Location: Costa Coffee, Muggle London
Time: 3rd of December, afternoon
Status: Closed, for @dearborncaradoc
Edgar was wearing his sunglasses. He’d found them at a flea market many years ago and was certain they had to date back to the Victorian Era. Small and round, they were more a form of accessory than they were actually shielding your eyes from the sun. Today he regretted it. The Muggle fashion of the time had come up with massively large glasses and while usually he found them a bit too ... blatant, and the light in this Costa wasn’t half as bright as it could be anyway, he wished he had a pair of them now.
He’d not slept a lot. However, he had been drinking a lot. At first, as most mornings, he hadn’t felt the effect of either, making his way back to the Potter Estate with no issues, apparating away from the back alley behind his apartment just fine, but the moment he had entered the kitchen, he was overcome by an insurmountable weight. On the first of December, he had kept watch here, had kept the minutes of their mission, had stared at the map and seen the teams struggle, incapable of helping without leaving his own duty. Two nights had passed since, but it was as though it was happening right now. The map was still at the head quarters, and when he opened it flat on the kitchen counter, seeing it mostly empty now, it was as though he was dragged back to sleep. Dragged into a dream where things could’ve gotten different, dragged into a state of immobility, dragged deep into thoughts.
He noticed certain names appearing and disappearing by the McKinnon Farm, others at the Estate, one even at Diagon Alley, but he didn’t ... notice it. Indeed like in a dream, he was confined to being a passive observer once again, and as hours and hours passed, no amount of tea-cravings or smoke-cravings could make him move. They had all made it out of it alive. That was what mattered. That was what kept this feeling in his throat from turning regret or panic. And yet. There was one particular event, when that one team had suddenly appeared on the Estate’s ground, and they didn’t move. They just ... stayed on the spot they had appeared on, and Edgar knew something had gone wrong, knew he needed to go check on them -- knew he couldn’t though, because there were others currently facing Death Eaters and their outcome was still in the open, their lives in more urgent need to be watched over. His fingers had pressed into the table, trying to move the unmovable. Just like now, he’d been frozen to the spot, staring at the map and begging, begging, begging, that the cluster of names could just please move. Just an inch. Just a breath.
Caradoc had appeared, then. Not three days ago, but today, on the third. He must’ve called him multiple times before his voice had seeped into Edgar’s mind, because when Edgar finally looked up, he seemed impatient. Was frowning. The map was stashed away again and he had been urged to his feet, urged out of the Estate, urged back to Muggle London, to their usual coffee shop where they discussed all things that shouldn’t be heard by other Wix or by the ears of the Estate’s walls.
A coffee and a savoury pastry before them on the table, Edgar’s middle-fingers were once again burying themselves into the wood, pushing imaginary names milimeter by milimeter. One. Two. Three. Four. Five. The other hand. One. Two. Three. Four. Five. The other hand.