Requested by idesofnovember from this Writing Meme and contains spoilers for Truthful Child:
gosh this is hard because I feel like for most of your fics I was texting you or even livebeta'ing so I feel very privileged to be deep within your thought process already. but what about this scene from Truthful Child, if you can remember that far back:
Her tears came as though they had always been, and Endymion felt jealous of her ability to mourn so openly. She doubled over, clutching around her middle as she pitched forward. Instinctively, Endymion was there, catching her before she fell. Then his axis shifted so sharply that he nearly lost his footing. She was not the anomaly, something that should not be. It was he who was the erroneous entity in this universe. She pushed at him even as she tugged him closer, and the feel of her so very alive in his arms broke all resolve he had. She was his Usako, but she was not his. She belonged to a man who was already dead. As he held this young girl, breathily sobbing a dead man’s name over and over, his mind firmly set on one goal. He would do anything to fix her world, to make it better. While he was not her Mamoru, he was still hers. He turned sharply to Pluto. “Forget our previous plans, we’re fixing this. I don’t care what we have to do.”
Oh gosh, this scene! It’s actually one of the first few scenes I’d written for Truthful Child.
Up until this point, Endymion had been trying hard to hold on to the belief that the past he found himself in wasn’t true, that there was still a way to bring about his own future. He was also grieving (and would continue to do so, even after his memories were lost) for his wife and daughter, both now dead.
Before this scene he tries so hard to avoid her. Partly because he doesn’t want to mess things up more than they already were, but mostly (and unspokenly if I recall) he didn’t want to think of her as real.
But here she is, crying and mourning, and he realizes that she is the present. His future won’t happen exactly as it had because the present changed so drastically. No matter what point in time, she was, at the core, the woman he loved. And, as always, he would die to keep her safe, and in this case, to make sure she lived happy.
I’m pretty sure this all read as pretentious, when in fact it’s just all Wibbly Wobbly Timey Wimey xD