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[ayanawildgoose]

Pulp Fiction

Just watched Pulp Fiction yesterday for the first time ever. First off...LOVED IT. Didn't fall asleep which is a small miracle in itself really. Visually, right out of the gate, I was captivated. Then I started thinking...what's the point of all these rules if they really are just meant to be broken? Tarantino pulled me in while apprently completely doing his own thing with the storytelling and cinematography. The film left me feeling inspired...let me not forget the shock associated with the uncomfortable, somehow humorous, basement scene. If you've seen the film, you may catch my drift...if not, go watch it!! It's totally worth it. :)

Stay up,

Yanti

[ayanawildgoose]

Love a man with locs. Can I play in your hair baby?

[ayanawildgoose]

Bang This

How much longer

will we

play cat and mouse

pulled together

and apart from that

won't you have me?

only 

if you want me of course

even if you don't

of course

you're not sure

are you?

Although 

I'm sure you are lonely

without me

boom, bang, boned

alone

technologically advanced

socially inept

as am I

Today

tweaked the lights

knew it was you

told me you could

so 

guess we're in communcation

since you're in my

thoughts

won't think about him

anymore

promise

if you catch me

discipline

so raw

but

so passed future so

what's up

what we gonna do?

[ayanawildgoose]

Looking for the Wizard

This reality I'm in seems so fragile At any point it could all be gone Yet we cling so tightly as if As if As if But if The wind swept in and Blew us away Kansas would indeed be left behind And so would you

[ayanawildgoose]

Nobody's Perfect

So basically, I could say "I love you" in a million billion different ways. I could say it in different languages, with gifts, with affection, with sacrifice… and it wouldn't matter at all. I could climb the highest mountain just because I knew you were on the other side and it was your birthday so I had to bring you your present. I could save you from a burning building. I could jump in front of a bullet for you, and you still wouldn't believe me. So what exactly am I supposed to do? If I carved "I love you" into my wrists with a blade would you believe me then? If I turned into a hermit and lived in a cabin all by myself with no furniture, no decoration other than pictures of us together on a wall would you believe me then? Or should I just walk away because I'm not worthy of your love. Or am I just crazy? Probably. Everything I've done in the past is just too much for you to forgive and I'm evil and I'm immature and I'm not good for you or anyone. Right? So I guess all of the things you said, you really meant, except for the love part. You couldn't have possibly meant that if I tell you the truth and you assume I'm not real. Like I couldn't possibly love someone like you. Well I can because I am someone like you… What does that mean for each of us though. I'd say it's pretty dark. Nobody's perfect…but you're perfect for me.

[ayanawildgoose]

Invisible

I thought I could fight the feeling Of Wanting to wake up in your arms Or Needing to hear your voice To See your face Even if I'm invisible I thought I could fight the feeling Of this Stone I never let go Because I thought it would be Ours I can't take it off I can't stop hoping Wishing You never ran away Cuz now I'm here Still As always Without you

[ayanawildgoose]

And just like I predicted... You didn't love me, you loved the idea of me but then I was just me... So you ran away. But I'm good. I love me. That's how it has to be.

[ayanawildgoose]

Just no

I guess, if you believe in God you can’t be who you are… According to most people. I really don’t understand that at all. How could you Tell someone they would have to change who they are to be accepted by God. See… God is perfect unconditional love. A love that we cannot be because we are not perfect at all. The most unattractive belief to me is that the LGBTQ community would have to change and “repent” in order to come to know Christ’s love. We aren’t supposed to cast stones in glass houses. Stones don’t just have to be physical, they can be belief systems. That belief system is one of the most detrimental belief systems in the Church. Not one of us are righteous. So please stop acting like just because you know “the law” all of a sudden you become the judge… You weren’t even on the jury. You were just a basic bystander that came to court just to be a part of the peanut gallery and because of you and your big mouth now God is judging you for judging others lol come on. Read yo Bible. Stop.