#carouselian lore

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Sooo since the opposite of the monarch's personality is the carouselians, Shaymin is not actually happy as the monarch?

On rare occasions, I do have brief moments where I am genuinely happy, but it affects the Carouselians and I must revert back to my neutral state immediately. Even if I am forced to go for long periods without feeling the true sense of joy, it is still my duty to keep it that way, and I will.

[sigh]

But what's that to stop me from trying to be friendly despite my false smile? And... as long as I keep my people happy, shouldn't that be good enough for me as the monarch?

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The Crowning of the Monarch [Part 1]

"It's been a few years since the ruling of the past Monarchs.. As well as the war.. I was a difficult pursue in keeping the title of Monarch, considering my young age and immaturity in that time."

"I've never really wrote about what happened.. I never knew what a diary was until my friend Koi had told me. I thought I'd give it a try, so now I’m here, writing my first entry."

"The time it all started, was when I was at the age of 15. An immature age, considered way too young to be fit of the status of a Carouselian Monarch. But it wasn't of my choice, it all came so suddenly."

~~ 8 years ago ~~

(“I went to visit my sister’s quarters to ask a question. I heard a certain phrase just some minutes ago and thought maybe she’d know the answer.. I didn’t know what would become of that visit.”)

:knock~ knock~:

“!......” (”From outside I could hear my sister fumbling with something, I wasn’t sure what though~”) “Come in~..”

(”I opened the door wide enough for me to at least slide through and quietly shut it behind me”)

"Big sister~? Are you crying..?" (”I asked, noticing her dried tears. I wanted to reassure her.”)

"Eh~ Ah- Shaymin? Why are you here~? Shouldn't you be outside with your friends~?” (”I was with them, but my curious question made me leave them early”)

"I wanted to ask you a question.. But you’re sad.. And I don't want to be a bother.."

"Hahhhh~~ You're such an innocent~ Come sit, I'm already happy with your presence~ What did you want to ask, hm~?" (”She beckoned me over to her chair. I took a seat and she sat down in front of me.”)

"I don't really want to ask it since it may not be a nice question..?"

"Ah never-mind that~ Tell me~"

"Umm.. What did the Non-Carouselians mean when they said, "I'm dejected..?" (”Heh~ A funny question to ask hm~? You’d think that I’d know considering that I was 15. But I was kept from many things and the many things were hidden away from me for my own safety. My father happened to be very strict, he was a special father to me because of that~”)

(”My sister paused for a moment, with a realization that something had happened when I was outside with “friends””) ".... Tell me, Shaymin, what happened outside..?"

"Huh~? Uhm.. Well I was talking with my friends at the flower field.. And I saw Koi.. And I wanted to tell her that I love her very much because she was my best friend.. So I gave her a flower... Kak nye..."

((*”Kak nye”=“But” in Russian*))

Older sister: "Kak nye~?"

"She ran away.. I think she misunderstood me.. And then the other Non-Carouselians also left, all while chanting this word, "Dejected".. Tell me sister, what does it mean~?"

"Shaymin~ I don't think you should talk to them anymore~ Why sister~? They don't deserve you as their friend, okay~? Why don't you talk to the other Carouselians, be their friends~?"

"But they don't understand me~! They're always smiling about anything and everything! It's so hard to talk, let alone be friends with them~!"

"Hmm.. I know it's hard.. But it's better than talking to those other kids right~? At least the Carouselian children will be true to their word~"

(”It was true, the Carouselian children were nice at the time, but those of royalty had a different personality to them, it was difficult. I mumbled, slightly annoyed and let out a small sigh”) "..Okay...." (”I rose up from the chair, and then remembered my sister’s mournful eyes. So out of curiosity, I asked her”) "I didn't ask how you were doing, big sister~ You had tears in your eyes, what hurt you~?

"Was I crying~? Oh.. Yes.. Well.. I saw father~ He came to visit.."

"Baba came..? But he passed away years ago! And how come I didn't get to see him~?!" (”I knew that when one didn’t return back from some place, they had passed away, but I never knew what death’s experience looked like up close~”)

"How do I explain it to you~~ Despite being 15 your still so pure~ How would you understand with such innocence~?"

"Explain what~? What's there to explain~?" (”My sister had confused me, I wasn’t sure what she meant by “understand”. I wasn’t sure what was there to understand.”)

