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BELLE OF THE BALL —Carson Jordan​

I’ve got a bad case of the slips hip clicking in nylon jaw tipping sexy Post Nut Clarity oh Fiona, we’re all a bad girl in someone’s song tell me the muse of that man maybe we can call her Candy In The Wild sparse and unheady a girl who can really make a g-string sing hold her to your ear hear the open promise to come Worthy Club, do I speak or am I just gorgeous 

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Why I Take Butt Selfies: A Dedication to my Derrière

Hello, Strung Outt Z!ne! Let me beginby locating myself. My name is Carson Jordan. I’m a white, bi, feminist, liberal arts college student/writer/daughter/sister/friend/partner with a sassy, confrontational attitude and a plump butt. In the past six months, I have began a tasty, booty-ful journey with my body. After working a Thai restaurant and gaining a little more weight than I would have liked (although it is worth it for all that Pad See Ew) something really strange happened. Instead of feeling bad about my body, I started to actively feel good. Everyday I would appreciate how fat I’d gotten, because a) that means my body is working correctly, b) I never felt unhealthy, and c) I loved how I looked. I had always been intrigued and inspired by the #honormycurves and #effyourbodystandards movements on Instagram, and had decided to participate in a public display of body positivity and create my own movement for myself: The Butt Selfie. A butt selfie is a (semi)tasteful picture of ones booty/body that encompasses a notion of confidence and a little “I don’t give a fuck” attitude.

I hadn't thought about my pictures as activism, until women around me started telling me how much I inspired their journeys—whether through butt selfies, or loving their body. I think what’s important, at the end of the day. At the end of the day,  I love my body because it functions. I love my body because it loves me back. I love my body because it’s brave. Sometimes, people are frustrated with me. “My boyfriend would never let me do that!” or “What if a future employer sees that?” I am living in the now. My partner doesn’t own my body. Sometimes, taking a good ol’ fashion butt selfie can turn a bad day around.  I can want positive reinforcement for my body anytime.  

I think a lot about my history as a woman when people tell me I inspire them. I wasn’t always confident, and I didn’t always want to shine brightly with my booty on the internet. Throughout my “coming of age” at sixteen, I was horribly harassed by a girl who hated me for, as my friends and family said, being pretty, I was physically abused by a boyfriend who called me a whore, I was anti-social, depressed, and hiding behind my own brightness. This is my coming of age, as a 21 year old. As an adult. You can reinvent yourself at any age. Those early years of development don't define anyone.

Somedays I wake up and don’t like my body. Somedays I wake up and feel like #bodypositivity on Instagram is EXTREMELY thin, EXTREMELY flat bellied, and EXTREMELY normative. Sometimes I feel like no one out there looks like me, and therefore my survival as a bigger woman will be harder. Sometimes, I think about how I should consider women bigger than me, who might feel marginalized by my #bodypositivity. Somedays I wake up and feel like hot shit. I wake up feeling like #IWokeUpLikeThis or #YouWishIWasYourPoundCake. Somedays I wake up and think that I should be working out everyday and only eating carrots. Somedays I’m perfectly content eating Pad Thai in my underwear at noon on a Friday. I give my body credit for letting me love it, through all of these up and downs.

With Valentine’s Day approaching, I would like to put out a call to all of you. Love your body publicly. Love it privately. Get a tattoo. Wear a cute outfit. Put glitter on or gem your face. You’re hot shit. You are beautiful. Your booty is fab.

Love/Lust,

Carson

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Carson Jordan

Carson Jordan is a junior at a small liberal arts college, Wells College, where she spends her days taking gender studies and poetry courses, crocheting, taking butt selfies, and watching stand up comedy and cartoons. She is extremely interested in feminist intersectionalities, especially within poetry, media, and sustainability. She is a tattoo enthusiast, thrift store fashionista and a sass master. She's happy to be contributing to the Strung Out Z!ne project, and looks up to all the beautiful contributors as heroes! Follow her on instagram @cahhhhson, and see all of her posts here.