a letter to the younger me - you’re fighting so hard. please do not give up. it does not get better, it probably never will, but you will like the light through the darkness. they make each day worth living. it isn’t love. it might feel like it but it isn’t. you will give up so much to become someone he might love but in the end he will leave. everyone will leave sooner or later. it is nothing that you did so do not hate yourself. it did not work but you will find someone. you will find someone that makes everything worthwhile. you are not alone. there will be nights where you feel so alone it hurts. nights where you will cry yourself to sleep but you will meet people that become everything. some of them will live far away, some of them will be right on your door step. these people will open your arms and make sure you feel loved. you will never really be alone. the skin you are in is beautiful. every little flaw has a story and you will grow to love them. there will be days where you want to change everything about you but one day you will grow to love yourself. that isn’t a bad thing and do not feel shame. your emotions and opinions are not shackles that bind you, they are wings and one day you shall soar.
one day we shall all be dust // but now you can shine like star dust (c.f)