"Shaymin.. Will you be ready~? When I'm gone? Will you be ready to take your place as Monarch~?" (”Tears begun welding up in her eyes again.”)

"Big sister..? You're crying again~!"

(”My dear sister’s voice began to grow heavy by the second, due to my lack of knowledge of death, I wasn’t sure of what was happening.”) "You'll be ready won't you. Your older sister won't have to worry about you, right? You'll be safe, promise~?"

"Big sister~?" (”I called her again”)

(”My sister’s heavy breaths turned into desperate gasps. She suddenly grasped my arm and looked me in the eyes, begging for me to promise her that I’d keep myself safe..”) "Shaymin.. Innocent Shaymin.. Promise me please~"

(”I was unable to tell the situation, I only knew something was wrong..”) "Sister, I-"

(”She squeezed my arm, begging me again~”) "Shaymin. You are to take place of Monarch when I'm gone you understand~? Please, promise me that you'll be safe."

Shaymin: "I promise sister~ But-"

"Thank you Shaymin~ I will see you soon, okay~?" (”She said nothing more, after..”)

"What~ Sister~? Where are you going- Wh- Sister!"

(”My sister simply smiled at me~ And I watched the life of her eyes fade away into an empty portal of nothingness. A loud thud followed directly as her lifeless body fell to the floor.

Shaymin: "Big sister~? Big sister!" (”In a few brief moments, I whirled around wildly for some sort of thing to help my sister. In fact, I wasn’t even sure of what I was looking for-”) "Guards?! Guards! Someone! HELP!" (”I finally called out.”)

(”the door flew open but instead of the guards, it was our mother~ And after a moment’s realization, she brought her hands up to cover her shocked expression.”

“Vivian..? Shaymin? What happened?!”

"Mama~ She just fell! I don't know what happened! We were talking, she saw Baba, told me to be the Monarch, and she fell! Mama please! Help her~!”

"Sebastian visited her too..?"

"Mama~?"

(”Suddenly, just like my sister, she grasped my hand as her life also began to fade away..”) “Shaymin. You are the last of the royal family that is able to take place as the Monarch. You must-” (”A coughing fit cut her off from continuing.”)

"Mama? What do you mean Baba "visited her too~" You saw him as well~? Mama answer me~! M-"

“Shaymin.. Dear.. I wish you.. The best of luck..” (”And just like my sister, she too, collapsed with the same sunken expression that my sister had.”)

"MAMA!"

(”The door flew open again and this time, in rushed the guards along with a doctor. Without moment’s hesitation, the doctor rushed towards the fallen and checked their breathing and heartbeat. I expected him to give me at least some assurance. But none came..”)

(”His desperate expression suddenly changed to an expression of shock as he figured the tragedy. They were dead. But I hadn’t known then..”)

(”The doctor beckoned a guard to escort me from the room.”

"Doctor?! Are they going to be okay?!: (”I asked, desperate for an answer.”)

(”A guard approached me.”) "Duchess Shaymin, it's best we escort you outside-"

"NYET! I WILL NOT! DOCTOR! DOCTOR! ANSWER ME! ARE THEY GOING TO BE OKAY?! DOCTOR!" (”I tried. Everything. The doctor never answered.”)

(”The guard approached me again.”) "Duchess, please."

(”I said nothing, I just wanted an answer. I decided I was going to stay until I had gotten an answer. However, the guards were to do as they were told and had no choice but to forcefully take me outside.”)

"NYET. NYET. NYET! UNHAND ME AT ONCE! I REFUSE TO LEAVE! PLEASE! LET ME GO! DOCTOR! DOCTOR! TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG! DOCTOR, PLEASE!"

(That was it. Their deaths, started an endless swarm of unfortunate events..")

("The moment the doors closed after I was taken outside, General Advisor, Damien rushed to my side to comfort me. I wasn't aware of why he was comforting me.. I wasn't crying. I was simply in shock. But, nevertheless, I accepted his kindness.")

("The doctor came outside after some time, took the General Damien to the side, and I guess, he was explaining the situation.. The General Advisor wore a shocked expression on his face upon hearing the news..")

("I didn't get to see my mother and sister. I wasn't even allowed to attend their funeral. I don't blame those who stopped me. I was unstable. I would've probably gone mad and attempt to alter reality to bring them back.. That would've been disastrous.")

