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11. tell us about your first crush?My actual first crush is now an awful person so I don’t want to talk about her.. But I can talk about my first* girlfriend because she’s way better.*and the only one I had, because nobody has never been interested on me ever since. AND IT’S BEEN 4 YEARS
When I was 13, I had a classmate whose cousin was interested on me and she liked anime and knew I liked anime too so we became Facebook friends. My first thought was “Oh my god shes gorgeous but she’s obviously out of my league and shes probably straight because so are all the girls in this goddamn city”. I hadn’t really talked to her but one day, checking out her Ask.fm account, I found out she was a lesbian and goddd i was so happy but i still thought she was out of my league lol. Then I sent an anonymous message to her confessing my crush and she was like “you should totally come talk to me!” and I don’t know how i found the courage to call her on facebook chat but I did! And then she said she had a crush on me too and she wanted to meet me irl... Then we became closer and we kinda dated. I don’t even know if we were actual girlfriends, but I loved her a lot. Our thing just ended because I didn’t know what to do and I was afraid my family would found out about us (our first kiss was in my mother’s bedroom while my mom was in the kitchen oh my god). I was too young to deal with that.I missed the opportunity to have an actual relationship and I kinda regret it. We are still good friends.
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