July 13-15 2025 2010
It should be noted that in troll language, the word for friend is exactly the same as the word for enemy.
Equius likes structure. Theres expectations he follows and outside of that hes unsure how to navigate his emotions. I feel like part of that is his innate need to keep his strength in check. When he gets angry its harder to excert his already tenuous control so clinging to the rigid idea of blood caste systems is a grounding method.
CT: D --> You will stop
TC: WhOaAaA, i WiLl?
TC: hOw Do YoU kNoW tHaT?
CT: D --> No, you don't understand
CT: D --> It's not a predi%ion, it's an order
CT: D --> I command you to stop
TC: Oh, AlRiGhT bRoThEr.
[...]
CT: D --> No
CT: D --> This is una%eptable
CT: D --> Ok, let's start over
[...]
CT: D --> Don't you understand that you're better than me
CT: D --> Can you please act like it
CT: D --> That's not a command, it's just a polite request I guess
As we can see in this conversation with Gamzee, deviating from that is to some degree distressing especially when faced with an individual who has a much looser grasp on the rules of society.
CT: D --> Honestly I'm confused by the social order
TC: mAn, Me ToO. i DoN't KnOw WhAt Of FuCkIn WhAt CoLoR iS wHaT, sO i DoN't BoThEr WiTh ThInKiN oN tHaT mOtHeRfUcKeR.
CT: D --> See, that's what I mean
CT: D --> How is it possible for one of your distin%ion to be so ignorant
CT: D --> And loathesome
[...]
CT: D --> I find these striking ju%tapositions perple%ing, and I confess strangely into%icating
Even still he likes it. He doesn’t want to like it but he does. Without order, without rules how can he conduct himself in the correct manner. Even still theres a draw from not having to follow those rules that he cant help. We see this after his conversation with Vriska. In it we learn that present for Aradia was made by him and more about how little the two trust each other. “You naturally will doublecross your accomplice, just as you assume she has plans to doublecross you. You assume she is assuming the same of you. Business as usual for blue bloods.” Exhausting business isnt it?
Heres where Equius starts to toe the line.
How ironic that someone of your blood purity must work to win the favor of the lowest sort of peasant. Humiliating. Strangely titillating, even. But in the end, class order will be restored.
You don't know what to make of the feelings she stirs. For one like you to entertain thoughts of attraction for such genetic filth would be utter depravity.
Exquisite, delectable depravity.
We can see the full extent of Equius’ issues from this reveal of robo Aradia. He has problems reconciling his feelings with the need to follow class structure. I think he is mixing his genuine feelings with the seductiveness of breaking the rules. Its similar to the addictiveness of breaking his bows. He doesn’t want to but it feels good because its out of his control and just a small way that he can excert power that he tries to reign in. Its not healthy.
But worry not. Your heart will pump no more of that despicable red sludge. You have been given a new heart. You can be taught the ways of the class you were always meant for. No one is beyond redemption.
A gift for Aradia it might be in an objective sense, but from this we can see its just a way for Equius to gain back the control hes ‘losing’ by not sticking to the class structure. He sees no wrong in this move beecause thats just how it should be, the upper class dictates what the lower one does and should be. So wrapped up in his fantasy, he punches one of the nearby robots out of the hive and down onto the doomsday device below (which I just made the connection to with the game Trouble). While the device itsself doesn’t explode it does break the chains sending down onto the spider below. Aurthour is an unfortunant casuallty.
Back with Terezi for a moment we see a conversation between her and Vriska.
GC: TH3 TRUC3 W4SNT 4BOUT NOT PL4Y1NG G4M3S TOG3TH3R DUMMY
GC: 1T W4S 4BOUT NOT ST4BB1NG 34CH OTH3R 1N TH3 B4CK 4NYMOR3
GC: 4ND STOPP1NG TH3 3NDL3SS CYCL3 OF R3V3NG3
GC: 4ND 4BOV3 4LL NOT US1NG YOUR POW3RS TO HURT P3OPL3 WHO DONT D3S3RV3 1T!
[...]
GC: W3 W3R3 SUPPOS3D TO B3 L1K3 4 V1G1L4NT3 DUO D1SP3NS1NG JUST1C3
GC: 4ND YOU COULD T4K3 TH3 B4D GUYS HOM3 4ND F33D TH3M TO YOUR STUP1D SP1D3R
GC: BUT 1NST34D YOU JUST F3D H3R 3V3RYBODY!
GC: 4ND L13D 4ND L13D 4ND L13D
A flashback to shortly after the FLARP accident gives us more context to what occurred on the Tere/Ara side. At some point in the Clouder session Vris’ mystery white text friend managed to appear much to the confusion of the girls. More importantly my confusion. I’ve likened this guy to the exiles but this shows hes not only known by some of the other trolls but actually able to make direct contact in the current plane before the game even starts. That will have to be touched on in the next post since I feel like the reveal is gonna be crazy. The page link taunts me. (Also I realized the second voice in my pinned post is very reminisent of this guy. That was totally accidental. My second voice is not a douche.) But with how recent the incident was to this log the emotions are still very fresh.
GC: 1 HOP3 YOUR3 NOT TH1NK1NG OF DO1NG 4NYTH1NG 1N R3T4L14T1ON
GC: 1TLL 3ND B4DLY
GC: YOU SHOULD L3T M3 H4NDL3 1T
AA: im n0t scared 0f her
AA: she cant c0ntr0l me
This story is all about cycles. We’ve seeen many of them repeating and self fulfill. Weve seen them being created and destroyed. Weve seen them reach conclusions that are both good and bad. “An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind.” What Aradia decides to do next, against Terezi’s advice, is just the starting domino in a string of bad choices. Using her powers, Ara summons the spirits of the dead trolls fed to Vriskas lusus. A ‘physical’ representation of Vriskas actions. White Text’s chat bubble appears slow, a bright beacon in the sea of grey but just as haunting and dangerous.
Aren't you going to kill her?
AG: Who????????
Your friend.
The one who summoned the spirits.
AG: Will that make them go away?
Does it matter?
She brought them here to torment you. This obviously warrants revenge.
You know you're going to anyway. You won't be able to help yourself.
AG: I don't have to do shit!
AG: May8e I don't mind ghosts. May8e they'll 8e gr8 company once I get used to them!
[...]
I will go.
But maybe you're right. Maybe you are a person with free will and you won't kill your friend.
What do I know?
Enjoy your haunting.
Througout this conversation all I can get is a sense that WT is toying with Vriska. Not necessarily because he finds enjoyment in it but more so like a cat toying with prey. Doing it because he can. Doing it because seeing the struggle is more facinating than the final kill. Hes essentially dangling his own power in front of Vriska tempting her to prove him wrong. But she cant. Shes not strong enough, in character, in will, in bravery. But is it against an adult authority? Against fate and predestination? Against the cycles Skaia orchestrates?
How about this guy? Unfortunately, you can only control him about half the time.
Then again, that should be all the time you need.
AG: Arrivederci, Megido.