("A day later, the new Monarch had to be given. But I was too young. And many were confused as no one else was a part of the Carouselian Royalty.. So an issue was made to discuss the matter in court....")

[End of Part 1]

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(!~Part 2~!) (!~Part 3~!)

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The Crowning of the Monarch [Part 3]

((!~Part 1~!)) ((!~Part 2~!))

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~~Eight years earlier, one day after the passing of The Monarch, Vivian~~

~~After the disappearance of Dario~~

(“News over the death of my dear sister spread like wildfire. The same occurred about Dario’s disappearance as well.

(“As a new ruler, I knew it would be horrendous of me to turn away from the accident I created. And it was not as if this was a regular person, this was Snow’s father. He and his family had been a part of the kingdom’s consensus for as many years as our history books say. Trying to ignore and silence words of my rage over him would make me unworthy of a leader.

(“So I made my effort. I requested Damien to send an order to the guards to search all of the center dimensions of the carousels I had conjured; it was possible that Dario had been pulled into one during the chaos.

(“I had to put my best effort in as well, and I made an attempt of searching every part of my carousel’s center dimension and the few realms that I had created within it. Unfortunately, there wasn’t a sign of him anywhere...

(“The Carouselian guards that had ventured into the carousel returned with no news of Dario either, but I refused to believe it and informed that they continued searching. I wanted every stone turned. Whether he was dead or alive, he needed to be found.

(“I even made the order to postpone my coronation to the next week for the search.

(“Eventually, days passed with no sign of Dario, and time was drawing nearer to my overdue coronation. As I awaited news of the search party being successful in their repeated ventures into the carousels, Damien acquired a personal Carouselian guard for me in the mean time.

(“For the start, I did not have an idea as to why Damien brought me a personal guard despite already having several in front of every door. But he advised that this Carouselian guard, would help in getting accustomed to their personalities. I had not yet had my coronation, so I could not be considered a Monarch officially, but a living heir is instantly given status in the eyes of the Carouselians after the late Monarch’s passing. Therefore I had already become one, and now had control over all of their personalities.

(“It took a long while to get used to it. Aside from all of the duties a Monarch has during the day, keeping the Carouselian personalities aligned had a far greater responsibility and priority. And today, it still does.

(“Turgut, was the guard’s name, and like all Carouselians, he was friendly. But that’s what I thought with my past-current, stressed, and half crestfallen and half heated mood.

(“He followed me almost everywhere I went. Sometimes t got onto my nerves but he didn’t seem to realize it as his expression never changed from a smile.

(“After a while, I got used to Turgut bringing up a conversation and updating me about news within the kingdom. Then at some point, I thought I would be the first to start an affable conversation with him.”)

“Say, tell me about yourself~ I don’t recall in any conversations that you had done so already.”

(“The moment the words came out, his expression turned cross.”)

“Because there was no need to go about my life to a child. What do you think?” (“Turgut responded without hesitation through narrowed eyes.”)

(“His sudden change of face and tone sent a shiver down my spine. Was it something I said? Maybe the question I asked was too personal. But that couldn’t be... Carouselians are incredibly open with everyone.

(“My brows furrowed and I glared into his ice-cold eyes.”) “I beg your pardon?”

(“Turgut’s expression immediately swung back to what it was initially. But it was not due to being intimidated by my look or my authority.”)

“Ah- My sincerest apologies... Please, excuse my offensiveness, Duchess. I’m not sure what came over me.” (“He said, kneeling on one leg and taking his hat off and offering it as if he was telling me to take his title away from him.”)

(“I was puzzled at his sudden changes of emotion, but after a brief moment, I instantly figured out why it occurred.

(“I took the hat from his hands and placed it back over his head.”) “You are not at any wrong. The fault is mine.”

“I will return to my quarters. Keep me informed if anything has occurred.”

“Of course, Duchess.”

(“As I left Turgut to return to his duties, I pondered again over what happened. Since my sister and mother had passed, I had immediately begun holding control over the Carouselians. And through Turgut’s change of face, I noticed at once that his personality depended on what emotion I felt. Today had been the first time in a while that I smiled, and it was the first time that I had seen a Carouselian with such a blackened expression.

(“If I were to feel a positive emotion, the Carouselians would present a negative personality. And whatever negative emotions I felt, the situation would be vice versa.

