#captianleo

[stardecksystem]

Me: ya know i kinda wanna get into another TV show or piece of media, I haven't done that in a while

MCYT and Six of Crows: We have been waiting for you.

Me: oh shit glad I saved these for later!

[stardecksystem]

Tw: talk about food/trouble eating

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Shout out to Jareth for soothing me while I ate so I didn't throw up.

You the real mvp goblin king ✌️

I have no idea how we are going to survive Thanksgiving.

-Leo(soon to change name)

[stardecksystem]

It's been a long week with a lot of shit that has happened(most of which I don't even fucking remember just that fact that it happened) so now we have a new member and this is the current mood

I can't tell if Louis has turned down/off all of the emotional responses or whatever connected to the front or if our new alter is like shut down/numb or if Im just not feeling anything because it's all being filtered into the new guy.

It's probably that last one.

Mmmm I get it I get what this feeling I have is.

It's so incredibly surreal to realize all those times where I felt like I "snapped" was just a split. All those times I felt like someone or something took away something and I could feel that I *should* remember something and couldn't fuck I get it I understand now but is that making the feeling better at all? No absolutely not~

Anywaaayyyss ayo let's just keep walking forward~

-Leo

[stardecksystem]

What tf would I do without my emotional support gatekeeper?

Things get stressful? Boom Louis

People get rude and Derek can't make it to front? Boom Louis

Employees are being stupid? Boom Louis!

[stardecksystem]

Fucking white Mitsubishi was parked outside of our house this morning,,,

I can /hear/ Derek rattling the fucking walls

-Leo

[stardecksystem]

Ya know a lot of people ask "OMG what's the hardest thing you deal with when having D.I.D" and I know the correct answer is like idk memory loss or blurring or trauma and shit but honestly have you ever lost your favorite pair of earrings because another alter wore them and put them somewhere you'd NEVER think of and then they disappear forever?

[stardecksystem]

Wanna be apart of a system discord, will I join one without being invited first? Absolutely not~ Will I watch from afar and wish to make more system friends? Absolutely~

-Leo

[stardecksystem]

I really wish there was a better way to deal with these headaches, I've been finding that they've been getting worse and worse and I don't know if that's because we've been switching more often or because I'm like,,, tricking myself into thinking I have a headache??? Maybe??? I don't know?

Or maybe I'm just not drinking enough water. That might be it, fucking OOPS ~

Anyways our head fucking hurts and I'd very much like it to stop thank you~

-Leo