Well, I canceled my surgery.
I didn't take my shot this week (possibly ill advised, as no physicians were consulted) and am therefore officially in the detox process.
I ... Un-came out? To my mom, most supportive aunt, favorite brother, my best friend in each state I've lived in since high school, my roommate, my boss, and my therapist. Everyone is very supportive, nobody has said anything that includes "phase" or "told you so" re: either hormones or surgery.
I'm kind of just riding out a high right now. I think it's just all the pent up fem energy from the past year.
I bought two of those lacy racerback bras with no real cups or underwires the other day because I don't own any bras and I also don't have the same chest size as I used to, but I've loved these since they came into fashion and I was always bummed I no longer wore bras. Now I have two! And I look cute as hell!!
I just went to the best goodwill in town for clothes and bought two pairs of "girl" pants (one maroonish jegging, one pink gap khakis), two super awesome pairs of dress shoes (black lace-up flats, purple lace-up ankle boots), a big slouchy open sweater, a button up that's entirely lace except for blue satin sleeve cuffs and chest pockets(!!!), and like seven really cute fall-appropriate dresses and Y'ALL I AM LIVING!!!
I love everything UGH
I've also noticed I no longer have the same hang ups about clothes that I used to before hormones. I'm not averse to pink or worried about whether my shoulders can pull off those shirts and dresses with no sleeves where the fabric all comes down from the collar. The answer is yes! I can pull them off if they're the right size, my man!
Oh god, I knew I missed the easiness of putting on a dress and going, but I didn't realize how much until I was in the dressing room looking at myself in them. Aaaaaaaaaa
I'm gonna go buy nice smelling bath soaps and pamper the heck outta myself, oh yes.