(“Back then, I thought it was cruel for such a responsibility to be put onto a Monarch, and I sat at my table and thought anxiously of how long I would be able lead a kingdom without being able to express any form of happiness.")

(“But regrettably, it was the sad truth and I had to endure it. I couldn’t put my happiness first over the Carouselians’. It would not make me a good ruler, but a selfish and malicious one.

(“During my wallowing, I recalled how my father and sister led the kingdom when they were alive. Despite everything that could have troubled them, I vividly remember seeing them smile.

(“If this control of personality was their responsibility during their rule, it must have meant they faced everything with a fake expression of happiness...”)

(“And now I would have to do the same.”)

(“Smile as if nothing and everything happened.

(“And it worked just as I expected.

(“I turned away from the mirror I had been looking into and walked out of my room with a false, 'good mood'. Conveniently, Turgut was already coming to greet me.”)

“Afternoon, Duchess~”

“I do have some news, but may I ask to whom I owe the pleasure of to see you smiling so cheerily~?”

"Well, I remembered the day of my coronation is arriving~ Therefore, it would not be fit of me to walk around so glumly now, would it~?" ("He didn't seem to notice that my smile was in-genuine.")

"Of course not, my Duchess. But it has been a while since anyone has seen you in a pleasant mood. I'm happy to know that you are doing well~"

“Thank you, Turgut~” (“I replied before following it up immediately with a question.”) “Now, I believe you said there was news for me~”

“Yes, there is. The search party had a minor accident some time ago. Then when the furore settled down, they happened to find a feather pen with Dario’s name inscribed into it.”

(“I concluded that when he meant ‘some time ago’, he must have meant the time I showed sincerity in my smile. Either way, what happened, had happened, and I had finally received some good news; I almost let my expression slip because of it, though thankfully I managed to keep myself in check this time.”) “Well done~ Have they informed you on which carousel and what type of realm he might have gone into?”

“It is a carousel of forty realms, each which also have another set of dimensions. Due to its vast size however, the search has become difficult.”

“Send word that I would like the search party to return back. They have already been searching for far too long so they must be tired. I would like for them to take time off before venturing in again... Do you have anything else for me to hear?”

“Yes, Duchess. Damien had wanted to remind you of your Singly Clandestine Cordialance that you will perform during the morning of your coronation.”

“... My ‘Singly Clandestine Cordialance’...?”

“I’m afraid I cannot give you any insight. But Damien did advise for you to meet the guard, Ruslan's sisters.”

“I see... I assume that is all you have for me?”

(“Turgut nodded.”) “If you wish, I will leave to carry your request right away.”

“You are excused. Thank you.”

(“That concluded another event, possibly not too relevant or important, but does give information towards my ruling in the kingdom. Perhaps the next incident will provide for a more significant story, though...

(“It is wounding to speak about, and remember for that matter. But this is a diary so I suppose writing this all down will take a load off of me... I did say once before, that there is tension which does for some excitement, so that does give an excuse for me to write the event after all...”)

[End of Part 3]

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The Crowning of the Monarch [Part 2]

((Please click here to read Part 1 if you haven’t done so already~!))

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~~Eight years earlier, one day after the passing of The Monarch, Vivian~~

"I object! She is far too young to be crowned as the Kingdom's Monarch!

(Dario. A lawyer, and Snow's father. Known to be the cause of the few rumours that had spread around the Kingdom. He studied many forms of literature to gain experience for his debates. However, at some times he took his arguments very far..")

"Besides her younger sister, She is the only one left of the Royal Carouselian family, therefore she is obliged to be crowned as the next Monarch!"

(General and Royal Advisor, Damien. A close acquaintance of my fathers. After my father's passing, I considered him as my adoptive father.)

"She shall not! She is inexperienced in the summoning of the Carousels! Are you in want of having a Carousel falling atop your head during the coronation?!"

"There will be no such bizarre thing of what you speak of, done! There is no other Carouselian from any other family that is capable of taking place as a Monarch! Or might you have any suggestions?”

"There are so many Non-Carouselians like ourselves to choose from!"

"You must be joking to come to that suggestion! A Non-Carouselian, Monarch to a Kingdom mainly full of Carouselians?!"

"I believe it's better than to have an inexperienced adolescent as a ruler!

