning, when I'm in my bed, when there is only darkness all around and I'm filled with heavy thoughts, When my tears are continuously soaking my pillow,band all I can ask myself is "Am I that important to anyone, as much as they are for me?" "Is there anyone whose life can stop without me?" "If I died, will it affect anyone?" And answer to all these questions is 'No, a big no' always! I don't know why but I always feel like I need someone, that someone with whom I can speak my heart out. With whom I can share everything without any hesitation. The one who will never judge me, the one who will always support me, the one who will always handle my mood swings, the one who can understand my silence. And then the worst question that I always ask myself is "why am I existing?" And get no positive answer for this. And just go on thinking and thinking and thinking. I am used to be left alone, But when people don't notice.. its hurts. It hurts that I can't be what everyone wants And it hurts that I can't be what I want Because I'm not enough. I won't ever be enough. They just stop talking for a week or more and then randomly text me like nothing happened. They get my hopes and lead me on. Because they know that no matter how long they ignore me, I will always be there waiting for them. And that's how it kills me. You know what it feels like? To be trapped in your own mind? To hate yourself? To be worthless? To live with thousands of regrets? To cry yourself to sleep every night? To feel so low? I know, you don't! But I'm used to it.. . Written by Ojaswini Wadhwa (@_alonewithmythoughts_ ) . Share your tales in the link given in description to get featured in out page ❣️ . Use the hashtag #candidfeelings to get reposted. https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq4raWOBMSI/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=rkfyk0v4fh94