("I was in debate with myself on whether I should claim the title. I was in every right, but the amount of stress that had suddenly been thrown upon my shoulders was immense. It was all so hard to handle.")

"I disagree! The royalty of the Carouselians all have an intricate personality that none in this world could match! Their personality aligns the balance within the Kingdom!"

"Put aside the personalities for Heaven's sake! I've had enough of them!"

("Yes, I was young, but I was still heir to the throne, and it was my sister's will that I take the throne after her, and I couldn't disobey one's will. As well as that, it was my due right to fulfill it at all costs for the Kingdom's safety in terms of the personalities.")

"They may not be thrown to the side! They are crucial for the flourishing of this Kingdom!"

"They've only caused havoc between us Non-Carouselians and the Carouselians!"

("It was a struggle, making a decision, but I finally came to the conclusion of my choice~")

"You were there to see their blank expressions during the Civil Carouselian War! You SAW as they mercilessly kil-"

"SILENCE!" ("I finally roared, having heard enough of the constant arguing-")

(”As expected, those in the midst of arguing all stopped in their tracks~”)

"As one who is a part of the Royal Carouselian Family, next in line for the title of Monarchy, I've come to a decision.." "I under any circumstance, WILL claim my title as the new Monarch~ Under the condition that Royal Advisor, Damien, will be my personal aid in the duration of my adolescent years~" ("I paused for few moments~ Waiting for a response. The Advisor simply nodded respectfully and stood silent.")

"But- Duchess. You're far too young!"

"Did I not say that The General will be aiding me?"

".. He isn't of Carouselian blood however~!"

"The matter of blood does not come in way of helping a Monarch rule a Kingdom. For someone who indulges themselves in literature I assume you should have  been aware of this, no?"

("Dario's pride was instantly hurt. He was one known to be irrational, and acted begrudgingly against some.") "You are of no right to insult me using the word of literature, child! You're father would be ashamed to hear you speak to an elder like this!" ("It was a split second later that Dario realized the effects his words had on me.")

"At what status are you to assume what my past father would do..? What. RIGHT?!”

(“It wasn’t in my intention to call upon a Carousel, but in an instant, a large, horrifying Carousel burst from the floor without my consent. I assume I lost control over my actions.”)

(“Carouselians are able to create a Carousel based upon their emotions and summon it. Most of them are joyful and unique, however the one that had suddenly appeared, was one rather frightening. And so were the others that uncontrollably appeared throughout the Kingdom’s gardens out of thin air~”)

(”I was at a loss for emotions as well as conscience. I wasn’t in control of my thoughts either. Visions and memories of my deceased family swarmed my thoughts instead of reality’s situation”)

(”The more I saw these visions of my mother, father, and sister, the more terrifying Carousels rose from the Earthen soils. All flaming with rage and crying tears full of guilt and regret~”)

(”Aside from my ability to hear, I had no other attachment to reality within those moments. I only recall hearing The General attempting to calm me down but to no avail~”)

(”Then a familiar voice called out~”)

”Koi~?”

(”I wandered a few steps blindly.”)

(”At some point she found me, in my dangerous state. I don’t remember her sentences or words because of my detachment from reality, I only remember her frightened yet concerned tone.”)

(”Hearing Koi, I gained some bit of my conscience back and managed to regain control of my thoughts. I wasn’t sure why she kept repeating the words, ‘I’m sorry.’ Why was she taking fault~? She hadn’t done anything~ But nevertheless, I managed to regain control of the flaming Carousels, thanks to her, my friend~”)

(“The Kingdom was in a great mess, thankfully it was easily saved. But it required the reversing of time and and altering of reality to revive the Kingdom’s liveliness. Seeing it’s condition, I had no choice. I summoned my own Carousel for the last time that day to fix what had been ruined under my rage.”)

(”I am unsure of what happened to Dario during my rage. That day was the last I saw of him. Even if he had died during the sudden Carousel explosion, there would have at least been some remains.. However there were none. Thinking back, I feel sorry that I had done such a terrible thing.”)

(”A new day arrives, the preparation of my coronation. One would possibly have some sort of.. Excitement, da? But.. What was excitement in such a time of stress~? I was in no condition to smile. And why. Why was this all happening so fast~?”)

[End of Part 2]

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(!~Part 3~!)